Just letting it all out..

[Butterfly Child]

OK well the hopeless ex has called not long ago after 3 weeks of no shows at visiting DD without any word from him either may i add..so he rung to ask if tomorow was still 'his 'visit' . So i said "yeh you can, i thought u were coming last wed? " he replied "oh yeh ah i hvent had a phone you see" and "ive just been having sleeping problems blah blah too be honest i just woke up that morning and just forgot" wtf..So i just cut him off and said "you don't need to try to explain to me ill see you tomorow at 11 bye " and i hung up

Ok so here comes my rant sorry

Im sick of him he has no idea at all what i have been through , what i have sacraficed everything that i do( not that i would change it for the world)
but he has never had to be responsible ever in his life.. all he has had to do for the last 6mnths of dd life was show up on the days he was coming to visit DD and he cant even manage that.. i dont no what i ever saw in this man let me refrase that 'BOY'

Im beyond furious i cant deal with this anger ive been trying so hard to make this work as positively as i can for grace but he hasnt even tried at all not once
im always cival to him try my hardest to refrain every part of anger i have inside so its all come out here sorry guys ..lol

How can i ever get rid of this anger and make this work i try my absolute heart out always having grace in mind, swallow every word i really want to say to him and hold it back scared that ill someday down the line hurt her for doin it

Everything i do i have gracie in mind everything she is my world, y cant i make this work without hurting , either myself or her in the future.Ever since i knew i had this little darling in my tummy i have fought to protext her and i will continue doing that ... why does he have to do this

thx for reading seriously are amazing if you got through it

[ladybird11]

I think a cuddle with DD might help

You're doing fantastically well though - DD is proof of that. You should be so proud of yourself and what you've accomplished hun!

Maybe buy a boxing bag and let it all out if you need to shed some steam?

[Alan]

Hi Emma
Sorry I don't have any advice for you but here is a big comfy hug.

[Butterfly Child]

Thanks Leesa and alan means alot you have no idea
i had the best weekend too only for it to come tumbling down getting that phonecall. why do i have to let it bother me so much

[Footsteps]

huge hugs em. no real advice but from experience hes going to be the one to lose out and as she gets older she will see for herself hes not bothering. its sad for you as a mum to watch but you are doing fantastically. xox

[Claire_A]

Oh hun you are such a strong woman and an amazing mum to Grace! I honestly don't know how you do it, you are a much more patient woman than I! I don't really have any advice for you, but know I'm here if you want to chat. Hang in there hun

[CrazyLady]

You're doing an amazing job holding down the fort and playing mum and dad role to your little miss! Just remember you are a strong, idependant woman! You are doing fantastic solo and that's something to be proud of!

Huge hug to you

[widdly]

oh hunni, its terrible how much they still can control our emotions. We alwasy try to do the best for our children and they somehow feel perfectly happy with continuing on with their selfish ways, not giving too much of a thought to their child. I just always try and hopw that Karma will catch up with XH sonner or later and he will have his comeuppance.

hugs x