Kat - I can relate to you 100%. I felt the same way when friends and relatives would announce their pregnancies. The pain was unbearable at times and I just wanted to move to another planet where there were no babies or pregnant women (sounds weird when that is all I wanted myself but that is how I felt). You are NOT selfish at all and I am sorry to hear of your IL's attitude. My first angel flew off 2 and a half years ago and I still feel immense pain and loss for that baby. Nae Nae explained it perfectly in saying that people who have not experienced loss just don't understand.