You know what is worse than being scrutinised by a friend or family member? being scrutinised by a total stranger! When DP and I had our first appontment at the hospital with the midwife it was about 8.30 in the morning, i'd had terrible morning sickness that morning, i'd had my head in the toilet pretty much till about 2 minutes before leaving for the appointment and then sick in the car and then sick in the hospital toilets about 5 minutes before i went in. SO after being so ill and not having much sleep and still trying to come to terms with the fact i was going to be a mum i get to the desk and the midwife hands me a form to fill out while i wait to go in. So it was a mulitple choice form which deciphers what likely hood i'll have of having post natal depression. So it was questions like "are you miserable" etc so i filled it out, pretty much on how i was feeling that morning. I get into the midwifes office and she reads it over and tallies it up and goes 'you've scored a 12 that's high risk category for Post natal Depression.' To which i replied "how am i spose to fill it out with how im feeling right now, if i had of been feeling healthy and on top of the world it would of come out totally different' .So then she takes a moment to look over my medical history and what meds im on and goes ' i see your on an anti depressant, that means your highly likely to have Post natal depression, so when your baby is born a midwife will see you everyday for the first week you are home to make sure you havent harmed your baby'. Once again steriotypes with anti depressents, my heart sank, i turned to my partner and had tears in my eyes and all he could do was just hold my hand cause he knew how hurt i was, it was like i was already a bad mother and yet i hadnt given birth yet.