It was definitely weird at the beginning. You know when I was married, I couldn't understand why my XH had all these great friends and I had hardly any. Since we've been seperated (nearly two years) people I already knew have come forward to be some of the most important people in my life, my best friends.
I don't miind evenings, never really did. I have the TV, the computer, movies...it's relaxing. WRT the loneliness and feeling empty, I started feeling grateful and keeping a gratitude journal. Now it's hard to understand if you dont really feel it. To be honest I didn't when I started. I would write down "i'm grateful for the kids blah, blah, blah" and not really feel it. But then it just kicked in and now I feel grateful for everything. It makes the world a lot less of a lonely place when you realise that the life you have is pretty darn amazing, whatever it is.
As for the sleep thing...Co Sleep If it works for you, but I think it's probably saved most of our lives mant times over!
GL hun, it does get easier I promise. My life is a million times better now and I actually feel like i'm living my life, my way. Not somebody else way. And that's the way things are supposed to be xxx
Firstly so sorry you are going through a breakup, from my experience it was or is the hardest thing ive ever had to do in my life. Its not easy but i promise it does get easier.
Me and my XP split up about 4mths ago, the first couple of weeks are the hardest by far, my XP didnt even tell me to my face that we were over. I found out off facebook
There is no words i can say that can make it any easier on your heart, most women will face intense feelings and go on to live fulfilling and happy lives.but he not so good news is that it takes time.
It is emotionally difficult to detach from someone we have been in a relationship with for a while.
I found what worked for me- is reaching out to my family and friends instead of pushing people away, i asked for help when i needed it. The hardest part through my seperation was going to bed, I have only now started being able to sleep through the night. If things were so bad i would go and get my DS and co-sleep it was the best thing i think i could of done as i had my DS by myside everything just seemed ok when he was there.
I also am seeing a cousellor twice a week which is really helping me get over my XP and move on with MY life.
As for evenings- i try keep myself busy, either go do the groceries, watch tv, internet, movies, sometimes even go stay at my parents if im having a bad day.
I have started to learn how to cook as XP used to do all the cooking. and im enjoying myself.
Thursday nights i have a bunch of my girlfriends around and i cook dinner and we just chat and have a laugh, something i havent done in agess.
every evening i snug DS up and drive to the beach and just go for a stroll to clear my head before bed.
As for getting to sleep i often like the others will leave the tv on or put my ipod on its dock and have a sing along- i find doing this doesnt make my mind start thinking about things.
All the other ladies have given you wonderful advice.
If you need someone to chat to feel free to PM me.
Thank you all so much for your advice. Its been such a hard two weeks that i was starting to wonder if it was easier having him around.
DS usually cosleeps at night. He has horrible nightmares, so climbs in with me around 1am. I cant sleep with the tv going. Lol tried that and ended up having some crazy dreams that seemed to be about what was on the tv
As for the friends, I dont have heaps to start with. But this past few weeks i have supposedly done something wrong and now one of the people i really needed support from wont even speak to me. Although a positive is its brought an old friend and i closer again.
I've been separated about 2 months and I understand how lonely it can be sometimes. It's not easy being at home by yourself, not having someone to talk to, or snuggle up with.
The first month was probably the worst. I racked up phone bills like you wouldn't believe talking to a lovely BB lady, and I spent many nights feeling completely lost.
Then I decided that I was not going to sit there like that forever. I started putting myself out there. I'd invite people I met to dinner, throw a barbeque and invite my (adult) kids and their friends. I got online and reconnected with friends I hadn't spoken to in years. I called people just for a chat, and while these 'approchaes' weren't always reciprocated, I now am starting to develop friendships with some nice people, people I never thought I'd be friends with.
You need a bit of a thick skin to start with. Talk to people you normally wouldn't talk to. Give of yourself. And once people know you're open to being friends, you'll start to meet people who help out with the loneliness.
I still have lonely days, but recently am finding that my life is filling up with things to do. I'm still a long ways away, but I'm getting there. You will too.
Hope your evenings are getting easier as time goes by x
I have read through all of the replies and they are so helpful for too, I feel like sometimes I keep DH around just to keep the lonliness at bay IYKWIM, so thanks, shall re read this thread on future lonely nights
Things are a bit easier. Still get really lonely in the evenings. NOT looking forward to my phone and internet bill. The kids are really hard right now. The older two are really starting to notice that daddy isnt here. We have talked to them about everything, but not sure how much they understand.
DS is still cosleeping...... I sleep so much better with him curled up next to me.
Although last night i made the stupid mistake of watching Greys anatomy before bed. Everytime i fell asleep i would "hear" someone in the house.
If it works for you, but I think it's probably saved most of our lives mant times over!
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