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  1. #1
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    Dec 2007
    Ballarat, VIC
    176

    So Over This Rollercoaster...

    Many of you know my story... But some of you may not.. So here is the short version...

    @ 14 weeks I was diagnosed with Pregnancy Induced Hypertension and was hospitalized and monitored

    @ 15 weeks I had a major bleed and was told that I was having a miscarriage

    @ 16 weeks doctors told me that it wouldn't be long until I stopped bleeding, Leaving me without a baby.

    @ 17 weeks doctors told me that it was a miracle that the bub had hung on but chances that another bleed or early birth was strongly possible.

    @ 20 weeks my blood pressure was so high doctors said I wouldn't make it to 24 weeks and bub would have to be born prem

    @ 27 weeks doctors said my blood pressure was just going to get higher and they would induce before 30 weeks.

    @ 32 weeks I was told they would induce before 35 weeks

    @ 37 weeks now they are telling me everything is fine and I'm to rest at home like I have been and just wait for it to happen.....

    My BP has been up and down for the whole pregnancy, my legs are swollen to my hips, i have severe pelvic instability and I can barely walk and my BP is still quite high...

    WHY AREN'T THESE DOCTORS DOING ANYTHING!!

    I don't know how much longer I can go through this... Mentally and Physically..

    Each time I go for a check up my results are different... Sometimes protein, Sometimes Low BP, Sometimes high BP, Sometimes swelling is ++, Sometimes swelling is ++++ and still.... EVERY TIME... They send me home saying "You're fine"

    Now with what they have told me - all the bad things that "WERE GOING TO HAPPEN" and now they are just leaving me to cope on my own... I'm really confused, stressed and over it..

    Sorry for the rant.. I'm sure other people on here are having a bad run too.. I'm just so close to the end.. but it feels so far away

    xox

  2. #2
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    Jul 2007
    melb
    8,498

    Oh hun hugs not long now and bubs will be in your arms.

    Hope you are ok otherwise havent seen u in chat for a while

    xoxo

  3. #3
    Registered User

    Dec 2007
    Ballarat, VIC
    176

    I'm doing O.K.

    Struggling big time with everything physically and emotionally now.. Discussing it with my GP every few days... Guess the only thing that will help me right now is to hold my little man in my arms.

    Can't wait for the day we meet... It's a wierd feeling that I "Miss him" but I've never met him before..

    I just can't wait for this roller coaster to be over.. I want it to stop

  4. #4
    Registered User

    Jan 2008
    In a land of bubbles and trouble
    1,479

    If no intervention has occurred - i think although it is hard you are in discomfort - but try and be thankful that bub is still doing well and better off in than out at less than 37 wks.

    You said your GP is monitoring you every couple of days, so something is happening???

    I truly believe that if there was a real concern and bubs had to be born early - medical intervention is never slow !!

    It could be days, it could be weeks, pregnancy tries to teach us patience - and don't feel as though you are alone. Lots of ppl when they get to where you are - are over it - I am now and feel huge for my third - but keep thinking - another 5 weeks at least

    Good luck!

  5. #5
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    Dec 2007
    Sunny Qld
    14,682

    OMG you have been through so much!!!!

    I hope its not too much longer - I'm feeling you on the pelvic pain though - I have physio these days!!!

    All worth it in the end though honey, just try to keep your focus on the end goal rather than the hurdles that pop up before then

    Take it easy

  6. #6
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    Mar 2008
    S.E Suburbs, VIC
    698

    Oh Honey i know it must suck and your probably so over being preg and just wanna get it all over and done with, but your labour will most likely (not def) be better if you go naturally without being induced.

    Bub prob figures its too cold out here in the rappy melb weather and wants to wait for the warmer weather. You've done so well to get to this point, try and relax and enjoy your alone time with your DP. Bubs will be out and about before you know it and then you'll be missing being pregaz. lol

  7. #7
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    Dec 2007
    Ballarat, VIC
    176

    I understand what you mean about enjoying "alone" time with DP... But we live with my parents and brothers... so there is no such thing as "alone time"

    I'm not well enough to go out anywhere.. .so i cant escape them.

    I understand also that labor would be better without being induced but at this point in time i really don't care.

    He's measuring 39w 3d so I know that if hes born now he would be fine... I always thought they had my dates wrong because he was always "bigger" than the dates.

    I have been through alot.. but I also know im almost at the end.. Im just completely mentally and physically exhausted

  8. #8
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    Feb 2008
    Gold Coast, QLD
    1,563

    Your pregnancy sounds very stressful. You've been through a lot and I can imagine how keen you are to be over it.

    It seems to me that the doctors have been watching you closely and must have done something right, despite all the close calls and foreboding warnings. Doctors can only advise you based on your current condition, and your condition keeps changing. You've had some really close calls by the sounds of things ... it's a good thing the doctors kept up-to-date on your situation and they didn't end up inducing too early.

    Now you've made it right to the end, which is amazing. Good work getting through such a difficult time and keeping your baby safe.

    You said you've been dealing with your GP. I don't think a GP is the person you need to be talking to at this point. Is there a way to contact the hospital and talk to the midwives and an obstetrician? You might be able to make an appointment to talk directly with someone about an elective c-section or at least get some more expert advice than you can get from a GP.

    Of course ideally everyone wants a lovely natural birth, but you don't sound like you're coping and if you do go into labour under such enormous mental, emotional and physical stress, you might end up with a difficult labour.

  9. #9
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    Dec 2007
    Ballarat, VIC
    176

    I'm going to wait at least another week before talking to doctors about things like elective c-sections etc.

    I know in myself I can wait another week before "toying" with the idea of bringing him out earlier than when he is ready.

    I'm a true believer that he will come when he is ready... But I'm so emotionally tired and physically "destroyed" really... that I am pushing myself every minute of the day just to get through.

    My son.. Deserves to be able to decide when he is ready. 11 days till his due date.

    It's the least I can do.. give him more time and not push/force him

  10. #10
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    Feb 2008
    Gold Coast, QLD
    1,563

    "I understand also that labor would be better without being induced but at this point in time i really don't care."

    ?????????