Melk

I am so so saddened by the stillbirth of your precious Kobi. Like Teni, for me BB has been the most amazing and supportive place. I hope you find the support and some answers here.

I hope that you are starting to find your own way through the heartache and grief. Know that you are loved and worthy. Go gently.

In addition to asprin and clexane, some women with Factor V Leiden are prescribed heparin, via injection. However it does cause bruising, as it is an anticoagulant. It was suggested to me that clexane might be used in future pregancies, but it turns out it doesn't apply to me.

About trying again? It's a hard answer - first of all - having medical investigations done might be a factor, although you've had some results come in which is good, but ultimately you have to feel up to it, and you will know. After Amelia, DH & I wanted to try again immediately. After Sophie, we both needed time to heal. You will find a way that is right for you. It's a really scary decision, and to make it and then act on it take a lot of courage. The TCC journey is hard, but so is any subsequent pregnancy, as you know.

Sweetie - it seems to me that guilt might just be part of the healing process. However rest assured you have done nothing wrong, what has happened to Kobi and you and your family is nothing more than a sad sad tragedy. Please don't blame yourself, although I know its easy to do and analyse everything, but remember you are doing so with the benefit of hindsight. It's really unfair to do that to yourself. If you can, treat those thoughts for what they are, a part of your grief and healing and don't dwell on them.

Kobi is always surrounded in your love, and is with you now, always safe in your heart, helping you find a way forwards.

Thinking of you.