Coco, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, for posting that. It has helped, and I only hope that from other people reading it, people can be more understanding, or at least try to, of how their comments affect, even when they don't intend to. xx

Lladyr dont get too down just yet hunny, as i have said to a couple of girls in the last couple of weeks its not over till af turns up and those 2 girls in particular have gone on to get BFP's 1 or 2 days before AF is due. Thats the reason ive been trying so hard to hold off on testing untill the last moment, it is just so hard seeing that solitary lonely line each time. Hopefuuly if you can maybe hold off another 2 or 3 days you will get two nice dark lines on the test
Thank you Elise, I , but I still don't know.. I'd love to be able to stay so positive throughout it all, but it's so hard... usually I'm quiet a positive person, especially throughout this TTC journey, even after it taking in excess of 18 months with one loss, but lately, especially after the loss, it's seeming that much harder.

Especially after the loss, since now I know how it feels to be pregnant, and have that gift inside of you, to nurture, love, and marvel over this tiny being, only for it to be taken away...

It's almost like the loss all over again