Am I doing the right thing?? Could turn into a looong vent!

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Your so right Trillion. Its so hard. It's hard on both the girls. Jesse just demands so much of my time, coz he's such an attatched baby. He spent the first 8 months of his life with noone but me, so is very very attatched to me. Makes things so hard & I can really see how hard it must be on the girls to see that. And DD1 is the only one at school, so the others get to stay home etc.

Its really really hard to find that time for her. I had to start sending her to bed at 8, coz she was just too tired if she went at 8.30. DD2 usually goes to bed around the same time these days. DS on the other hand will often still be fighting me after 10 pm! Then will wake between 7.30 & 8, the same as the girls. But maybe her going to bed a little later than DD2 will help.

The girls are so competitive, I usually do everything exactly the same for them. I don't have much choice. They are both so jelouse of eachother. If DD2 get something while DD1 is at school, she know's if she tells DD1 she gets upset & DD1 does similar.

Kids! We had a bad day. I'm probably more sensitive coz AF turned up today, I'm a bit stressed about all the flooding, coz mum & dad were sposed to take me to town so I could buy food, but they are flooded in & I only got enough to get us through tomorrow, maybe monday if I really push it. & its hard with noone at all to help out & give you a break.
So I don't think my sensitivity would've helped matters

Aah...I'll have a big talk to her tomorrow while doing yet another egg removal & we'll see how we go.

ETA - I have noone to take the others at the moment. Mum & dad are just that little bit too far away, & mum works 6 - 7 days a week. All my friends here have their own babies & Jesse wouldn't dare let me leave him with one of them for 5 minutes!

I'm going to see how we go. If she does get up on the bed like that again it might have to come out. I was going to do that last year when she kept pulling the top mattress off her bed, putting it up against the wall & window & jumping from her chest of drawers onto it! I left her sleeping on the base of her ensemble for weeks coz I was scared of her or one of the others going through the window!