Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage/Loss August/September 2009

[kyrawolfe]

just thought id let everyone know i had a gud report today..

Even tho I had a bleed.. My Bhcg levels have tripled again to 6990
Also they did a scan and the yolk sac is completely safe and in the right spot, so everything is back to normal for now..

Chickie babe.. Im so sorry hun, hopefully this will give u some hope that bleeding and cramping isnt always the end. I was so sure it was for me last thursday.. hope it all works out xx

[Zeppy]

Hi kyrawolfe,
I'm so happy for you. It's great to here some good news. Fingers are crossed!

[Jahzara]

Thankyou so much for ALL your kind words of support !

Bleeding is continuing - not heavy but still there and cramping continues although not as bad as it was earlier.

This might seem odd but at this stage i am going to wait before i see anyone - there is nothing they can do to help me if my bub has to grow wings.
Previously i was advised to go to the ED if things get really bad- which i will do.
I will ring the Pregnancy Assessment Unit tomorrow and fill them in.
If i do miscarry i still need to keep seeing them as they will monitor my levels and scan me again.
I have learnt alot from going to the ED the other week. At this stage i dont feel up to sitting at the ED waiting for hours to be seen only for them to tell me they cant do anything - its just natures way ! Like i dont already know that !

Anyway Ladies - thanks again

I will keep you posted - your support means the world to me !

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo

[Jahzara]

Kyra - thats great news !!



xoxoxo

[starangelk]

Hi everyone, would it be okay if I joined in here? The Dr confirmed last Thursday at 7w1d that I was having a m/c....it was not a big surprise at that stage since I had been having bleeding since the Sunday before. DH and I want to start TTC as soon as possible so I am just waiting this out at the moment. I hope this is the right place to post this, I wasn't really sure.

[Twin Sister]

Chickybabe - I really hope that all is well. I got all teary for you when I read your post as I felt the stress and the worry. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you that the baby is still ok.

LladyR & Ellalouise- I have my fingers crossed for you both as well that it is still just too early for your BFPs

Coco - thanks for posting that piece. I?m going to print it off and read it every time I start to feel sad. I really like the last part ?I can tell you that I want people to know. I don't want it to be a secret or a shadow or something that is endured only alone. I want people to know that I have been through something, that I am tired but optimistic, that I've been knocked down but don?t help me up because I can get up myself. It's fair, I think, to want witnesses for our suffering.? I have told most of my friends about my loss as I felt the more support I had the better.

Kyra - yay to the increase in HCG. That?s great news.

Tina - I really really hope your HCG rises. Sending you good thoughts.

Zeppy - I've been down a lot lately too, we all understand though. I hope all goes well at your appt.

starangelk - Welcome to the thread, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I just joined recently as well and want to start TTC as soon as possible too (just waiting for AF to go). Hopefully your cycle will return to normal really quickly and you won't have to TTC for very long


AFM I'm having another rough day. It started out really nice, it's sunny here so I took the kids (my little guy plus the little girl I babysit) to visit a friend out at the lake (she arranged a playgroup) The kids all got naked and splashed in the shallow water. I was having fun until the good news dropped. Two more of my friends in that circle are pregnant and due within days of when I should have been due. That makes three now! They were excitedly chatting away about pregnancy while I tried to melt away into the background. We left after lunch and I cried...no sobbed the entire way home. It's too hard to be around happy pregnant people.

[eliselouise]

Twin sister was just reading your post about taking the kids to the lake and them splashing around in the water and i looked at the time and was thinking, geez thats odd its so early (9am here) and then i realised you are in canada, so now it all makes sense Its very hard to be happy for people when finding out there pg, when you want it so badly, especially when they are due around the same time you would have been. Try and stay positive and hopefully youll get your BFP really soon
starangelk, sorry to hear of your loss and youve definately come to the right place to chat and get the support you need. Hopefully your stay here is short
Chickybabe im keeping everything crossed for you that this is a sticky bub, also i understand what you mean about going to the ED i felt the same way when it happened to me last time, they try and reassure you but in the end there is nothing they can actually do to stop it from happening unfortunately. Thinking of you hunny and keep us posted.
Kyra WOO HOO thats awesome news, looks like this ones a little fighter!!
Zeppy well that makes it hard for docs then, but if your doc is good then i suppose stick with him. That would be hard for your best friend living where she is with no u/s machine. Hopefully everything settles down for you real soon so you can start TTC again and get your sticky bub

[starangelk]

Hi all

EliseLouise and Twin Sister - thanks for the welcome. IKWYM about friends being preg. One of my very close friends is 13 weeks.........I didn't tell her I was preg as she was feeling very happy about being the only preg one and having all the attention on her (she got married last year and had to share that with a few other people) so I just kept quiet. Luckily I did considering I m/c. So I haven't told her about that yet, I plan to - but not for a while yet as she was just on the phone last night telling me how even though she is in the second trimester she is still worried etc etc. But the whole phone conversation was just SO hard for me, I cried afterwards for a really long time.

Chickybabe - I am thinking of you. How are things going today babe?

Coco - That piece is amazing. I am so glad for this thread - I feel so isolated from everyone at the moment because we haven't told many people.

AFM - I had another BT this morning, just waiting for my levels to come down. Sorry if TMI - I am struggling with it all a little bit because my boobs are still swollen and I've only been getting spotting. Last Thursday my levels were still 600 so hopefully todays test will bring me some closure.

Thanks again for the welcome - I am really looking forward to getting to know you all.

[LladyR]

just thought id let everyone know i had a gud report today..

Even tho I had a bleed.. My Bhcg levels have tripled again to 6990
Also they did a scan and the yolk sac is completely safe and in the right spot, so everything is back to normal for now..

Happy ! That's such good news KW, I'm so happy for you!!

Hi everyone, would it be okay if I joined in here? The Dr confirmed last Thursday at 7w1d that I was having a m/c....it was not a big surprise at that stage since I had been having bleeding since the Sunday before. DH and I want to start TTC as soon as possible so I am just waiting this out at the moment. I hope this is the right place to post this, I wasn't really sure.

Welcome Starangelk, in a bittersweet way.. All the girls here are amazing, and overwhelming support if ever you need it.. Please be kind to yourself during this time.

AFM - I had another BT this morning, just waiting for my levels to come down. Sorry if TMI - I am struggling with it all a little bit because my boobs are still swollen and I've only been getting spotting. Last Thursday my levels were still 600 so hopefully todays test will bring me some closure.

to you xx

Not much else to report from this end. It's funny, 1/2 of my is still convinced I'm preggers, just a funny feeling I've got inside of me.. but yesterday evening I POAS OPK, and the 2nd line was barely visible, so the other 1/2 of me is still certain I'm out for this month.. again.

Just waiting... AF is due Thursday, so we'll see...

[maddison]

to the new ladies. Its always sad to see new people joining but you will get so much support here. Very sorry for your losses and hopefully your stays will be nice and short.

Chickybabe i hope you are still doing ok today and that the cramping and bleeding have passed and your sticky bub is doing well sticking in there.

Kyra - Thats great about your rising levels.

Sammy how are you doing??

Big Hello to everyone else.

Its so quiet in here at the moment. Seems quite a few people are having a break from posting. If anyone wants to chat during the day i am usually not logged in but i am here during work hours so just post and i will log on.

[TinaR]

Hey lladyR - have you poas hpt? fingers crossed for you.

maddison: haven't chatted in ages - how are you?

Hi everyone, hope your days are starting to see a little bit of sunshine...you are all constantly in my thoughts to get bfp's and your hearts desires

[Mildez]

Hi, can I join you?

I recently had my 3rd m/c. After waiting over a week to m/c sponataneously it happened and a week later its just starting to end now. I would like to ttc again however my HCG is continuing to rise at the moment and I have heard you don't O until the HCG is gone. Apparently due to the rise in HCG Gyno said its from retained products but is confident it should start going down now and the products have probably already being expelled. I hope it happens soon as my pregnancy symptoms are worse then ever despite not being pregnant
I have tests for recurrent m/c in 6weeks although the Gyno said it was highly unlikely to show anything due to me having 2healthy pregnancies/children before and it was just bad luck.


Anyway thats my little story.

[starangelk]

Hi Emmy - saying welcome to you sounds a bit strange as I understand that you wish you weren't in this thread in the first place, which is the same as I am sure we all feel. I just joined this thread last night. M/C last week and BT today shows HCG at 45 but I still have preg. symptoms. I think some are in my head but my boobs are definately still swollen but not painful. Maybe they will just stay that way?

I will keep my fingers crossed for you that your HCG goes down quickly so you can TTC again soon as you said that's what you want. Thinking of you xx

[Jahzara]

Hi Ladies !

I am sorry i havent checked in - i have been lurking

Today i am still spotting. Quite dark brown or bright red - still some cramping too.

Still freaking out of course.

Going to wait til Thursday now to ring the Pregnancy Assessment Unit so i can talk to the nice lady who i feel far more comfortable with. Nothing worse than talking to someone who makes you feel like you are wasting their time !

I have been feeling very tired today and a bit dizzy tonight.
Also been feeling quite nauseas today - thought i was going to vomit earlier.

So, i dont know - just going to continue waiting....

As you would all understand - i just want this to stop and continue on to be a normal, healthy pregnancy...aaaaahhh !

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts - i really appreciate them !

You are all gems xoxoxoxox

Tina - Fabulous news xoxoxox

[Jahzara]

Hi Starangelk and Emmy

You have joined a fantastic bunch of Ladies here - this is an awesome place to come for support.

Emmy - i have been wondering how you were going. As you can see i am not having the best time either.

xoxoxo

[bookworm12]

I'm new to this thread, and it's helping to see others' journeys as they TTC. I had my m/c about 3 weeks ago, and I think AF is finally showing up. I'm crossing my fingers that it's really AF and not related to the m/c. That bleeding ended a week ago, without even spotting since. I never thought I'd be happy to see AF, but it's a good sign to get back on track. My doctor wants us to wait another cycle, then we can try again. The waiting is frustrating, but in the long run another month won't be the end of the world.

I'm trying to work on healthier habits while I wait. I need to start exercising regularly and eat a better diet. I weigh more than I should, and this could be the time to work on losing a few pounds. I had picked up a mini trampoline just before the m/c and haven't really used it yet. I need some form of exercise I can do in our small apartment at early hours of the morning that doesn't make a lot of noise, and the mini tramp fits the bill.

Best of luck to those who are having scary symptoms, I hope all goes well to keep progressing to a safe delivery.

[starangelk]

Chickybabe - thanks for the welcome and good to hear from you. I have been thinking of you all day wondering how you were doing. Totally understand you are freaking out and you are being very very patient to sit tight and wait until Thursday when you can talk to the nice lady. If I can do anything to help you get through these next couple of days, please let me know.

Bookworm - hiya You sound like you are totally making the best of the situation. I can't say I am doing the same. Tonight we ate Pizza Capers blue cheese pizza for dinner. *cringe* You have inspired me and I'm taking a leaf out of your book from tomorrow.

[Zeppy]

I kind of feel weird being here, as my M/C have been that early I haven't even needed to go to the Dr. I should have gone today, but I canceled. I just didn't want the Dr brushing me off again, like it didn't even happen. Should I let myself grieve over a chemical pregnancy?
I am feeling a little emotional today as it exacly ten years since I conceived my first, which lasted 4 weeks and was an ectopic. Concieved the 1st of Spring and in hopspital on the 1st of October.
10 years later and I still feel it. Maybe that is why I want a baby so so much, because I "had a taste of it" so to speak.
It will happen!
May Spring bring fertility to all!