As some of you know from previous threads my DD1 has had an eating disorder since she was 9. We are starting to tumble back down that black hole again. She looks like a POW. All you can see is bones. I'm afraid to hug her in case she snaps in half. She has been spotted by friends making herself sick again. She is not eating at all if she can get away with it. DD1 has also been smoking weed. Not just one or two hits but the whole bowl. I know she has an addictive personality as my dad does too so I know what to look for but she now smokes cigarettes, weed, doesn't eat and is piercing her body. She has her nose done, her lip done, her belly button done and she has done her ears 3 more times after the initial one I had done. I'm so scared for her.

I have booked her in to see our GP next Tuesday (1st appointment available) and he phoned me this morning so I could talk to him about what she has been doing and I hope he can suggest something to help.

We have tried to get her into see the child eating specialist at John Hunter Hospital but they don't think she is severe enough I wouldn't want her to get any worse and the counselling she has had has been a bandaid solution . She just tells them what they want to hear. She has her whole life ahead of her but I'm scared she won't be here to enjoy it.

I'm sorry if this is rambling a little, just need to get it out so I can take a big breath and start again with her. I thought we were over this but apparently not. Now a newborn and two diabetics kids aren't enough - my big girl still needs help too.