Seriously, am I the only one who lost my babies 2yrs ago that doesn't have another baby or is pregnant? It bloody feels like it..
What is worse is I'm single so I'm no closer to even getting pregnant.. I am over it.. I don't have a safe place anymore..
Most of the people from my Bonnie Babes support group that lost bubs around the same time have either had babies or are pregnant. And even the blogs that I used to read, I can't read anymore because they all have posts about their new babies, or they are posting U/S pics or announcing their pregnancies!!! Don't get me wrong, I don't want to sound like a b!tch, I am genuinely happy for them, but I am jealous and I feel like it's never going to happen ..
Feeling sad and frustrated today.. And it doesn't make it better that AF has gone completely AWOL and I don't even have a cycle anymore. At least when I was having regular cycles there was a chance that if I was DTD it could happen.. Now no sex, no cycle, no babies
I agree...seems like everyone is getting pregnant at the moment.
I was very unprepared to be greeted by a 7wk old bub at a BBQ yesterday, to make it worse for some reason it was set up as women inside and men outside and I happen to be sat next to the lady with the baby
That totally suxs and i can see why you need to vent. I know that i have only gotten thru one of my losses with the help of growing another.... I just can not imagine what this is all like for you.
Oh hun, I just came across your post. Big big hugs to you my lovely. You know, it IS bloody hard being around pg women when all you want to do is slap them, and as your excuse say, 'I just want to be in your shoes damn it!!'. If only we could do that and get away with it
To tell you an honest truth, when I lost Josh I went to the SANDS meetings once a month. Even though I found it really comforting to talk about my own loss there, suddenly some of the girls that came in way after me, started to turn up preggers. I, like you, was very happy for them but was so insanely jealous that I stopped going soon after that. Luckily for me I fell pg with Cam not long after, but out of respect for others at SANDS, I never went back to share my happy news. I knew how those heart broken ladies/couples would feel. So I know how it feels hun, having been on both sides of it all.
Hun, you will meet that special guy and your babies will come to you when they are supposed to. Just believe that because I have no doubt it will happen one day, hopefully not too far away!
BAL - sweetie.... oh sweetie..... my heart just aches for you and I wish I could make it better for you.
You are in a pickle. Maybe it's time to make a safe place in your heart just for you and Seth and Tait? I know though, you need safe places other than in your heart..... I am so proud of you for going to Bonnie Babes, even though to sit through what you did would have taken an enormous amount of courage and strength.
It's understandable to long for J, but as you said you know it's not right for you to go back.
I hope your cycle gets back on track - do have exams at the mo? I noticed your new sig and not long now til you're a nurse! You are so amazing. I would love to have you take care of me... you're going to be such a good nurse, tough when you need to be but kind hearted too.
You are an amazing woman, a beautiful mother to two adorable angels, you will get through..... I know you will. When I was down you helped pulled me through some of the very darkest days... I hpe one day I can return the favour.
Go gently my blossom. You are often in my thoughts and always in my heart.
Sorry...only just saw this. I hope you don't mind me replying either. You are always in my thoughts (sorry if I'm one of those you'd prefer to slap though) - I can partly understand how you must feel though so I always feel guilty around you and others in a similar situation.
I'm sorry you have lost your safe place. Is there anyway you could mention it to the (sorry don't know what they call them) coordinators how you feel - maybe they can change the groups a little so you have the option of going to groups with those that have gone on to having children again after loss or not???
Hopefully AF has only gone AWOL while your studying and will get back on track once you finished. Then you can start tracking again and hopefully in time all your dreams of becoming a mother to earthbabies will come true. I truly believe you will be a wonderful mother (I say will because I can feel it will happen for you one day - hopefully as soon as it is possible for you)- because you are such wonderful person (and I think you will be an wonderful nurse too ).
If you ever want a shoulder to cry on (or a face to slap ) please let me know and I will always be there for you. Once again huge
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