Hi Danni, would you believe I chicken out!!! I saw the Dr, booked the surgery date and then cancelled it...

It's now 12 months later and I am seeing the same dr in a couple of hours, yes I'm nervous, scared, apprehensive, all those things. BUT, this time I am going to do it. I will be 40 next year and I simply cannot face another 2-3 years without sleep. I love my 2 babies desperately and I would willingly give my life for them but I'm just so terribly tired. My babies sleep very very badly, I was up 4 times last night with my lil princess and I just can't start all over, I don't want another baby. There, I've said it! I DON'T WANT ANOTHER BABY!

I'm not an awful person, and yes all babies are precious miracles but there are other Mummy's who are waiting patiently with open arms and hearts full of love for their turn to come.

I wish the best for each of you and I hope your dreams of motherhood come true.

It's time for me to hang up my baby making bits and begin the next step of my life. xxx