i was going for a vabc and petrefied that something would happen ... something did happen : it was called Labour and birth ..

looking back heres my thoughts :
* ctx (even tho i had 3 days of prelabour) were not as bad as i thought they would be ..
* my waters breaking naturally was the best feeling in the world . it really gave me the satisfaction that i could do this on my own with no intervetnion ..
* whileist my ctx had no gap inbetween , i begged for an epidural, got a internal and i was 9cm..I found so much strength after that ..
* pushing is an overwheling urge that i let my body take over and just went with it , the pushing didnt hurt
* having a wet slimy and pruple thing on your bare chest is the most wonderful feeling in the world ..

I actually had a CS with my 1st babe as i had Tokophobia. ( a mental issue where you are simply too afriad to labour , not like your every day fears , Real disturbing . unreal fears ..it was horrible .. I was suffering from OCD at the time) and this time with #2 i had a wonderful birth , 8 hrs all up inc 30 mins of pushing ...

believe in your body , it was desigend for this .. its your gift !!