oh darl I know how you feel 100%. I had a very similar thing happen to me and it hurts.

Just remember you WILL be fine. Each day it hurts a little less, and by the time you are holding that gorgeous baby in your arms you will have forgotten all about the pain you are feeling now.

His loss. You will be fine. He may or may not wake up to himself at some stage but believe me it's not something you can change, or worry yourself over. It's pointless... I wasted so much time pondering that question myself. Right now, I have an 18 month old, who is gorgeous and adorable, whom I love with all my heart, and who does not see his father at all... for me, I just don't have to share him