hi Mel, welcome to BB. You sound like an incredibly strong woman and your girls are lucky to have such a wonderful role model. I hope that your visit at the family relationships sentre helps with the tension with your XDH. I know what its like to be the "bad guy" who left the perfect relationship for no good reason, its so hard not to feel guilty about it at times too. SOund like you have a great custody arrangement and its great that XDH is such a good capable father, I wouldn't feel as comfortable if my DH were to have 50% custody. Apprently nearly all fathers make the threat of taking the kids away from you, so try not to worry too much about it. Hope he doesn't cause any trouble with the girls and thier schooling if he decides to move away.

I am just going through the motions of seperating, hopefully will have my own place by the end of Jan. DH is doing an awesome job of making me feel guilty, he is still head over heels in love with me, but I want more out of life, I want the life he promised me and so far hasn't delivered. He def wants us to get back together again, but im not so sure and I dread the thought of breaking his heart. Oh well i guess we all just have to take things one day at a time