Hi All, I just did this huge post and was just signing off when Lucy came and turned the computer off GRRRR although its not her fault, she just thinks its a light switch (hence why all our outlets have those plastic things in them) and i even have a box in front of it filled with computer paper!

Anyway i will try and think back to what i wrote...

Thanks to everyone about the comments and encouragment for me doing Sids and Kids, its a very daunting prospect but i want to help someone out of my experiences with Katelyn's life. For those who dont know SNK's offers councelling for people who lose babies from conception onwards. I had contact with a lady after Katelyn was born and we have become good friends, i hope that i could help someone that much!

Michelle, I hope that you are on the mend and starting to feel better, the clomid sideffects certaintly didnt help you in that regard, i dont know anything about it but i very much hope that it works and this cycle is your cycle! Of course you should feel normal about holding your Caitlyn...my Katelyn is next to where i sleep on my bedside table and i honestly dont know how i could have ever coped with her passing without at least being able to pick her up, give her a cuddle and a kiss and talk to her. At least that way i feel that she can hear me and part of her is still with me. Some people might find this weird but i am a big beliver in doing whatever you have to do to get through the day!

Keen, I am so sorry i too had high hopes for you this cycle, i wish i could do something to help you get that BFP as you really deserve it, i really hope that this upcoming month brings you all that you desire.

Kristy, How are you doing? How is the testing going? I really hope that tomorrow morning you wake up to TWO lines staring back at you! GL and sending you lots of baby dust!

Kelly, You brave thing managing to get through a meal with friends that are due when you were and not having a meltdown (i know that i wouldnt have made it through) especially not telling them about your loss. It must have been very difficult for you and i am sending you a big hug. I also understand what you had to say about friends ttc and worrying about them conceiving before you do....You should already be quite pregnant with your baby and to start TTC and someone getting in there before you is a stab in the back. I had two people have babies a month before Lucy was born (my nephew who was an accident and not really wanted and a close friend) and it was a extremely difficutl time for me going to visit them in hospital etc i didnt deal with it very well but i got through it. I also hear you on the long week, why does the TWW have to go on for so long???At least when you are waiting to O you are thinking it could be anytime now but the TWW is the worst. GL i hope the week goes fast for you and ends in that BFP!

Jayne, How are you feeling? I am really glad that you are going to the doc doc (love that by the way lol) I think that everything is going to be AOK but i want you to be reassured that your baby is in there growing away and you can relax and enjoy the next couple of weeks. Let us know how you go.

Sez, you didnt say much about yourself in your post, are you ok? Are you back at work now? Yes Sids and Kids do provide lots of booklets about losing a baby and TTC again but they are aimed at parents not the contacts...which is why i am hanging out for the course in March. Thanks for your kind words.

Kate, You asked if you will O on about day 20, i would say you are pretty much spot on with your calculations within a day or so because i have a 34/35 day cycle and i O'd on CD 20 or 21. GL with this cycle, are you using OPK's or just charting (just that you mentioned that you will use FF) Im not using either just hoping!

Tanya, 6DPO, when will you start testing? How is your tww wait going? GL and i hope you see those precious two lines really soon!

Belle, Its great to hear you sounding so positive about TTC and excited about OPK's I really hope that this cycle brings all that you hope for! I am still undecided about the concert, i was going to go and then i had a look in my what to expect while you expecting and it says that all pregnant women should avoid loud music and rock concerts...on the internet it says that it could be linked to hearing problems and low birth weight in newborns (i would love someone to correct me here if you know different)...i know i am probably being a bit woosy but because i went to Fleetwood Mac when i was 14 weeks pregnant with Katelyn and then we lost her if i went pregnant (around that 14 week time) i think it would be too much of a reminder, and as for the flying......Like i said i know i am probably going to miss out unnesesarily but i just feel more comfortable not going but what a bummer, now how to break the news to my dad, he can give my ticket away to my aunty who lives in Sydney (which he and her are both fine with) but what do i say without giving the game away lol???

Lisa, Its so great to see you sounding so positive and eager to TTC this month, it just has to be your month with all that yucky stuff and positive vibes floating around lol, i am interested in the hypnotherapy, let me know how you go. I feel awful about what you went through to make you throw up on the side of the road, that is awful i wish that nobody ever had to feel that pain.

Kirsty, Amy and all those i have unintentionally forgotten, how are you all doing?

Shell, You posted at the same time as me but i really hope that your (.)(.)'s are a great sign, you go girl in the morning and i really hope you get that great positive stick to give your man!

As for me, why does the tww have to take so bloody long???? It is worse than waiting to O because that could happen anytime but with the TWW its such an emotional time - i wish it was over and i would know either way, and you know what the worst bit is i still have over a week to go and its only my first month of trying lol.

Love Sarah xx