Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage or Loss April 2010

Ferrals DON'T GIVE UP !

If you do then there is no hope for me and I know we can do it, thats what this thread is all about keeping each other going while we patiently wait for a BFP. Thanks for the info will have to order more stix, I wonder where our murraycod is she had not posted on here for a while I do hope she hasn't had a meltdown ! Like we all do from time to time being on here for nearly a year really sucks !
I was in 2 minds as to trying the vitex again as if you remember after my mc I didn't get
AF for ages and then within 5 days of starting vitex I got her to visit and definately ovulated 14 days later but the depression and headaches it gave me well I don't know if I can live with that !

congrats to all the new BFPs this week so happy for you ! glad the older BFPs are going strong ie mumof4 and Dory I wonder if I will ever get to move out of here there are some of us been on here far toooo long and feeling like giving up but you know what we are made of stronger stuff so
Ferrals,murraycod,t,hopes, TTCLC, Alice and kitfaeri and all other long timers come on girls lets get this thing right once and for all !

Have a good evening !:)

Crafty: Mwa, you rock.

Ferrals: I am so proud of you, for being strong enough to get through this and for telling that skank what-for; I know it hurts and it feels unfair sometimes, but it will be your turn, and when your finally holding your baby, you'll be proud of yourself too.

MurrayCod: Where you at darling? You are missed! Come back!

TTCALC: I bet your busy, hope things are well xo

Alice: Just wanted to say hi! Hi!

Ami: Super congrats sweetheart, just take deep breaths and enjoy it! You'll be fine xo xo

SarahRach: Glad things are going well, hurrah!

AFM: Temping is still fun, and not irritating yet. Starting taking Maca, forcing DH to take it too, apparantly it's good for spermies as well.

I'm a bit sad. The want to have a baby is starting to ache a bit too much for my comfort. Usually, I'm conscious of it, but I can ignore it. But now? I see a newborn, or a toddler with green eyes (DH has beautiful green eyes) and I feel this wrenching deep down. It hurts.

I'm trying to make the most out of not being preg, went to the markets and got stacks of soft cheeses and wine. So, no baby, but plenty of Brie. Gonna go get me just a bit pished (which is approximately 1 1/2 glasses now after so long not drinking!) - love to everyone! xo

Crafty- Try liquid vitex and take half the amount it tastes like sh#t but i found it better than the tablet form the tablets give me headaches for the first few days then all good but the liquid vitex was good the only side effect i had was i am not as h##ny as i usually am while taking it but it makes me 28 days spot on and i O right on time plus i fell pregnant with Abbi on it but if it's not agreeing with you don't put yourself through it.
I wont give up just yet but not feeling real positive my body is changing the FS and Naturopath both say i am real fertile way off menopause plenty of eggs but why cant i get pregnant and why don't i get ewcm anymore and why are my boobs sore every month and why is my AF changing from 28-29 days every month to 28-33 days i dont mind getting older but not my vjay jay or my baby making bits not yet i am not ready.

Hello everyone,

Ami congratulations! That's wonderful news!! Hope those levels keep rising well and all the best for a H&H pg. :dance:

Gosh - that's our 7th BFP! Keep 'em coming. Any I'm with Crafty, it's time for some of us to get moving -it's our turn now!

MurryCod - wherefore art thou? We are missing our lovely MC - please pop in and say hi and let us know you are OK. We're here for you no matter what. It's your turn soon lovely, it is xxx

MatthewsMum - broke my heart reading your short post. That's IVF and TTC and MC&L all up, isn't it? It's such a bag of emotions, all at once. Big hugs to you. This little one is a winner - I know it! And your little Matthew is with you always and his little brother/sister too. I remember seeing that little embie on screen last cycle and I just sobbed. My poor FS and DH and the nurses didn't know what to do but it was just so overwhelming. I didn't know whether I was happy for this last precious chance or so sad for all the other losses. It can just get you like that. Thinking of you - be gentle with yourself and rest - all will be good. x

Yah Crafty and Ferrals are back - love you both x Crafty - hope that you get a good clear O this month. Ferrals, that's just heart wrenching seeing those second pregnancies - I would feel the same. It must be so confusing knowing you are so fertile still but having this damn frustrating time. Glad to hear you are giving it another year at least - we're here for you, no matter what.

Kit - poor love :hug: You'll see those big green eyes looking at you soon I promise. In the meantime, you enjoy your cheese! And IKWYM about the 1 1/2 glasses of wine - I had a glass of champas last night then a red wine and oh boy did I have a bad head this morning! I know it was a bad combo, but still - 2 glasses! All these years of on again/off again IVF and TTC have made me a wuss! :) Glad the charting is going well.

My dinner is ready so better go. AFM - would have been 20 weeks tomorrow :( :( Watching the young woman who used to work for me struggle up the stairs this morning with her belly made me sad. She's due the same day we were. Some days it just gets you, doesn't it? Keep reminding myself, it'll be May soon. I feel like I'm asking for a big wish getting two pgs in a row after so much time but I really hope we can.

Love to all,
Alice xx

PS Possum - HP is Harry Potter...so I guess you answered my question anyway! :)

ami, any sign of AF
Missk, thats exciting any way you look at it. Do another one in the morning with FMU. Lots of doctors say you dont need to wait. I belive that if you do have a little bundle baking away, then thats how it is meant to be. They come when they are ready and not a moment before....so if it is here, its meant to be.
Loving thoughts go out to you my sweet, I hope it is exactly the way you want it to be.xxx

Hi to everyone else, sorry not many persies. I am thinking of you all though. I am finding it so hard to keep up atm.

Sarahrach, so happy for you.
Dory Glad you re doing well xxx

love and bucket loads of babydust to all xxx

oh deray me, pardon my post b4, I just realised that I hadnt read two whole pages....my goodness it moves fast in here
love to all xxxx
Congrats Ami, thats awesome.\
MM hope you nurtured yourself darlin, take care my loving thoughts and vibes go out to you xxxxxx

Morning Everyone,
Congrats Ami- I hope those hcg hormones keep rising!
Dory - Glad you drop in....Its nice to hear how the escapees are going!
Crafty & Ferrals - Please both of you stay strong! I cant imagine how tough this is on both of but I do understand the Depression issues, mine arent linked to Vitex though. I think you are both wonderful caring ladies and your BFP's are on the way, despite the detours they may appear to be on.:hug:
Kitf - I know what you mean about the cheese! not so much the wine though more a spirits girl myself! After I mc i went and bought a ginormous amount of cheese then went via Maccas for a softserve ;)hope your not feeling to queasy today!
Murraycod - we miss you, hope you are feeling ok.
Alice - That will be you struggling up the stairs soon! I find milestones like the 1/2 way point hurt a lot, there is a woman 2 doors down from me due the same week I was, I cant bare to look at her.
Iona, Millyd, Jellyfish, Jenna, Missk, Sarahrach & Possum.....Big hugs to you all ( Im sorry, I know I have missed some :hug:
I loved the slappers comment too!

Afm - Feeling a bit meh, DH leaves tomorrow morning,the cramping has begun, so it is just a waiting game for Af.
Thanks all for your dog comments! I had one dog growing up a Rotti x red cattle and Dh had had ridgebacks and the last was a mastiff x rotti, My lapdog is now a 23kg APBT, I dont think i could have got through our mc without her or Dh, I have never had such a sook with sad eyes! or a pup that likes kittens so much. Ferrals - I love American Bulldogs!!! Dh wouldnt let me get one because he doesnt like the squashed up face:shakehead:, so we have compromised on a blue amstaff:dance: If I cant be pregnant I will have lots of furbabies!

:grouphug: xxxx

ami-congratulations,wishing you all the best...jellylove-i've never had implantation bleeding,hope that is what it is though..alice-hugs ,those situations pull at our heart strings.I still have to come inside sometimes when i hear the twins next door who are the age matthew is supposed to be,they'll be planning 1st birthday party soon for them.Do you need to go to your fs soon to sort out your meds?...thanks again ladies for your lovely words,much appreciated & needed...afm-got phone call from lab this morning,need to pick up my 9 embryos tomorrow which haven;t made it to freezing stage,lots of tears cried for them,i know that they were only at embrotic stage ,but i still got attached,once the eggs were fertilised,they were my babies,trying to stay calm to give this one inside me chance or then i'll just have something else to feel sad & guilty about....

MatthewsMum - sorry your little embies didn't make it. Nothing to feel guilty about, they have their own time, and it wasn't to be, sad as it is. I hope that the little one they put back is snuggling in and getting settled for the months ahead and that you have some to freeze as well? Yes, will need to be speaking to FS soon and getting ready. TBH these months have flown by and I almost don't feel ready. Take care and rest up xx

PS Bons - so much time apart from you DH! I hope it won't be too hard for you but imagine it must be at times. Hope it goes quickly.

Thanks all for the good luck..
I got me 8 kids here tonite...LOL
my 5 and 3 of there cousins.. We had a sleep over with pizza party,snacks,popcorn rented movies.. its 10 pm and finally they watched the last rented movie..
I never let my 5 stay up this late but i figured it was k since its the weekend..
Soory no personals tonite :( im sooooo exhausted for sure tonite.. but wanted to stop in and say hello and that i was thinking of you all..

Also wanted to let everyone know im going to test on April 20!!! cause that is 4 -5 days b4 i would get AF so im sure if i was prego it would show a BFP ...

Best wishes to all and Basy dust sent to you all..
Congrast to you all new mommies and
Sticky vibes for the TWW :)



Matthewsmom. im soo sorry sweetie..
Dont give up,NONE of YOu!! you all deserve to be Mommies!!!

Hugs and love for you all!!

Matthew's Mum - Well, the bleeding has stopped now - it lasted for 4 days... which is short for AF for me.

TTCALoveChild - Good luck for testing on the 20th! Don't be too put off though if you get a bfn 4 days before af is due - i got a bfn 4 days before af was due last year but i knew i was pregnant so i waited til af was due and i did another and it was a bfp!

Bons - Good luck for testing & sending sticky vibes your way xo

AFM - Well I lost all my self control yesterday and i poas :( got a BFN... but it's still early days, AF due on thursday so i tested 6 days before. i knew deep down it would be a bfn but i couldn't wait haha! will test again in the morning that will be 4 days before af is due :D fingers crossed... i was staring at the test for ages trying to see a faint line... how sad :(

Ferrals my Darling, and Crafty, I love you girls XXXXX Between the three of us having our hissy fits, then jumping on the bandwagon again, we should be in the MadHouse!!!!!
I turn 30 in 4 weeks, and I feel like an old baron horse ATM!!!:lol: We have to keep encouraging eachother, sometimes I feel like I have finally run out of advice, run out of positive things to say, but girls, I won't let you give up, so I wont XXXXX Luv Y'as XX
Crafty oldtimer, Ill give you oldtimer!!!!:lol: LMAO about your comment of the 'dead girly bits!!!!!
Ferrals, thanks for the chat ;) :wall:

Alice my Friend, we will be holding hands for the next 6 weeks together, and hopefully for 8 months after that!!XX Roll on May, it can't come quick enough for me, and I know how long you have waited!!!!! Going to be a fun ride again XX

Matthew'sMum, darling I am so sorry to read that a number of embies did not make it XX Please stay positive honey, this will be one of your longest hardest TWW ever, and we are here for you all the way. Keep strong, think happy thaughts and enjoy being PUPPO for the rest of your wait. Honey take it from me, be positive and laugh every day, and only worry about being sad, when you have to. XXX

Millyd I think I had 8 pages to catch up on...........sigh..........I am totally exhausted. I did lurk the other day, but there was so much going on, and I didn't know where to start, then it was way worse when I came back!!! OMG!!! Go catch that eggie babe XX

KitF, my DH calls me Cadbury, cuz usually one and a half glasses, and I'm cooked!!:lol:
I know exactly how you feel about the baby thing, honey, this is way harder than I thaught it was going to be. Thinking of you sweetheart XX

MissK, honey sorry you have no real answers, but am glad all the same, that there was nothing bad XX Huggs to you XX

Bons, sorry to hear you are expecting to get AF X
I have 2 furbabies, a 2.9kg minature foxie that recons she can take on an elephant (she is my princess) and a 47kg labrador, who is scared of mice (he's my baby).
They are both out woodcutting with DH ATM XX

TTCALC, WOW, did I read right............8 ????? OMG, you go girl!! LMAO!! I would die! Good luck for the 20th honey, we will be here waiting to hear how you go X

THopes, thanx for the hugg, right back atchya XXXX Fingers crossed you caught that egg XXXX

IonaMacca I hope your Li'l Man is feeling better X

Mildez, have you started on the clomid yet?? How are you?

Sunbeam darling beutiful sweetheart, how are you? Have you been lurking like I have?? I would love to know how you are doing with your next IUI, miss reading your posts, I hope things are ok XXXXX

Tegam, LMAO at you trying to wax yourself, oh I would not have the gutts!!!!!

Rose132, have you POAS again? I hope you are ok, not that I'm not thinking positive for you, but I would hate to see you so dissapointed at the end if things don't work out. Honey take it easy on yourself and just try to rrelax for a few days, huggs to you X

Ric, Hello Ric...? :lol: I'm not the only one who dissapeared hey?? Thinking of you my darling, come and have a chat babe!!!!!!XXXXXX The catching up aint that bad once you attempt it, well, for the first hour anyways!! I have been on the computer for 2 hrs now, catching up and typing!!:o

Reet, sorry your cycles are taking so long to get back into the swing of things X I know how frustrating waiting is XX

Jennajayeen, I have everything crossed for you that you get your turn this month X

Jellylove, since you didn't get your BFP until your AF was due last time, don't stress this cycle over just yet, have some hope X

Sarahrach and Ami, congratulations to the both of you, may you have a H+H pregnancy X
Sarahrach, I have really enjoyed your company here, please drop me a line and let me know how you get on XX Sweetheart well done XXXXX

Possummagic
Em
Kirsten
Alicat
Loops
Tryingforno3
Cuppi
Hope you are all well my lovelies, this thread is moving so quickly, I don't wan't you to think you are forgotten, cuz your not!!XXXX Love to you all.

Inanna, hope you are well X


My Darling escapees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Audax my darling I miss you, hope you are well XXXX
Dory, sweetheart, thank you for everything, and all of your support XXXX
SPF XXX
Eliselouise XXX
Mummyof4, I am so proud of you!!
Greencake XXX
Hubbabubba XXX
Maddison :bellyrubs:
Belly rubs to you all, can't wait to join you all !!!!




To all of the girls asking about me, darlings thank you, it means a lot that you have taken the time to give me a PM or ask about me, you are all so wonderfull and you are all my strength to keep going XXXX

I had a dreaded 13viles of blood taken last Tuesday, WOW. Soooo many tests on the path slip, and I have more to do on Monday, but they are all fasting bloods.
I am terrified of this Uterus Biopsy comming up at the end of the cycle, but I keep reminding myself " you asked for it girl"..............sigh........... am S****ing myself!
Once that is over, Alice and I can focus on MAY !!!!!

Girls, love you all XX You are my strength

hi loveys...
hope everyone is having a nice, peaceful, relaxing weekend!

matthewsmum - sorry to hear about your little embies, i can only imagine how sad that must make you feel :( My fingers are so very tightly crossed for the little one, finding its way inside... praying that the little bean, nestles in nice and snug and your bfp is on its way xx

ferrals - sending you a big hug, keep pushing on love, if all the docs are saying that your ok then keep fighting... we will win this!!!!

murraycod - miss n u xx

jellylove - dont lose hope, its early days yet, much to early for a bfp.

bons - glad your fur babies are looking after you, what would we do without them!? My two dogs have been my sanity thru this whole thing, never leave my side... bless them!

crafty - im with you love! We are gunna get it right! We have to keep chuggin' on!

kit - oh love, i know that ache well.... i try and keep mine burried deep too but every now and then it sneaks up on me! I try and change the pain to excitement though.... instead of harping on what i dont have, i focus on what i WILL have... i try not to focus on the fact that im not pushing a pram around but that I WILL be pushing a pram around.... i know it wouldnt work for everyone but it get me thru xx

alice - focus on May darlin....3 weeks today until its May!!! thats what..?? bout 21 sleeps??? im sorry its hard at work with the other lady... its awful i know.... i had one at my work too... i just avoided her as much as i could! :shhh:

sarah & Ami - congrats again girls, fabulous news and inspiration for all of us! look after yourselves and dont be strangers!

afm - had acupunture again this morning... and boy did i need it! found out yesterday that my dad has 2 x abdominal aortic aneurysms... and will need surgery asap! so worried about him, we just got the all clear from his bowel cancer and now this set back. I have this fear of losing him before i have a baby and im so envious of all my older sisters because all their children know him and will always remember him... i want my babies to know him too :( he is such a great man! they say that he will be fine after the surgery but he worries me... seeing him fight cancer has scared me so much.
Anyways, should O in the next few days which is good! Cant believe how fast time has gone and im at this stage already!!! bring on the 2ww! Im ready for you!!!

:egg::pinksperm::bluesperm::egg:

MurryCod! Yah!! You're back. And as usual, you've left a lovely long post thinking of everyone. :hug: The ut biop is not nice, I admit, but you'll be OK. It's a bit like an egg collection actually. I was a bit :o after I had it done, mostly 'cause I didn't know what to expect (it's internal, obviously, but that hadn't occurred to me - don't know how I thought they were going to do it! :rolleyes:) Hope it goes OK. Yes, a lot like an egg collection so you should be OK as you've done that before. Maybe take some panadol just in case! Hope it goes OK.

JellyLove - I've lost track are you waiting to test? Did I miss you? Good luck!

Thopes - so sorry about your Dad - we were posting at the same time. I hope your little ones will get to know him for many many years. Best wishes for this montth.

Alice x

hey ladies,

Murraycod - Good luck for your Uterus Biopsy, don't be scared - everything will be fine - you will be fine!

T-hopes - Yeah! Definitely not losing hope just yet haha! Thank you!

Alice - I was supposed to be strong and have will power and not test until thursday. however i couldn't wait that long even though i knew it would be a bfn this early... going to test again tomorrow morning!!!

Yeh! murrycod i new i could count on you to come back i had to email you at home because as you know some things we say will be edited here.
All the testing will put your mind at ease and no more wondering what if so it will be ok and i hope you get some answers that can be easily fixed and then a BFP will follow soon after.

TTCALC-your house sounds like mine i have my 3 boys my stepdaughter my eldests sons girlfriend my youngest sons 2 mates and my stepdaughters 2 friends all over for the day
GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH!!! so that is 9 kid's and hubby and i.

Jellylove-sorry it was a BFN hopefully just a bit early.

Mathewsmum-this will all turn out for the best i think you will be our next escapee to the BB thread.

Kitfaerie-i just stuffed myself with Brie and bickies yum! yum! and i know how the wrenching feeling feels i have that when i see DH looking at babies and little tots stumbling around i can see the longing in his eyes and i want to give him that i want to feel that bond between the two of us that we created something beautiful together i know we had Abbi but it's not the same.

Bons-aww sorry you feel a bit meh and DH wont be home to make you feel better
And blue american staffy awwwww! so beautiful i love that colour not an easy colour to find though i absolutely love my american bulldog i will post some pics of her later for you to show your DH.

AFM- well my fertile body is kicking in i am on day 7 and my Estrogen is already rising my CBFM is reading high today so i will have fertile signs for the next week but DH and i will only BD every 2nd day until i have my LH surge then we will go for it.
Good god i am going to be exhausted.

murraycod thanks for asking about me, No clomid for me after my Bts the specialist said it wouldn't help as he couldn't improve what my body was already doing. Just the tubal damage stopping me from getting pregnant unfortunately. BFN when I tested just waiting for AF to arrive so I can try again.

Matthew's Mum so sorry to read about your little embies not been able to be frozen. I'd feel the same way big :grouphug:

This thread is way huge it is sad so many of us are here!

Bons-here's some pic's of my poopy dog's Dozer is the 65kg white American bulldog and if you look under the bed Kaos is hiding under there poking his head out this was taken a year ago when dozer was only a puppy the one with her chewing her bone was today and she wouldn't put it down for the photo.

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