i just found out last night that my other SIL is pregnant!! she told me first, which i was flattered with, and we had a great 2 hour conversation last night. (we're pretty close) my other SIL #2 is pregnant as well, she's about 22 weeks or something. SIL #1 is maybe 4 or 5 weeks? im just down because i know they're going to get what i've always wanted, and that's another baby, baby #3, and he was ripped so cruelly from me....and it's just going to be hard to watch them go and have their babies, and know that i should have a 1 month old, and i should have 3 kids right now, and i should be enjoying it with them, and instead im so lonely and jealous of them that they're going to get what i've been denied.......and i feel bad for feeling that way, but i can't help it. it just really sucks