advise or help??

[Butterfly Child]

My XP left me when he found out i was going to keep going along with the pregnancy he said he just couldnt do the whole family thing with me and i could see it just freaked him out... i remember him begging me ringing me sayng that he would do anything if i would terminate it.it hurt me so much i was doing the last few months of my HSC at the time and it was the most stressfull time but i pulled through by thinking about this beautiful baby i was doing it for. Thank god i had such an amazing family n friend spport network or i dont no how i would have got through it.
My xp moved away to get away from everything and to study at tafe apparently..

Now i have the most beautiful baby girl Grace who is my entire worldv who is 8 weeks old, she has her fathers blue eyes and even though its hard at times i so glad that i stayed strong n had her.

Graces dad has accepted things now, and apologised for how things were at the start even though he is moved away since i was pregnant he has come up a few times to see her and you can tell he absolutly adores her but its so hard seeing him with her she doesnt even kno who he is

The issues im having are trying to move on with mylife even though i still have feelings for my xp but then i hate him aswell iv had alot of anger im just scared one day hes gunna want to have more to do with her n want shared custody of her i know it would b good for her to have more to do with her dad but i cant stand the thought of him hurting her in anyway or like he hurt me.
it sereiously breaks my heart to think about it even though he has only seen her a few times since she was born my bubba girl screams n cries wen he does see her and is really unsettled afterthe visits

does anyone have any advise or anyone in a similar situation i just needed to let some of my story out