even though I am pregant ( due in 5 weeks )and have a beautfiul almost 3 yr old son I sit here in tears today knowing that 6 years ago my induction process was begining and that by 1.10pm tomorrow my little girl would have left my body and this earth....

I feel so alone and lost .... all I ever wanted was a little girl and she was taken from me by a horrible disorder...

I feel like I should have got over it, and although Jase understands and still grieves my family as well, IL's well thats another story.. I feel like I should look at what I have and no dwell on what I lost...

anyway I just needed to get that out...

RIP my beautiful Katy Rose stillborn but born still @ 1.10pm 23rd Sept 2003 fly free precious one