LOL thanks all..

With my first pregnancy I never for a minute lost confidence in my ability to give birth (Ok maybe afew minutes here and there I freaked out LOL). But the point is I had confidence in myself and my body and in birth.

with this pregnancy, this man has turned me into a frightened little (or fat as it seems) girl and I have doubted myself the whole time. I have stressed throughout the whole pregnancy because of this man. This problem with the Ob started way back at the beginning of this pregnancy.

This morning DH told me he was soo proud how I handled myself during my first pregnancy and was sad for me that this time I have lost my confidence...

So I think the convo with DH and with you girls snapped me out of it in time for this appointment and somehow I managed to get back control and my confidence. I can do this- fat or no fat...LOL

I am still surprised I said what I said and even that I walked out of that appointment...who was that person???...