I'm so torn and need some advice and insight and I thought I would post here... for opinions (not asking for medical advice in any way, please don't suggest the gp because I am waiting for my appointment already...) im trying to weigh up the pros and cons of it all.

We made the decision shortly after our ectopic pregnancy in march (resolved in May)... That we would have no more children. We were advised against trying before we fell pregnant with the EP (not due to ep risk, but due to having severe early onset pre eclampsia with my DD) but I was already in my Two Week wait when I was told so it was way too late.

So, my question that I am torn about is that we really want another baby... but i am way too scared to officially TTC... But im not on pill or anything because I don't want hormones in my system just in case we want to try... After our loss (tube and bubby) and how severe everything turned out with my pregnancy with my DD, I am just not sure. Is this normal?

Anyways, im waffling...

Would you try if you knew every future pregnancy is extremely high risk? (of either ectopic or pe) knowing it's probably your last chance and if an ectopic happened in the other tube that was it...?

I'm so torn. I really want another baby, but I am terrified.