Thanks again for all the welcomes.

Well im doing a me post, i was almost in tears last night, and i just have to get it all out, i know i said i wasnt going to talk to hubby about dtd, and just see what happens, but i need answers, i want to get straight back into bd, i want my sticky bfp!!

So he was sitting on the lounge and i went over and hugged him, and just said casually, so have you thought about when you would like to ttc again, and he said, no not for a very long time, in my mind i was like wtf! So i said i was hoping we could get straight back into it, then i got up and went and sat on the other lounge, he got up and went to the computer and said something like, it was really hard for me, cant you respect that.
I do respect that is was hard for him, it was also hard for me too.

So feeling sad i went to the bed room to sulk, about 5 min later he came in and said o what r u doing in here, so i told him i came in to sulk.

He then says some stuff, and i said well how long do u think till you are ready, well, he went off his tree, saying im pressuring him, and he is the one who has to pick up the pieces, and he doesnt want this to happen again etc...

So im all upset, even if we wait, it could happen again, or it may not, im not getting any younger, so the later we wait the older i get, and as for picking up the pieces, um excuse me, but really there were not any pieces to pick up, most of my support came from bb, he barely spoke to me about it, and i had two days to deal with it, before the us had confimed it, and thats when he broke down, and i had to console him.

I am ready, i want to start asap, im the one who physically went through this, im the one, who feels guilty that my body could not hold on to the baby, im the one who should have the final say on when we ttc again.

Ok so that turned into a mini vent, sorry.
Its just not fair, ok it was an early loss, i had only know for a few weeks, but it doesnt make it that much easier, i did know, and i did start to make plans, and i was getting attatched.
I want my pregnancy back!!!!!