Acria - i completely understand how you're feeling. i was ready to give up hope after losing five angels - it was emotionally overwhelming and far too much to bear. i too am a larger person, and tried to lose weight repeatedly but never seemed to be successful. this cycle, i used accupuncture for the first time at the suggestion of our fertility specialist. we're now a bit over seven weeks pg with what appears to be a very sticky bubba. i never believed it would take us six pregnancies to get to this point. i constantly felt i was letting myself and my husband down when we couldn't get pg or when we lost our angels.

i don't have any solid advice, but like ellie, i offer support and understanding. have you spoken to an FS about having monitoring through your cycle for things like progesterone and estrogen levels? it might be a simple fault there that you can correct for any future pregnancies..