Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - December 2009

Oh Milly - this is a good thing! don't get yourself all caught up on the 'google madness'!! wait until you've tested using FMU.. and If you get that BFP that I think you will, then you can take the next step to ensure it's all fine. You will be able to tell if it's ectopic by early blood tests and scans.. any doctor will do these tests for you if you let them know your concerns. Sounds to me like a celebration is on the cards for you!! YAY!!! fingers crossed AF stays away tonight!!!

Ferrals - don't give up hope! This new concoction of yours should surely give your ttc journey a big boost!!

Matthewsmum - happy bding! I agree.. the sperm testing can wait until O is well and truly over!!! I'm sure your man will do fine with the testing... i'm not familiar with how it works, but can you 'give him a hand' with it??? Perhaps a little team work can get things flowing a little better??? All the best with it anyway babe!

AFM - I think i'm stressing so much about this ttc stuff that i've made myself start to experience symptoms! LOL. I mean, its crazy cos its too early for symptoms!!! Grrr! gotta start thinking about other things during this tww!!!

Milly-hope you have more luck than me i'm cramping pretty bad myself but no sign of AF just yet but pretty sure i will wake up with the witch did your faint line have any colour in it mine was real faint but you could see the slightest hint of pink but i am 99% sure AF will turn up tomorrow.

PS i just ordered royal jelly and maca capsules on line they are great for egg quality and fertility not to mention libido i will rattle when i walk lol.

ferals-all your knowledge,you'll be able to start up your own naturepathic clinic soon,good for you,they say knowledge is power...milly-sounding really positive for you,i'll check in 1st thing in the morning,very exciting...ciara-symptoms are so hard to pick,fingers crossed for you,when are you due to test?

hi ladies

just wanted to pop in to wish you all a 'happier' new year! Lets hope that 2010 brings us BFP's and healthy bubbas!
Congrats to Greencake! Wonderful news to start a new year!
crafty - just started our shagfest too! :dance: hurts to walk already! lol

hi everyone else ! xx

Ferals4 - sweetie I am so sorry. Murraycod has the right words for you today. I hope they helped. I like the way you are being proactive about all the supplements. You said you were feeling better? Did you have a big cry? Somtimes girl, it's god for the soul to feel sorry for yourself and loathe the journey you're on.

Milly5- I have my fingers crossed for you.... but understand your torment. Good old Dr Google. Stopping yourself from jumping at every possible shadow is pretty damn hard, when you've been through so much.

Sparkles - good to hear from you and best wishes for your due date. I have one coming up. I haven't starting thinking or planning yet, just trying to get through Christmas and NYE. What are you thinking you might do?

Mathew's Mum - my BF's DH loves going to give his sample, because of the food that is laid on after. My BF said to him the first time - Oh great , haven't you just had the best time - a **** and good food. I like Ferals idea of a little private vid. LOL about the DH who was worried the door wouldn't lock! Nice to know they get worried about those sorts of things too.

Emmy83 - **hugs**.

Ciara.e - well day 6 and still going strong. DH is pretty keen on the idea now, and he was suggesting some action this morning, even before I had thought about it. One more sleep and it will bring the day of day7 of the shaggyfest. wonder what I will do then?

Crafty - I hear you. It's hard not to get caught up with "age". An gynaecologist I used to see, was at pains to point out my diminishing fertility based on my advancing age. I am still relatively young at 36, but at times it is really hard not to feel as if time is slipping by me. I used to think about it a lot. Now, not so much. What can I change about my age or what's gone on in the past? Nothing. The only things I can change is how I choose to think about it and what steps I take to look after myself and give me the best opportunities. Anyway, the data is statistical. Right now "statistics" are against me, and for me. Go figure. Anyway, that turned into more than just "I hear you".

AFM? Bought some more HPT 's today, won't need them for 14 days or so, as I am probably in the 2WW now, but its good to be prepared. The shaggies will continue, though irrespective.

Went to visit my Mum today. It was nice to catch up and see her again. Strange to think that 2 hours drive seems so far some days and so close on other days. She said something that surprised me. She said DH and I seemed the happiest we have been since February. ( LOL could it be the shaggies?) I hadn't really thought about how either DH or I have been feeling lately, and it really nice to realise that today, I was actually happy or more that the heavy sadness was absent. Its also' pretty sobering to think that I haven't really been "happy" for 8 months and that sadness has been my constant companion, so much so I am not sure what it feels like not to be sad. Damn hard and long road this one. But I am talking o women who know just how hard each and every step of this journey can be. Reading your posts is testament to that.

Last day of 2009 tomorrow. Not sure I want to say goodbye to it yet, because its the year my children were born, and died.

Hi to the rest of the gals - SPF, Eliselouise, and anyone I've missed thinking of you.

T-hopes i with you there. bring on 2010!

ferrals4 hope af stays away. when was she due? are you gonna test again?

ciara.e snap! i HATE the tww..... i am so impatient.

milly5 :crossfingers: for you in the morning... i have a good feeling :)

Matthew's Mum i'm sure dh will be fine! ;)

Sparkles hope you are doing ok and that next year will be a much better one for you :hug:

dory we posted at the same time. just want to say that means a lot to hear someone say you look happier. i hope the tww goes quickly for you and you get a great start to the new year x

SPK, T hopes - thanks .... hugs.

dory-what a beautiful comment your mum made,wishing you many more.2009 will always be year you'll never forget,you'll always have the precious memories of your children whatever the year and i believe part of them will live on in your children to come, all that bd'ing another could definitely be on the way as we type...t-hopes-i think 2010 going to be a busy year,we'll all be moving to the paml thread...scarypinkfairy-hope you find something to distract you a little bit in tww..

Ferrals - i have my fingers crossed for you. I'm with matthewsmum, you'll be running your own ttc naturopathy clinic in no time haha.

Matthewsmum - not due to test til about the 10th or 11th.. haha.. as if i'm going to have enough patience to wait until then! LOL.

Thopes - enjoy your shagfest! and happy new year to you too!

Dory - its been a big year for you. You'll never forget them. they will always be forever in your heart. Try to look forward into the new year with hope that the new year will bring another special angel into your life. hugs. As for what to do after the shag fest is over... i'm thinking giving your girl a bit of a break would be a good start! hahaha.. surprised you're able to sit down after your mammoth effort!! Time for a pampering i think.

scarypinkfairy - what can i say.. nothing i do will distract me! haha.. impatience must be a female trait!

Thanks ladies,

OK so news is - no AF during the night (YAY).
Did another POAS - still only a very light BFP - if anything, even lighter than yesterday. I of course was just about to burst into tears, while DH murmers something about "dodgey ebay tests". Still crampy while I'm up and about, but fine when I'm in bed - good reason to rest today - that and the fact I hardly slept a wink last night (I'm on a day off - YAY)

Ciarae - thanks. I am going to see my dr early next week (that is if AF hasn't arrived - I'm still not convinced she won't! DH of course is fine, it's me that's having the panic attacks!). The analysing symptom thing - I like to call it the "fake symptoms" and the "real symptoms" - problem is, like with any good fake, it is so hard to tell it from the real one. I hope yours are real ones!

Ferrals - Any news yet? It's not over till the fat lady arrives! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you - I would love my cycle buddy to get a BFP!

Dory - yep Dr Google! And your post about your visit with your mum was lovely :hug: Here's hoping more happiness is on the way.

Matthewsmum, & SPF - thanks for the thoughts.

Hello to all the other ladies I missed!!

So ladies, I'm going to stay here for a while because I'm still not even convinced it's real yet. And I'll probably POAS every morning for the next three days (because that's how many ebay tests I have left!)

Milly - hoping that line keeps getting darker for you and you can start getting excited real soon!x

Can't remember who asked about what i am doing on my due date but we are actuially going on holidays that day, obviously the holiday got cancelled but of course now it is back on so that will be nice!

Ferrals- I saw my accunpuncturist yesterday who started me on CoQ10 (150mg) so lets hope it helps , i can now add that to me megfol 5mg, vit B6 and B12. I am getting a little line up of pills going on now. She said i have low internal heat(ie low chi/energy) and that this should help get things working the way they should, so fingers crossed it works for both of us.

Hope everyone has a good new years!

Milly-congratz it sounds like you have a bundle of joy on the way looks like ive lost my cycle buddy oh well i will just have to stalk you in the belly belly thread to.

AFM-i'm not even bothering to test again and i will not buy another HPT ever until i am late i am just going to concentreate on getting heathy and trying all these herbal remedies but i have this feeling inside sort of like intuition that i will never get pregnant again and i cant shake it somthing is telling me to sell all abbi's things or put them away i don't know if its just me being negative but it is a similar feeling i had when pregnant with abbi deep down i knew somthing was wrong and that turned out to be true anyway i'm off to work have a great NYE hope 2010 is our year.

morning everyone, milly-sounding really good,if dh worried about test being from e-bay,could you buy just one from the chemist?..sparkles-hope the holiday helps..ferrals-don't sell any of your baby things,it's understandable with what you've been through would knock the positivity out of you,i think that where it's coming from,no other hidden meaning...

Just popping in to see if you all had nice Christmases. It was nice to be home with my family and be taken care of for a while. We just got home last night and all three of us have picked up a stomach bug so we're all laying low for the next few days.

Cherished, greencake and Milly - CONGRATULATIONS on yoour BFP's ! That's wonderful news! I'm really happy for you guys. I'm still hoping to see more BFPS over the next few weeks!

We had a bit of a scare the day before we left on holiday. I started spotting (again). Looking back now, it really wasn't that much but of course at the time it seemed like heaps and I was freaking out. My Dr. got me in for an U/S right away and thankfully everything was just fine. Got to see baby's heartbeat and the tech said he/she was measuring right so I was able to breathe a sigh of relief. She gave me two little pictures which we used to announce our pregnancy to our friends and family back home.

Hi ladies, two weeks out not checking up on how things are in here (we went away to the beach) and I come back to no less than FOUR BFPs! That's so great!

Congrats to eliselouise, cherished, milly and greencake! I'm so happy to read your news and wish you all the best for the next 9 months! Lets see more in Jan!

Ferrals congrats on your wedding, your pic was beautiful :)

AFM 32 weeks here and baby is kicking like a mule and constantly getting the hiccups. It will happen for you too, dreams do come true after pain.

Happy New Year to everyone and may all your wishes come true in the new year xox

Milly - I've never actually had a positive on an ebay test, even though at the time i took them all my store bought tests were a bfp! That's just me, I'm not a fan of the ebay ones.. perhaps you could try a store test? I think if you're getting even a slight line on an ebay test then it should definately be a bfp on a store test. That's just my experience, don't take my word for it though. Good luck hun!

Sparkles, your holiday will be good! I probably should have arranged something like that. I think on my due date i'll be at my DP's best friends wedding. that's just not something I'm looking forward to.

Ferrals - never say never! This year has been a very hard one, and I know sometimes it's hard to look toward the future out of fear that you'll leave the past behind you. But hun, it's ok to look forward and to have a dream or goal. I know you can make this dream a reality, and we're all here supporting you until you get there!!

Twin sister!!!! Hi again! Great to see you're progressing well! Sadly i'm back in this forum :( Great to hear you got to finally share your news with family! and don't stress too much over spotting, with DD I bled almost through the entire pregnancy and she's -here and heathly today. Enjoy your new years!

Smallfryplus - not long to go for you now! congrats! wishing you a calm and peaceful labour and a healthy bub!!

AFM - i'm getting all upset today at my weight :(. haha.. if it's not one thing its the other. I've been pretty sick and not eating much (last few days what i do eat i vomit up anyway) so i would have thought i'd lose weight, but no.. stacking it on. Grr. I lost over 60kgs a few years ago.. and i studied personal training and nutrition to help me keep it off.. just not succeeding this week and it's doing my head in.. with all this ttc on top! I am gonna have to concentrate on my weight over the next two weeks and hopefully that will keep the tww out of my mind!! LOL. Probably just fluid or something from all the vomiting.. perhaps i have a bug?

Well today's the final day of 2009, and now that i've written that... i'm kinda not wanting it to end. This has been a full on year. I lost my grandfather in Feb, Dad a week later in March, Friend in May, Twins in July and the latest loss this month.. I kinda just wanna hang onto all of that just for today at least... Come tomorrow, it's a new year and a fresh slate. And hopefully, a BFP!!

Hi ladies!

I have calmed down a bit now (still not convinced, but calm LOL)

thanks Sparkles! Holiday sounds fab! And yep, I rattle everymorning too!

Ferrals, dont despair! perhaps your just feeling all emotional because your hormonal? I don't mean to disreagard all you have been through, but perhaps just now hormones are making you feel a bit worse than you normally would? I know that I feel very depressed just before AF (and also earlier this week too!!). It will happen for you I am sure of it!! :hugs:

Twin Sister - glad that all is OK!
Small fry - sounds like it's all going well there too!

Matthewsmum - I SOOOO want to buy another test, but am trying to calm the urge to keep POAS, besides I live out of town and would have to drive half an hour just to go and buy a test, which although I don't have a problem with, DH thinks it's silly - he is OK and just knows all is well, it's me having a panic attack! :rolleyes:

Ciarae - doesn't sound like you are a fan of the ebay tests either!
You have had a full on year! I hope you have a nice, peaceful evening and that next year brings you - and all the ladies here - much joy.

Well, I'll be off line for a couple of days (house guests), but I'll be thinking of you all. And I promise to keep you updated!

love & hugs & babydust XXX

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!

omgomgomgomgomg I AM OFICIALLY CYCLE DAY 2 OF IVF WOOHOOOOO!!!! I'M SO DARN EXCITED, CAN'T WIPE THE SMILE OFF MY FACE IT HURTS!!!!!
I have my 1st FSH injection tonight of 150iu of puregon, and i have never looked forward to getting a needle so much in my life!!!!!:D

Ferrals I hope you are ready for some ear-bashing from me now!!!
Hope you are feeling ok. Has AF shown up?

Milly5 QUIET congratulations, hope you can shout it out confidently over the next few days XXXXX

Ciara....don't even mention weight, or I will put on a kilo!!!;) I havge the treadmill set up ready to go!X So sorry to read it has been such a tough year hun, time to let it go :comfort:

Smallfry and Twinsis :bellyrubs:

Everyone have a great night I will talk more tomorrow my Darlings XXXXX