Oh hun, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Be kind to yourself and give yourself time to greive. Unfortunatly too many of us know what you are going through, but you have come to the right place. The ladies here are fantastic and so supportive. I don't know what i would have done if i hadn't found this site when we lost our little man. Big hugs hun.
Fly free little Amani Grace and watch over your mummy.