Very interesting thread! I have to say that until recently, I'd been feeling pretty positive and 'gung ho' about the whole pg, birth, and motherhood thing. All of a sudden though, I've had a major anxiety attack over it all - I hadn't realised there was so much to worry about until I started reading about 'what can go wrong'! I shouldn't do that to myself I know - call it morbid curiosity if you like!
I think the show 'Judging Amy' last week really did it for me. To cut a long story short, one of the main characters ended up in a coma after the birth of her child.
I'm afraid of anything that can potentialy harm or be fatal for my baby or myself - amniotic fluid embolism, postpartam haemorrhage, pulmonary embolism etc. etc.
I know the odds are in my favour (these things happen about 12 in every 100 000), but I still can't help but worry about worst case scenario!
I feel incredibly silly.
I fear being vulnerable in general, and I think being pg has magnified that. I can't run very fast with a belly like this, and I won't drive too far on my own while pg 'just in case' something happened. I'm much more clingy with DH as a result.
I fear gaining weight. That's just a thing with me. I spent the last 3 years or so trying to 'disappear' and now I'm more apparent than ever with my pg belly and extra maternal fat stores! I've managed to control myself from disastrous dieting during pg for the sake of my baby - but I fear going back to old habits once the baby is born. I'm hoping I won't have time to be neurotic!
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