Thanks for the massive replies ladies and mids!lol

Seems that everyone is head strong on their beliefs. I guess bottom line is Yes im a big fat CHICKEN!lol..

I guess tts other factors as well that i should add in. I didnt have an easy birth last pregnancy with my 9 pounder, and the male midwife and woman were not very supportive of my distress. (Hence me screaming at the top of my lungs, until i lost my voice!), and them telling me to shoosh up!!!!!!!!WTF. As if being in a vunerable position, having your crutch exposed to strangers, and not being able to do a damb thing about it, is bad enough. And then to be told to settle down!. And not to mention i didnt have any pain killers, but gas. But that did eff all.

And no with this pregnancy, it has plagued my mind and caused alot of extra anxiety as to what sort of midwife will i be getting this time, because there is no way in hell that i will be keeping my mouth shut trying to push out a 10 pounder!, even if i tried to! And no i wont go for the pain killers just yet. Im going public not private, so my choice is who ever you get is what you get on the day.

I dont have family support, since their all deceased, or live over seas, and that comes to hubby as well. Hubby wont be in the room with me, as he cant stand blood!lol

And the friends i have are not the ideal people i want in the delievery room either.

Ive seriously thought to myself, that i will be better off giving birth at home, away from everyone. Thanks to the midwifes/student midwifes attitude towards me in my last pregnancy.

So i guess, my reasoning, or leaning towards a c-section is because its a more controlled thing, a scheduled thing. And i know it hurts like hell, but doesnt having your b-hole ripped to your v-hole any difference, in terms of the length it takes to heal.

I know its a cop out guys, to just want a c-section like hollywood style, but im really sheeting myself about this. I might add that my first pregnancy was good, and i wasnt in as much pain, thanks to giving birth to a 7 pounder. So i cant say, that both births were the same.

Anyway thats how i feel.

Mel