BAL - sweetie.... oh sweetie..... my heart just aches for you and I wish I could make it better for you.

You are in a pickle. Maybe it's time to make a safe place in your heart just for you and Seth and Tait? I know though, you need safe places other than in your heart..... I am so proud of you for going to Bonnie Babes, even though to sit through what you did would have taken an enormous amount of courage and strength.

It's understandable to long for J, but as you said you know it's not right for you to go back.

I hope your cycle gets back on track - do have exams at the mo? I noticed your new sig and not long now til you're a nurse! You are so amazing. I would love to have you take care of me... you're going to be such a good nurse, tough when you need to be but kind hearted too.

You are an amazing woman, a beautiful mother to two adorable angels, you will get through..... I know you will. When I was down you helped pulled me through some of the very darkest days... I hpe one day I can return the favour.

Go gently my blossom. You are often in my thoughts and always in my heart.