LladyR - you could still get a BFP. I don't believe I have ever seen a positive result until around 14 DPO.
LladyR - you could still get a BFP. I don't believe I have ever seen a positive result until around 14 DPO.
Hi everyone.
Welcome to all the newbies and congrats to everyone who got BFP's this month!
I have been stepping back a little hence no posts from me..Im feeling a little out of sorts. I want to move on and let go of everything now but I know that the minute I ovulate Ill want to come back into the thread and obsess throughout my TWW..
Ill still be reading but if its ok I just want to lurk for a while. Until Im ready to go again..
A gf sent me this piece, she just lost her baby at 9 weeks. I know what stage of the Miscarriage grieveing process she is at and god I want to be with her now..we're in different states though so..bugger..
Anyway, its a really poignant piece and Im also thinking of sending it to those people that keep saying "it will happen" and "dont worry it was only early"...to me, my baby had a heart beat therefore I had a real baby there. not an embryo...not a zygote, not any other scientific name..it was our baby
Love you all lots and please know you have all kept me from losing my faith in living at my darkest hours. xx
Coco
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A Planet of Pain, Where No Words Are Quite Right
By N. WEST MOSS
Published: October 20, 2008
There are no pink ribbons to wear if you've had a miscarriage, no walkathons or T-shirts to encourage awareness and prevention. And to the extent that we have a language to talk about miscarriage, it's full of airy platitudes: Don't worry, I had one once, too, or I had two, and then, Davey was born, and he's graduating from college this week."
But until you belong to the imaginary club of Mothers Without Children, it is a secret planet of pain, all but invisible to the outside world.
I recently had my third miscarriage in a year. It happened early in the pregnancy, and it was dismissed as no big deal "chemical pregnancy" seems to be the term of art. Let's not overreact, no need for hysterics, keep moving. "We'll treat it as though you're just getting your period," as my doctor put it.
But honestly, it is not just like getting your period. Psychologically, of course, it is nothing like it, but physically it is different, too. I had cramps for hours that left my ribs feeling bruised, and then four days later I was back at work and exhausted because I was still bleeding a lot, not an alarming amount, but enough to make me schedule meetings in rooms near bathrooms, and to send me home in the afternoon for a two-hour nap. I wonder how men would cope. All of the pain, mess, furtive tidying-up, shame and soldiering-on seem so fundamentally female to me.
People act as if a miscarriage were a locatable event on a calendar, with a beginning, a middle and an end. But in fact it starts when you feel that first unmistakable twinge that something is totally wrong. It continues through the rough days of sorrow and deep cramps, and then it meanders through every single day of the rest of your whole stupid life. I will probably mourn about this miscarriage in some outwardly unremarkable way until I either have a healthy baby or die.
Talking about miscarriages is so loaded and pitiful and hushed and fraught with meaning about age and usefulness. It feels as though having three miscarriages in a year means I did something wrong, when the reality is that most miscarriages take place for chromosomal reasons out of our control.
Yet a woman who has had a miscarriage has likely asked herself why. ?God must not want me to have a kid, she might think, or, I am too old.? There are moments when you can feel that the miscarriage and the calamities of the world are your own doing and you should have somehow known better.
Maybe we don't talk about our miscarriages because we don?t want women with children looking at us with pity, or teenagers in their immortality-flushed way thinking, "That'll never happen to me." We do not want happy families to whisper, "Thank God that's not us." We don't want to wonder if men are thinking, "If they can't have kids, then why are they here, anyway??
I cannot tell you, though, what you should say to women who have had miscarriages. While it can be touching to hear other women's stories, it can also be irritating: it makes our moment of extraordinary sadness feel ordinary and unremarkable. Why would I want to hear about your miscarriage when I am lying on the floor trying to lift 500 pounds of failure, disappointment and crashing hormones off my chest?
I can tell you that I want people to know. I don't want it to be a secret or a shadow or something that is endured only alone. I want people to know that I have been through something, that I am tired but optimistic, that I've been knocked down but don?t help me up because I can get up myself.
It's fair, I think, to want witnesses for our suffering. But with the sorrow also comes hope. And after all, we are resilient creatures. A friend of mine said it well in an e-mail message after she heard my news. "I hope you don't give up," she wrote. "I want to take a picture of your child one day against the tallest sunflower."
N. West Moss is a writer in New Jersey
coco that is such a moving piece and i see what you mean about knowing what stage of the miscarriage process she is at. I too had all those feelings and also think that is rubbish that is such a hush hush subject that people like to sweep under the carpet.
Im glad youve still been lurking, i was actually just thinking yesterday that we hadnt heard from you in a little while and hoping that everything is ok :hug:
Hopefully you will be feeling strong enough to join us again soon and you get that much longed for BFP and sticky little bub :grouphug:
I love the little saying under your ticker, i very much hope this does happen for you too :)
Lladyr dont get too down just yet hunny, as i have said to a couple of girls in the last couple of weeks its not over till af turns up and those 2 girls in particular have gone on to get BFP's 1 or 2 days before AF is due. Thats the reason ive been trying so hard to hold off on testing untill the last moment, it is just so hard seeing that solitary lonely line each time. Hopefuuly if you can maybe hold off another 2 or 3 days you will get two nice dark lines on the test :pink-babydust::bluedust:
Coco, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, for posting that. It has helped, and I only hope that from other people reading it, people can be more understanding, or at least try to, of how their comments affect, even when they don't intend to. xx
Thank you Elise, I :pray: , but I still don't know.. I'd love to be able to stay so positive throughout it all, but it's so hard... usually I'm quiet a positive person, especially throughout this TTC journey, even after it taking in excess of 18 months with one loss, but lately, especially after the loss, it's seeming that much harder.:
Especially after the loss, since now I know how it feels to be pregnant, and have that gift inside of you, to nurture, love, and marvel over this tiny being, only for it to be taken away...
It's almost like the loss all over again :(
Oh Girls - i am struggling !
About 30 mins ago i started getting strong cramping and bleeding -
I believe this is the beginning of the end.....
I cant believe i let my guard down and started to feel some hope..........
It had been a week since i'd had anything bad happen, i was feeling ok.
This is soooo unfair. I feel lost... :crying:
I will keep you posted but i am sure it wont be good news.
xoxoxo
:pray::pray::pray: for you Chickybabe.
:stickyvibesgirl:
Chickybabe, all these ups and downs must be agony for you. I am praying for you and a positive outcome.
Chickybabe- God I hate how we get screwed around! Why us!! :hug: hope it isnt the end. Will keep an eye out..
How are the other girls? Kyra and who was it?...sammy? sunny?..Damn you stop reading as often and forget names :redface:
You are in my thoughts & prayers chickybabe Many :hugs: to you, please PM me anytime. xx:
Chickybabe: am:pray: for you that it is all ok, I completely understand your fears and, like everyone else, be here for you no matter what your result, sending massive :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: your way xo
Coco: I have my fingers crossed for you that you soon see that amazing double line...you deserve it!
LladyR: keep your chin up, if you look back through the posts you will see a massive 'i hate everything' post from me because I had a -ve test and had thought I was, turns out the test was wrong so don't give up till the fat lady sings :)
EliseLouise: :pray: in a day or two you get those lines and can come join me in the stressing that it all goes ok threads lol
I'm at work so i need to be quick - hello to Anila :hug:, Josh'smum, Natty (congrats!), Madison, Zeepy, Twinsister, Ferrals and anyone I have missed - you are constantly in my thoughts and I am :pray: you all get your desired results.
AFM: trying not to analyse every twinge etc and peak out. HCG was a bit low so had 2nd test and hope it rises enough to make a sticky bub. I think it would near kill me to lose this preg. Good luck with bding, tww's and testing! I'll keep lurking and sending baby dust and sticky vibes :)
Chickybabe - I am :pray::pray::pray: for you.
Thinking of you CB (((hugs))
I hope this is not the end.
xx
Hi Lovely's,
I am so glad I found this place, it's nice to be around people who understand.
I was going to cancel my appoinment tomorrow, but forgot, so I guess it's a sign I am meant to go. I really don't want to, He's going to be vague, as he avoids "girl" problems. I just want to get pregnant without gyno's, pills, or anything. I really feel I am not pregnant now. I know it was only a "chemical" pregnancy but it was the 3rd in about a year. It all just hit me this evening and had a cry. Why can't it just happen? What is wrong with me?
Sorry for being down, I just had to let it out, which I probably don't do it enough, so thank you for listening to my frustrations.
Chickybabe try and stay positive hunny, i know it must be hard but hopefully this baby is in for the long haul. Have you got an appointment to see a doc any time soon? Keep us posted as to how things are going and my thoughts are with you :hug:
Zeppy dont you just hate insensitive doctors maybe thats a sign you need to find a new one, one that cares a little more about 'girl' problems. Also try not too let yourself worry that it is something that is wrong with you. These things happen for no apparent reason and i know when it happened to me i went through all the whys and what if's and i think if you keep looking for the reason why it happened you will drive yourself insane. keep your chin up and hopefully youll have a H&H pg really soon.
Tina hopefully those little twinges are just your little bundle settling in for the long haul. Good luck with your 2nd blood test and hopefully those levels rise a little for you.
AFM i gave in and tested again this evening and no surprise another BFN, Grrr so frustrating, oh well not giving up just yet, its not over till the bloody B#*%H shows up :ROFL:
Better get going, im on night shift this week, absolutely HATE it but it pays the bills i suppose. Talk soon
Thanks eliselouise85, I for now I have no option for Dr's, I live in a small Tassie town, 2hrs away from Launceston and Hobart and I have no car. But I should be getting a car in the next few weeks. So my plan is to get a referral to a Gyno and go from there. Thanks for the support, I feel better now. I think I needed a little cry.
My Dr is good, but not so great when it comes to girly things. There is a female Dr that comes here about every 6 weeks, but she is away at the moment. I'd hate to think what it's like living on King Island (were my Best Friend lives) where there isn't even an ultrasound machine, they have to travel to Burnie or Melbourne.
I think I have just been putting it off because I want it to happen by itself, without the stress of trips to "Town" (Launy or Hobart), but after 3 early M/C's in a year and an ectopic 10 years ago, I thinks it's time to look into it.
Thanks again for your kind words.
just thought id let everyone know i had a gud report today..
Even tho I had a bleed.. My Bhcg levels have tripled again to 6990
Also they did a scan and the yolk sac is completely safe and in the right spot, so everything is back to normal for now..
Chickie babe.. Im so sorry hun, hopefully this will give u some hope that bleeding and cramping isnt always the end. I was so sure it was for me last thursday.. hope it all works out xx
Hi kyrawolfe,
I'm so happy for you. It's great to here some good news. Fingers are crossed!
Thankyou so much for ALL your kind words of support !
Bleeding is continuing - not heavy but still there and cramping continues although not as bad as it was earlier.
This might seem odd but at this stage i am going to wait before i see anyone - there is nothing they can do to help me if my bub has to grow wings.
Previously i was advised to go to the ED if things get really bad- which i will do.
I will ring the Pregnancy Assessment Unit tomorrow and fill them in.
If i do miscarry i still need to keep seeing them as they will monitor my levels and scan me again.
I have learnt alot from going to the ED the other week. At this stage i dont feel up to sitting at the ED waiting for hours to be seen only for them to tell me they cant do anything - its just natures way ! Like i dont already know that !
Anyway Ladies - thanks again :hug:
I will keep you posted - your support means the world to me !
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo
Kyra - thats great news !!
:stickyvibesgirl:
xoxoxo
Hi everyone, would it be okay if I joined in here? The Dr confirmed last Thursday at 7w1d that I was having a m/c....it was not a big surprise at that stage since I had been having bleeding since the Sunday before. DH and I want to start TTC as soon as possible so I am just waiting this out at the moment. I hope this is the right place to post this, I wasn't really sure.
Chickybabe - I really hope that all is well. I got all teary for you when I read your post as I felt the stress and the worry. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you that the baby is still ok.
LladyR & Ellalouise- I have my fingers crossed for you both as well that it is still just too early for your BFPs
Coco - thanks for posting that piece. I?m going to print it off and read it every time I start to feel sad. I really like the last part ?I can tell you that I want people to know. I don't want it to be a secret or a shadow or something that is endured only alone. I want people to know that I have been through something, that I am tired but optimistic, that I've been knocked down but don?t help me up because I can get up myself. It's fair, I think, to want witnesses for our suffering.? I have told most of my friends about my loss as I felt the more support I had the better.
Kyra - yay to the increase in HCG. That?s great news.
Tina - I really really hope your HCG rises. Sending you good thoughts.
Zeppy - I've been down a lot lately too, we all understand though. I hope all goes well at your appt.
starangelk - Welcome to the thread, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I just joined recently as well and want to start TTC as soon as possible too (just waiting for AF to go). Hopefully your cycle will return to normal really quickly and you won't have to TTC for very long
AFM I'm having another rough day. It started out really nice, it's sunny here so I took the kids (my little guy plus the little girl I babysit) to visit a friend out at the lake (she arranged a playgroup) The kids all got naked and splashed in the shallow water. I was having fun until the good news dropped. Two more of my friends in that circle are pregnant and due within days of when I should have been due. That makes three now! They were excitedly chatting away about pregnancy while I tried to melt away into the background. We left after lunch and I cried...no sobbed the entire way home. It's too hard to be around happy pregnant people.
Twin sister was just reading your post about taking the kids to the lake and them splashing around in the water and i looked at the time and was thinking, geez thats odd its so early (9am here) and then i realised you are in canada, so now it all makes sense :lol: Its very hard to be happy for people when finding out there pg, when you want it so badly, especially when they are due around the same time you would have been. Try and stay positive and hopefully youll get your BFP really soon :crossfingers:
:welcome: starangelk, sorry to hear of your loss and youve definately come to the right place to chat and get the support you need. Hopefully your stay here is short
Chickybabe im keeping everything crossed for you that this is a sticky bub, also i understand what you mean about going to the ED i felt the same way when it happened to me last time, they try and reassure you but in the end there is nothing they can actually do to stop it from happening unfortunately. Thinking of you hunny and keep us posted.
Kyra WOO HOO thats awesome news, looks like this ones a little fighter!!
Zeppy well that makes it hard for docs then, but if your doc is good then i suppose stick with him. That would be hard for your best friend living where she is with no u/s machine. Hopefully everything settles down for you real soon so you can start TTC again and get your sticky bub :)
Hi all
EliseLouise and Twin Sister - thanks for the welcome. IKWYM about friends being preg. One of my very close friends is 13 weeks.........I didn't tell her I was preg as she was feeling very happy about being the only preg one and having all the attention on her (she got married last year and had to share that with a few other people) so I just kept quiet. Luckily I did considering I m/c. So I haven't told her about that yet, I plan to - but not for a while yet as she was just on the phone last night telling me how even though she is in the second trimester she is still worried etc etc. But the whole phone conversation was just SO hard for me, I cried afterwards for a really long time.
Chickybabe - I am thinking of you. How are things going today babe?
Coco - That piece is amazing. I am so glad for this thread - I feel so isolated from everyone at the moment because we haven't told many people.
AFM - I had another BT this morning, just waiting for my levels to come down. Sorry if TMI - I am struggling with it all a little bit because my boobs are still swollen and I've only been getting spotting. Last Thursday my levels were still 600 so hopefully todays test will bring me some closure.
Thanks again for the welcome - I am really looking forward to getting to know you all.
Happy :dance: ! That's such good news KW, I'm so happy for you!!:
Welcome Starangelk, in a bittersweet way.. All the girls here are amazing, and overwhelming support if ever you need it.. Please be kind to yourself during this time.:
:hug: to you xx:
Not much else to report from this end. It's funny, 1/2 of my is still convinced I'm preggers, just a funny feeling I've got inside of me.. but yesterday evening I POAS OPK, and the 2nd line was barely visible, so the other 1/2 of me is still certain I'm out for this month.. again.
Just waiting... AF is due Thursday, so we'll see...
:welcome: to the new ladies. Its always sad to see new people joining but you will get so much support here. Very sorry for your losses and hopefully your stays will be nice and short.
Chickybabe i hope you are still doing ok today and that the cramping and bleeding have passed and your sticky bub is doing well sticking in there.
Kyra - Thats great about your rising levels.
Sammy how are you doing??
Big Hello to everyone else.
Its so quiet in here at the moment. Seems quite a few people are having a break from posting. If anyone wants to chat during the day i am usually not logged in but i am here during work hours so just post and i will log on.
Hey lladyR - have you poas hpt? fingers crossed for you.
maddison: haven't chatted in ages - how are you?
Hi everyone, hope your days are starting to see a little bit of sunshine...you are all constantly in my thoughts to get bfp's and your hearts desires
Hi, can I join you?
I recently had my 3rd m/c. After waiting over a week to m/c sponataneously it happened and a week later its just starting to end now. I would like to ttc again however my HCG is continuing to rise at the moment and I have heard you don't O until the HCG is gone. Apparently due to the rise in HCG Gyno said its from retained products but is confident it should start going down now and the products have probably already being expelled. I hope it happens soon as my pregnancy symptoms are worse then ever despite not being pregnant:crying:
I have tests for recurrent m/c in 6weeks although the Gyno said it was highly unlikely to show anything due to me having 2healthy pregnancies/children before and it was just bad luck.
Anyway thats my little story.
Hi Emmy - saying welcome to you sounds a bit strange as I understand that you wish you weren't in this thread in the first place, which is the same as I am sure we all feel. I just joined this thread last night. M/C last week and BT today shows HCG at 45 but I still have preg. symptoms. I think some are in my head but my boobs are definately still swollen but not painful. Maybe they will just stay that way?
I will keep my fingers crossed for you that your HCG goes down quickly so you can TTC again soon as you said that's what you want. Thinking of you xx
Hi Ladies !
I am sorry i havent checked in - i have been lurking :rolleyes:
Today i am still spotting. Quite dark brown or bright red - still some cramping too.
Still freaking out of course.
Going to wait til Thursday now to ring the Pregnancy Assessment Unit so i can talk to the nice lady who i feel far more comfortable with. Nothing worse than talking to someone who makes you feel like you are wasting their time !
I have been feeling very tired today and a bit dizzy tonight. :wall:
Also been feeling quite nauseas today - thought i was going to vomit earlier.
So, i dont know - just going to continue waiting....
As you would all understand - i just want this to stop and continue on to be a normal, healthy pregnancy...aaaaahhh !
Thanks so much for your kind thoughts - i really appreciate them !
You are all gems xoxoxoxox
Tina - Fabulous news xoxoxox
Hi Starangelk and Emmy :hug:
You have joined a fantastic bunch of Ladies here - this is an awesome place to come for support.
Emmy - i have been wondering how you were going. As you can see i am not having the best time either.
xoxoxo
I'm new to this thread, and it's helping to see others' journeys as they TTC. I had my m/c about 3 weeks ago, and I think AF is finally showing up. I'm crossing my fingers that it's really AF and not related to the m/c. That bleeding ended a week ago, without even spotting since. I never thought I'd be happy to see AF, but it's a good sign to get back on track. My doctor wants us to wait another cycle, then we can try again. The waiting is frustrating, but in the long run another month won't be the end of the world.
I'm trying to work on healthier habits while I wait. I need to start exercising regularly and eat a better diet. I weigh more than I should, and this could be the time to work on losing a few pounds. I had picked up a mini trampoline just before the m/c and haven't really used it yet. I need some form of exercise I can do in our small apartment at early hours of the morning that doesn't make a lot of noise, and the mini tramp fits the bill.
Best of luck to those who are having scary symptoms, I hope all goes well to keep progressing to a safe delivery.
Chickybabe - thanks for the welcome and good to hear from you. I have been thinking of you all day wondering how you were doing. Totally understand you are freaking out and you are being very very patient to sit tight and wait until Thursday when you can talk to the nice lady. If I can do anything to help you get through these next couple of days, please let me know.
Bookworm - hiya :) You sound like you are totally making the best of the situation. I can't say I am doing the same. Tonight we ate Pizza Capers blue cheese pizza for dinner. *cringe* You have inspired me and I'm taking a leaf out of your book from tomorrow.
I kind of feel weird being here, as my M/C have been that early I haven't even needed to go to the Dr. I should have gone today, but I canceled. I just didn't want the Dr brushing me off again, like it didn't even happen. Should I let myself grieve over a chemical pregnancy?
I am feeling a little emotional today as it exacly ten years since I conceived my first, which lasted 4 weeks and was an ectopic. Concieved the 1st of Spring and in hopspital on the 1st of October.
10 years later and I still feel it. Maybe that is why I want a baby so so much, because I "had a taste of it" so to speak.
It will happen!
May Spring bring fertility to all!
Maddison - It's good to see you around. I missed you. I'm feeling pretty numb to be honest. Occasionally I find myself thinking something such as "I must put that aside for the baby" and then I remember there isn't one. It's just so strange to go through that range of emotions and planning in such a brief period. I did hope to try again this month but I have no idea what my body is doing.
Emmy - I saw you on the pregnancy board during our very brief experience there. I hope you find some comfort with the lovely ladies on this thread.
Chickybabe - I think it is wise to wait. There isn't anything that the hospital could do and the experience there is depressing and stressful. I still believe your bub could be the sticky one.
Hello girls,
I have been lurking for a couple of days, you seem to be a great bunch of girls and I would love to join your thread.
My DH and I miscarried at 8wks in March 09 after 4 long years of trying so very hard to have a baby.
Last month we went through our first month of IUI with injections but I gof AF on Friday we were very deflated, tonight we began injections again for our second try.
:angelic: Im addicted to POAS too early, and read too much into the FAKE bfp's I get when I still have Pregnyl in my system.............Got my hopes up 13dpiui when I got bfp......the nurse warned me....but I didn't listen....NEG!!!!
Promise I wont this month (didn't have my toes crossed):lol:
Chicky you are in my prayers thisevening I hope you are well x
eliselouise85 - Ha ha that's funny. Yep I'm all the way on the other side of the world. I'm so thankful we are having nice weather right now to help distract me a little. It's hard to be sad when there are naked little children running around having fun.....unless of course you're surrounded by pregnant people who can't stop talking about pregnancy.
starangelk - The wait is hard, I know. Good luck with your BT. I hope your levels have dropped. AS for your pregnant friend I know how hard that is too. It's very kind of you to let her gush about her pregnancy and not scare her with your story of M/C but it would probably be easier on you if she knew.
LladyR - I'm holding out for good news from you on Thursday
Emmy, Bookworm, & Murraycod - I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. I'm sure you'll find this thread as welcoming and supportive as I have. It's so sad to see so many people joining this thread, though it's nice to be able to chat with you all.
Zeppy - of course it's ok to grieve a chemical pregnancy. It was still a pregnancy and it's still sad that it didn't stick. Its hard to get that close to what you want so badly and then have it taken away. It will happen for you though, very soon i hope
Hi All,
Hope everyone is haveing an ok day today.
Zeppy - Its is ok to grieve for a loss no matter how far along you were. A loss is a loss if you are a 4 weeks or 6 months. It still hurts. I hope you are getting lots of support.
Emmy 83 - I hope your hcg level drop soon and you are able to start ttc again soon. I hope the testing is able to either give you some answers or give you the all clear to keep ttc a sticky bundle.
Chickybabe - lots and lots of :stickyvibesgirl: I understand waiting to see the friendly lady at the clininc. Some health professionals make you feel like crap and its so wrong. I hope the bleeding has lightened today. The symptoms sound promising. Are you still doing HPTs or just waiting it out?
Bookworm - Sorry for your loss. I hope you are feeling ok today. The mini trampoline sounds like a great idea.
Eliselouise - Have you tested again? I cant remember when af was due for you?? :pink-babydust:
Twinsister - I hope you are feeling ok today. Im thinking of you.
Coco- Missing your posts. I hope you are feeling good for having a little break. Dont be gone too long. Or even better... Get a BFP and dont come back! I say that with love!!
SammyP - I so hope you get a sticky bub on your very next cycle. Its becoming very clear the last few weeks that although lots of BFPs have come about that there has been equally as much sad news too. I hope your days start to get brighter and you are getting heaps of love and support irl.
Murraycod - A false BFP would of been awful. Im sorry you had to go through that. I know i wouldnt be able to wait to test either.
Hi to Cherished, Sunbeam, Tina, Sunny, Ferrals and everyone else out there that i have missed.
:bluedust: :stickyvibesgirl: :pink-babydust: :stickyvibesboy: to all
So cant wait to see some more :bellygrowing: in here!
Thanks for the welcomes. Maddison I do hope my HCG drops soon so things are back on track for future cycles. Will be going back to the Dr tomorrow or friday to confirm they are dropping and not rising. Ive had some major cramps as if something wants to come out but nothing again. I'm sure its not over yet.
Chickybabe sending sticky vibes to you. Have you had any bleeding in your past pregnancies?
bookworm12 Hope your cycle is now back to normal. I think I need to wait til an official AF before ttc again as what I had this last week didn't seem enough. Maybe next one will be and Ill be good to try again.
Hi Everyone !
Maddison - I am basically waiting this out - it's torture ! I havent done any HPT's since we got our +ive. I am pretty sure if i did it will still show up as +ive atm cause i still have HCG in my system. Tomorrow when i ring i am going to ask for another BT and they can combine that with the scan results they give me on Monday i spose.
Emmy - I have never had bleeding like this before. My 4 other pregnancies were fine (except for my loss in April - which was fine up til that point). It is really weird and i guess there is something wrong somewhere. I keep thinking that maybe this little one just isnt strong enough to hold on. Maybe it was already a weak spermie by the time it met up with my eggie ? I dont know - i am just clutching at straws - trying to work out why !
Sorry TMI:
Loss has now gone to light brown again - so has eased up and cramping has slowed down a bit too.
I was just talking to my DH and filling him in on whats happening today and i said to him that this has been the longest two and a bit weeks ever - its just up and down and i am drained ! I just want to know one way or the other. I said - if i am going to M/C then i wish it would hurry up and happen - i know that sounds horrible but this is killing me. It is so cruel ! I definitely cant feel happy atm.
Today i feel quite nauseas - so i hope thats a really good sign that my levels are rising enough.
Well - now i have depressed you all - i will go and wallow in my own self pity....
Thankyou for your support :hug:
Sorry this has been all about me but i am in a really bad head space atm.
Hopefully i will feel better and come back later and be more positive !
I really do hope you are all well !
:stickyvibesgirl: and :bluedust:
xoxoxox