Ive had the worst day ...

i woke up on a pretty positive note then usual for a monday i was going to have a talk with Xp about trying to get along and about my problems im having with him coming late when he visits dd of a monday or him just forgetting to turn up and iwas feeling positive i was doing the right thing for grace and myself .

well i get a phone call at 11 wen hes soppose to be here already n he says he going to be late sorry he'll be there in an hour... i was like ok wel i have an appointment at 3 and hes like yeh thats fine blah blah i was like thats fine

So i open the door an heres him, his friend and his gf who is one of my good friends..(wtf) there like surprise! they came in and i felt really uneasy they tried to talk and make converstaion and everything then they left when dd got tired

Ok so right now im alitle confused about what to think about this whole thing i cant figure out why xp did this i feel

a) betrayed by my friend as i feel like shes on his side, shes like "we have to go out one night n we can leave grace with xp and his friend blah blah" im like "i dont think so i have only ever left her twice and that was with my mum who lives with me n dd and thats hard enough" let alone with Xp who i dont trust whos irresponsible who cant even consistently come once a week.( i didnt say the last part) i feel like ive lost a friend and that everything ive ever told her i shouldnt have because she'll never understand and se's prob told xp

b) angry at xp for making me into the bad guy, for humilating me for using my friends in some way against me. and for making this whole thing so hard when im trying so damn hard to make this whole thing easier for him and in the long run for grace

Im feeling really low and confused and like my life has gone totally out of controll
heres me trying to be extra nice and make it ultimatly better for all of us by trying to talk so we can all get along..

I dont understand anything anymore.. i dont no if this even makes sense