Hi, I am not in your boat but I understand where you are coming from. XH and I got together when I was 28 and already divorced with no kids. Still young, of course, but I always knew in my heart that even if I never found anyone else, I would still want to have a baby or two. I know now that I probably wouldn't have coped really well with a newborn by myself, but you already know the realities of having a newborn and if you really want another baby, why not do it on your own?? A child with a happy mother is way better off than a baby with 2 miserable parents.