Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Los ~ December 08

[smilanatu]

WTH...HannahD...*wavin* atcha gurlies!

Jen...Damn AF she was NOT supposed to visit you this month!

jenushka...wow...it's been a while! Glad you and bub are doing well...Lord knows I can't wait until we make 2nd trimester!

Issy...WONDERFUL news on your scan...mine is Wednesday...I am praying sooooo hard that everything is well!

Hi Mel...AJC...Ruthie...plc...KrystieLove...all my gurlies...BIG HUGS!!!

Welcome to the newbies...may you find the support you need here!

[Tuesday's Child]

Karen van - Welcome. You are right, none of us should be here. But at least none of us have to go through this alone.The women here are absolutely amazing. I don't know how the last few months would have been for me without them. that you get a BFP next week.

Mel - Yay for AF finishing. Only 2 days?! Mine usually lasts for 6. Goodluck with the FS later this week.

jen - Hope AF is starting to ease now. Thanks for thinking of me. I haven't updated on me 'cause I'm getting kind of sick of listening to myself whinge these days but see below.

shortcake - Sending you lots of anti-AF vibes. No signs is a good sign.

rach - Sorry AF arrived and is being hard on you

maternalbride - Sending loads of zen vibes to help you through the TWW.

smi - *waving* back at ya! How goes the m/s?

AFM - I wrote a big update but changed my mind about posting it. The short version is that I'm not doing very well. And I don't think it has anything to do with AF arriving last week. I fear that I've gone beyond grief and am sinking into a real depression, but its so hard to know the difference. I'm going to see my doctor to try to find a solution before it gets any worse. DH deserves better than this.

[babymiracles]

Hannah - my fellow adelaideian. I am so sorry you have been feeling so bad. Definately worth having a chat with your doctor. I had experienced depression in the past, and know it is an awful place to be - worst thing is that when you feel that way you think things are never going to get any better - the good news is that they always do get better - nothing ever stays the same. Anyway just want you to know you are in my thoughts

Maternalbride ; that this is your month. Sounds like you are having a difficult time. Hang in there love

Rach - I don't think you are overthinking. You need to just follow your heart sweetie. As I said before I cannot imagine what you are going through but it does sound like it would be very difficult to have a baby born on your beautiful lillis anniversary. Hey the kitten sounds gorgeous and glad ethan has something else to love and cuddle as this difficult time for you all

Karen van, Pandagirl and shortcake sorry you have had to join this thread. Hopeing for some BFPs for you both very soon

Jen that this is going to be your month. Sorry AF was so nasty to you.

Mel - good luck with your appointment with FS this week

Ruthie: so sorry to hear about your BFN and also about your mum. I will pray that she is okay. Life seems so unfair at times doesn't it. Take care u

Theresa: Yeh for finding wedding shoes - that is one thing I am yet to get! Wanted to go saturday but was too sick after egg collection on friday. Hopefully this weekend it is!

WTH: How is all that jabbing going? I must admit it is nice to be having a break from that at the moment.

To everyone else

AFM: I am meant to be working but my mind is all over the place - it is making it very difficult. Fortunately pain has reduced dramatically since saturday but still very bloated and uncomfortable. Got a good number of eggs fertilized (not 100% like last time - but nothing to be upset about) - now praying they continue to grow. Having blastocyst transfer on wednesday then it is waiting, waiting, waiting! Do any of you other IVF ladies suffer from a lot of 'gas' during stimulated cycle - it effects me very badly - so as well as waiting, waiting, waiting I'll be burping, burping, burping

[Possums]

hello lovely ladies...I hope you are all going OK

babymiracles- just popped in to say glad a good number have fertilised! here's hoping this time brings that BFP! And yes, I experienced gas after my IVF stim cycle too

[Mel1979]

Oh Rach, I just looked on little Lilli's facebook page. What an absolutely beautiful, happy little girl. I shed tears for you and your family as I looked through the photos, I can't imagine the heartbreak and pain you must be going through. You are so brave and strong and I am so happy you have your gorgeous little boy Ethan to help you through this devastating time. I know there is nothing I can say to make it easier but wanted to send you a cyber hug Wish I could give you one in person!

Hannah - Oh, I'm sorry you are feeling down. I'm glad you are going to talk to the Dr. I too have suffered from depression (years ago) and it wasn't until about 6 months after the m/c that it snuck back up on me. I thought I was going ok but then bam! I am fine now but I needed to find the time and strength to dig myself out of that black hole.
AF used to last for about 5 days before the m/c but now only for about 2 (I'm lucky I know).

In saying that though, AF finished on Saturday but then I had some bleeding Sunday night and then it stopped and then it start again at work today. No pain, just bleeding. This has happened a few times the day after AF has finished but not 2 days after. Very strange. Does this happen to anyone else?

babymiracles - Glad the pain has eased, just keep thinking of those eggies - I hope this is the month!

smi - Nice to hear from you, has the m/s subsided?

Maternalbride - I know what you mean about going crazy, hang in there!

Shortcake -

Jen - Glad you are feeling a little better - don't worry my mood should be on tolerant most of the time! I hope AF eases up on you soon.

[meh]

Hi everyone,
I just wanted to pop in and say hi. We're about to join this boat more fully, I think. We had a complete (and totally unexpected) M/C on Christmas Day. Thankfully I've been off work (prearranged) so I've been able to lay low at home, but I go back to work next week so need to get my act into gear. I have my first counselling session tomorrow to try to work out where my head is, and to start to answer the phone again! I think I'm going around in circles a bit! I want to sort my grief out (hmm...perhaps naive??) so that it doesn't bite me too hugely later when we are seriously TCC - maybe next cycle?
What a crummy way to meet such lovely sounding people! Even though this is my first post, I've been following this thread (thank you for your unconscious support!!) and look forward to getting to know you more IYKWIM!
Take care,
M

[Zachary's Mom]

Just quickly - AF has still not come! I am going to hold out for 2 more days before I POAS. I don't want to get my hopes up too much as I am still getting the odd cramps..... I can only hope!
I will be back later for persies - have to go make dinner as DF is hungry!

[jackjack]

hi all, Apologies for the long time since i last spoke. I had 1 month of passing blood clots joined by tests as no body knew what was happening to me. Going from it could be nothing to it could be the reason why I've been having miscarriages. I finally went into hospital for surgery on friday only to find out that it was placenta left over and am now back to square one. Am also having problems with my gynocologist who just wants us to keep trying, we are in the osition where we can't handle the pain again, i really just need some answers. So i think it's time to find another doctor. Does anyone have any suggestions of naturopaths, accupunture, or gynocologist's in sydney I'm really at a loss at the moment

[fificlaire]

Hi all,

Well i'm finally better and back to work! it's only taken a month to shift this blooming illness. I was actually looking forward to coming back to work this morning until i opened my email to find over 1000 to sort through!!!!!!

Just thought i would drop in and say hi!

big to you all!

ooooo one more thing! weirdest thing last night, was sat rubbing cream into my belly then all of a sudden, either a head or a bum was poking out, it was the most weird thing to see, but at the same time soooo cool!!!!!! I am going to give birth to an Alien!!!

DF thought it was the funniest thing.

Anyway, must get back to these emails before they take over.

[Tuesday's Child]

Mel & babymiracles - Thanks so much for your words of support. Its good to be reassured I'm not the only one to go through this. I've been through some pretty low times before but never sought help for it and depression does run in my dad's side of the family.

babymiracles - I'm glad a number of eggs have fertilised. for the transfer on wednesday. I'm you get a BFP.

meh - Welcome. I'm sorry for your loss. And on Christmas too. Big to you. I'm glad you've already found some support here. May your TTC journey be short.

Theresa - Ooh! I have everything crossed for you (well except my legs ). Sending loads and loads of anti-AF vibes. I really hope this is your month.

jackjack - I'm not in Sydney so can't offer you any advice. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry you've been having a hard time. At least having the placenta removed means you are able to try again.

fifi - Glad you're better and back at work. Goodluck with all those emails. for your little alien.

to everyone else

[chappas]

Hi ladies,

Jen - Glad you are feeling better

Racheal - So sorry for the loss of your little Lilli, Cant imagine how hard it must be. Glad you found this thread the ladies on here are so supportive

Shortcake,Panda girl,Karen van,Meh - So sorry for your loss, Wishing you lots of luck ttc

Babymiracles - Glad your egg collection was a success, hope the pain eases soon

Fifi - Glad your scan went well and that you are feeling better too

Ruthie - So sorry about bfn, Sending lots of for your mom

Hannah d - So sorry you are feeling so bad think you are doing the right thing going to see yor doc

Zachs mom - Hope you get that bfp

Big hello to everyone else

AFM - AF day late although cycles always different, might poas in morning anyway

[jen805]

Rach--I just wanted to let you know that I watched Lilly's videos... I'm speechless... What a beautiful tribute in honor of a true princess! I can't even comprehend what you must be going thru... and poor little Ethan... you can see how much he loves Lilly by the way he looks at her and holds her so gently! Lilly's beautiful face is forever etched into my heart--thanks so much for sharing her with us! Always in my prayers.... too beautiful for this earth...fly free precious little angel! Rach... I'm amazed at your strength...

[HannahS86]

Ladies, I have a quick question for you all. I'm hoping someone can let me know what could be going on!

I am now on CD 17. On day 15, I had a very very small amount of light pink spotting. Then later that night, a little bit of brown spotting. It has gone away since then, but I don't know what it could have been. I've never had spotting between periods. I have been trying to look it up online but the only thing I can find relating to pink spotting is implantation bleeding, but I was only on CD 15! I don't think I even O'd yet, and I read that implantation bleeding is usually 6-12 days after conception. Has anyone else experienced this?

Sorry for the lack of persies again. So many new beautiful women have joined since the last time I posted. I am so sorry for the losses of your little angels. They are watching over you always! Keeping everyone here in my prayers.

[Easha]

OMG, OMG, OMG - I got a BFP this morning !!!!!!!!

I was due last Thursday and tested on Sun to a BFN, my BB's were getting more and more tender, I was peeing so much I was considering the commencement of nappies and talk about starving....

I then said to DH - that's it I'm testing again and sure enough a BIG FAT POSITIVE

Just had to tell someone cause I feel like shouting it from the rooftops. I am booking into see the Dr as soon as I can and will insist on a scan as soon as possible.

This baby is going ALLLLLLLLLL the way

[AJC]

Easha - that is brilliant news. I am so happy for you, wishing you a happy & healthy pregnancy. Well Done! ! !

[AJC]

Hannah - I had mid cycle spotting once before. Perhaps was a coincidence but I also had a bad case of thrush the same cycle so I think my cervix was a little sensitive (the spotting appeared after bd). It's not abnormal to experience this (sometimes it's due to hormones) but if it keeps up tell your doctor. Like anything Gyno there could be a million reasons why it happens - but don't panic as I said it's not uncommon.

[AJC]

DH deserves better than this.

Hannah - I only just read this post. Don't be too hard on yourself - ttc is something that you take on as a couple not an individual. Hard to say without knowing your DH but I'm sure he understands and is dealing with it in his own way. Wow, I got so snappy with my DH sometimes but he understood that it was just the anger releasing and was pretty good and rarely snapped back. My DH kept his feelings to himself where I just let them go.

Good idea to chat to your doctor, ask them if there is someone who specialises in grief for women who have had m/c. I went to a psychologist who was totally hopeless and left me feeling worse than I did before I spoke to her so don't want that to happen to you. I got pretty low after my second m/c too - it's un-describable pain and I'm sorry you are experiencing that.

Most of all I just wanted to send you a big hug though.

[Razzberry]

Easha - I am sooo happy for you!!!

JackJack - Where abouts in sydney are you? Im out west near penrith / blue mountains. I think its important you do find a gyn whos listening to what you want!

To everyone else hi and hugs, sorry for lack of persies but Im off to take my neice to see Highschool Musical in the city!

AFM - Not long now till we start doing the deed! and hoping, hoping, hoping it works!