I can relate to your frustrations. I had DD at 38 weeks and although I had DS at 40 weeks it felt like I has overdue. I had intense prelabour for a week and was so on edge!

I think perhaps you should think about all the things you need before you feel safe to labour. Is your DH available enough? Are you confident about what you're doing with your DS?

I found I didn't go into labour until DH was home all day Saturday and I got lots of cuddle time with him, then when DD went to bed, my waters finally broke and it all happened.

Do you have a candle to light? Maybe start lighting a candle each night and opening your heart to the baby.

These have all helped me anyway.

Sending birthing vibes to you.