Thank you for your lovely messages! What a nice surprise - you're all so good at keeping track and taking time to share everyone's journeys. Thank you.

I'm not quite up to full personals yet, but I just wanted to say, HannahD you'll know when the time is right to get the help that you need. It's awful that you feel so empty, but you're not alone. Have you got a women's health clinic near you? Sometimes they can be a bit more empathetic as a starting point. It's so hard to concentrate on ourselves, and SO much easier to focus on someone else. I'm so glad that you're able to express yourself here, but I feel so sad for you that you're feeling the way you are.

AFM - not unsurprisingly the counselling session wasn't the great panacea I'd hoped for! It turns out I'd come across her before in my building at work (I work with families) so it was a strange situation to be seeing her! But, it was kind of good to work out that we're doing OK, and that I shouldn't feel bad about screening phone calls!
Amongst many other things, we talked a bit about having monuments for newbie (that's what we called our angel baby). We have renamed our Christmas angel for our tree, and I'm going to plant a new lemon tree and make some cross stitch bits and pieces. I'm just wondering what other people have done? I hope this is the right place to ask - and I hope I'm not upsetting anyone by asking here.
Not quite ready to TTC - bit wussy yet. My body feels quite fine (traitorous thing!) but I'm head is another matter entirely. Hope you don't mind me hanging around whilst I pluck up the courage to start again.


M