feeling down :(

**mummydreamer** · April 2nd, 2011, 03:10 PM

i just found out last night that my other SIL is pregnant!! she told me first, which i was flattered with, and we had a great 2 hour conversation last night. (we're pretty close) my other SIL #2 is pregnant as well, she's about 22 weeks or something. SIL #1 is maybe 4 or 5 weeks? im just down because i know they're going to get what i've always wanted, and that's another baby, baby #3, and he was ripped so cruelly from me....and it's just going to be hard to watch them go and have their babies, and know that i should have a 1 month old, and i should have 3 kids right now, and i should be enjoying it with them, and instead im so lonely and jealous of them that they're going to get what i've been denied.......and i feel bad for feeling that way, but i can't help it. it just really sucks

**blessedatlast** · April 2nd, 2011, 03:14 PM

I understand.. It is very hard when people announce their pregnancies when it's something you want so badly. Big hugs.

**Kazzo** · April 2nd, 2011, 03:23 PM

I just have no words really. I hope one day your dream is filled. It was really thoughtful of your SIL to tell you herself.

**ButterflyForever** · April 2nd, 2011, 05:47 PM

It is very tough, sending hugs. I was exactly the same. My part time job is a doula and I had to fight long and hard with my emotions.
Also the entire world around me seemed to get pregnant after I lost my daughter.
It does get easier with time, but it will be hard with your SIL's birth coming up in the next few months. Be strong.