Ahhhhhhh - i'm feeling so depressed and annoyed right now. I'm desperately wanting a VBAC this time around and have done everything i can manage to get my body ready for one. I'm now 40+2 weeks and saw my OB today. He says my cervix is high and soft but not at all dialated. He would not do a stretch and sweep as it was too closed and he said it would cause me too much pain. Bub's head is down - not engaged - but just sitting in the pelvis.

I have been getting regular (every 40 mins) and fairly strong contractions for 3 days now and today have had constant lower back and front period-type pain so i really expected to have a more favourable cervix...but no!

We have booked in an induction date for next Thurs (i'll be 41+2weeks) which will involve an internal first to see if my cervix is favourable. If it still isn't then i'll just get sent straight off for a c/s Unfortunately i won't even be able to have the gel for induction and be put straight onto a drip because of having a c/s scar. They were explaining they need to have control incase something goes wrong and the gel does not allow that. They won't allow me to go past this date due to having a placenta abruption with my last preg.

Anyway i have been taking RLT and EPO for months, been walking every day, been sitting and bouncing on my fitball, DTD everyday, nipple stimulation, burning/bathing and massaging clary sage oil, had one session of induction acupuncture, been practicing positions from Pink Kit and other resources, accupressure points....you name it i'm doing it - but still it seems it's not enough.

I'm feeling so completely drained (have a horrid head cold right now too so it doesn't help), am not sleeping cause the contractions keep waking me and am just at a loss. What more can i do...and do i even have a chance to achieve this VBAC or am i setting myself up for disappointment?

Any advice would be great cause i'm just not coping too well right now.