I can understand that you would still need to grieve, you have suffered a terrible loss and have to deal with constant reminders, grief never goes away, you just learn to hide it better.
FWIW I have found anti depressants have really helped but then again I have depression, you have just lived through a terrible ordeal so its perfectly understandable you feel this way.
Hope the Bonnie babes meeting helps, take care of yourslef hun, surround yourself with peopl and things that lift you up.
Thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts.. It does help to know people care.. I mean you guys don't know me but you still take the time to offer me a hug or let me know I am not alone.... I am thinking of starting my own memorial website for Taite and Seth but I wouldn't have a clue where to start!! I am not that computer literate.. I did an extremely silly thing last night.. I got so drunk the last thing I remember is vomiting into a plastic bowl at our neighbours house!.. Oh dear can't wait to see them while checking the mail.. LOL My partner also wrote himself off but went to bed as he had to work today!! I don't remember leaving the neighbours, but I woke up in bed with my same clothes on (that has to be a good thing?? at least I wasn't naked!)and a 2 litre bottle of water next to me! I am horrified.. I haven't been like that since I was about 21! Anyway I feel the pinch now.. Serves me right! Hopefully the last bit of immaturity got spewed out last night!! (Sorry TMI)
hey it's Lauren from nicola's tears website. don't worry you're not going insane. we all cope with grief differently, i know someone who went through a stage of looking through their house all the time for their stillborn child just hoping that they might find them. i also know of people who have worn their baby bjorn pouches and just hugged it pretending there was a baby inside. sending big hugs to you. i will email you about starting up your own website as i know how to do it for free - sounds like a really good idea!!
I know it won't change anything or help much but I just wanted to offer you a hug. I hope that down the road it does become easier for you.
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Oh dear can't wait to see them while checking the mail.. LOL My partner also wrote himself off but went to bed as he had to work today!! I don't remember leaving the neighbours, but I woke up in bed with my same clothes on (that has to be a good thing?? at least I wasn't naked!)and a 2 litre bottle of water next to me! I am horrified.. I haven't been like that since I was about 21! Anyway I feel the pinch now.. Serves me right! Hopefully the last bit of immaturity got spewed out last night!! (Sorry TMI)
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