Loopielouie, darling so sorry you are going through this again XX Cyber huggs to you XX
MissK, don't feel like getting the Xray did you or your baby any harm, the girls are right, it would take 2weeks of continuouse Xrays for it to affact anything XX Don't beat yourself up about that, I too think of reasons why I lost my little one, but the highest percentage of the time, there is no reason, it is just natures decision, as harsh as she can be. For multiple losses I would definately start asking questions though.
Ferrals, darling, I am dissapointed for you, I was so sure that this would be your time, but now, not yet. You don't have dud eggs, you are not a dud either.
The Ovulation Gizmo sounds like a sure way of knowing when to time things right, but please understand, It could take a couple of tries still. Just like my IVF game, the stats get higher and higher, we just have to be patient!!!
I know you have been looking at more options, to hurry things up, and I too was hoping that you didn't have to go any further than look, but darling don't give up now, you have come way too far, and I wont allow it!!!
Oh, one last thing, I do hope your boys are ok XXX I had both of my ingrown tonails operated on after so many attempts to get them fixed, I have nasty scars on both my big toes!! I hope your boys heal well X
And I hope the broken wrist is pain free now, and mending away. You are a buisy girl!!!
The lurking, upcomming AF is the nasty one, the one where you know you are going to get her, but she still devistates you because you still think you have a faulty test, or hold onto a chance that it was too early to show.
That firts moment of show, wow, if I could bottle that moment up for everyone here, if I could bottle up the first feeling for everyone, dig a gigantic hole and burry all of the bottles to be never found, or unearthed again, I would XX
That my friends, would be the coolest. !X
Dory, I hope you start to feel more yourself soon, I loved reading your post earlier, I love the things you write. I would love to have the ability to write the way you do XX Belly rub for you by the way
Ric, honey, gosh you poor thing you are getting the lot hey!!XX I hope you both feel better soon, nothing worse than trying to BD with a snotty nosed unshaven clammy other half!! Not even just to do the job!! Take care babe XX
KitF, love to you to honey XX Good luck with the study this year, and good idea to wait it out I think. Take it easy XX
TTCALC, I was thinking of you the other night when i was watching the olympics, I love seeing all of the snow, wondering what it feels like! I know it feels like a pain in the proverbial end for you, but wow!! Mygod the kids have been off school a lot, wish it could have snowed when I was at school!! Wouldn't have had to wag and get detention then!
Sunbeam, godluck with the testing honey, I too hope that something simple and fixable is found XXX Love to you strong one XXX
Mildez, I too hope you dont need to go down the IVF road again, it's an exciting one when it happens, but I am an emotional zombie at the moment, just waiting for a FET!!
I hope that luck is on your side, and a miracle comes to you soon XX And lurk away!! I do sometimes too!!
Snugglybean Sweetheart, yeah i thaught your SVN channel was on the fuzzy side!! How are you going? Goodluck this month honey, you are sure up for some good news soon, I can feel it in my bones!X
Glad that you have been out enjoying your life as it is, nice to be at peace with yourself and having a great time with friends X
OMG plucking my eyebrows makes me cry!! I think my eyebrow hair is joined to my nose from the inside!!
SammyP, Jahzara, how are you lovely ladies going?X
Alice, I am sooo love'n your Avy!! XX Has your on/off AF settled yet?
Sarahrach did you find out anything more about the cyst on your ovary? Did you end up ovulating or not, you have had me wondering over it for a couple days X Hope things are well X
Alicat I hope that endometrium is getting juicy and thick!! How are you babe?
em, darling, I hope you are feeling ok today, 1week today, I hope you are looking after eachother XXX Welcome to this part of the BB Forums, you are very welcome here, and sure to make some great supportive friends to assist you to pull through XX Nice to meet you X
Iona-Macca, nice to meet you too X So sorry your visit here is a sad one, we will all get you through this hard time, plenty of strong shoulders to lean on X
I M/c naturally too, and I undersatnd waiting it out is a tough thing to do XX
Honey, I hope your levels drop quickly so you can get your cycle back XX Take care, things can be still very raw, so just go easy XX
Crafty, I know you are having a low month too, nothing has gone exactly to plan since your darling boys went back home, and I wish I could come over and fix things for you.
Please don't give up hope, don't let these challenges beat you down. We are sent many things in our lives to test us, and for you, yes, you have been landed with a few 'beuties' over the last couple weeks to give you a real Aussie Flogging, but hey, why take off the gloves without getting in few good punches hey??
Cmo'n English lassie, you got a better fight'n spirit in you than this!! Now I want to see you in at least a couple weeks with your BDing nickers on!!
I am sorry I know I have missed people, but my post has been so long already!! Hope to catch up with all of you next time XXX Love to you all and take care XXXXX
AFM, still in my weird mood of not being motivated to do anything, yet as soon as I get home from work, I mop the floor when it is clean, I polished all of my woodwork yesterday, then thisavo?? The craziest, I cleaned the inside and out of my fridge spotless, then decided to take everything out of my horrendouse tupperware cupboard, and clean that too, then headed to the bathroom and cleaned al those cupboards out! DH just looked at me weird as he stood there sucking on a beer being entertained by the mad moman he married!X
So that's me so far, lazy, unmotivated, yet cleaning like a mad woman untill I fall into an exhausted heap. I know I don't make sence, DH tells me all the time!
Still no AF.
Nesting much, murraycod? That FET must be coming up soon! It's March!
DH and I decided to open a bottle of red tonight to celebrate the beginning of March! We hardly ever drink when it's just us at home, but I had the day off today, it walloped down rain but I still had the most beautiful wonderful day out and about, then came home and made a mushroom and bean lasagne.
Kit - I've cried everywhere! Back in Sept last year was probably the pinnacle though, when I hid under my desk and really cried my eyes out. Someone eventually found me and took me home. Life is a lot less stressful now though - I left that job for a new one that gives me beautiful long weekends like this one!
Actually, on that - I finally told work the truth about my story. Lots of my colleagues (we are a small and tight team) have been asking when we're planning a family. So far I have palmed them off and said "oh, maybe soon." But I had a really good chat with one of the girls, found out she tried for 7 years before having her little girl (who I adore) and I told her the truth. She cried. I know I made the right choice by telling her.
Oh goodness, there is a lot of sadness in this thread from the past few days. I am so sorry to hear about your loss Loopy.
And the girls are right MissK - its not your fault. You've got to try and forgive yourself. I took baby snorkeling in some pretty cold water and I was blaming myself for that ending in MC. Of course it was not the reason, but I just wanted something tangible to hang the blame on.
Hi Em - its good that you've found this thread and I hope that you'll be on the road to TTC really really soon (with a nice sticky one following shortly thereafter!!!)
AFM: well after several O false starts, looks like my body has finally done it. Got three higher temps and a solid red line on Fertility Friend.
MurrayCod - I've been told the cyst is something that will disappear so I'm not worried so much now, but its so weird that I got all the O symptoms and the O pain without the temp rise. Weird.
Crafty-I understand what your saying thats the way i feel with our bad gene i said to who ever runs things up stairs if you will bless us with another baby please let it be a healthy one or don't let me fall pregnant at all but part of me just wants to know if the year since we lost abbi has effected my fertility and i would be happy just to see those 2 lines whatever the outcome does that sound selfish
I hope you will stick around you are still popping out an egg every month so when your gismo arrives you can time it perfectly and hope that its a good strong egg.
Kitfaerie-I wouldnt test either i have decided i will not test early again next month i will just wait until AF is late YEH RIGHT!! who am i kidding.
Murrycod-I know you are right i just wanted to be pregnant before Abbi's Bday on the 20th to help me feel better when i am suppose to be celebrating my nieces 18th maybe it's not ment to be i worked out it has been 16 months since i fell pregnant and almost a year since we lost her and in that time there has been 5 months that we have actually tried to get pregnant in between waiting and the IVF and all the months we diddnt try because we were scared of another sick baby it feels like such a waste of months and now we tried in jan and feb and nothing i just can't imagine going the rest of my life and not having my gorgeous hubby's baby how is it i can have kids to a deads##t ex husband who is a terrible father sooooooo not fair.
Jakes toe's are doing great he has had them done 3 times now poor thing i hope this was the last time and dean my eldest had 1 plate and 6 screws inserted in his hand i spent 2 days in hospital sooooo boreing but he is fine and will survive seeing it was self inflicked (punching a bus stop sign) no sympathy from me but thanks for asking
I hope AF doesnt turn up and you have a harriet in there growing and snow bub harvey will have to wait a little bit to meet his mum dad and big sis (would be nice) but if not i hope AF shows on time and then you can get underway with defrosting harvey and putting him in the oven to start cooking.
Ric-sorry you and DH are having a bad run with illness but if worst comes to worst stick some tissues up DH nose throw some cough medicine and panadole down his gob and tell him to roll over you will do all the work all he has to do is not cough or sneeze snot on you he he the visual of that whole senario is not real good but hey us women will do anything for a baby.
Sunbeam-i hope you can get some answers but to be honest when we were waiting for the autopsy results and all the chromosone and genectic tests i told myself i wanted there to be a reason but what i found out was not what i expected and it was devastating two healthy fertile people can have kids to other people but not to each other i hope your answers are fixable and something simple.
Anywhooo-AFM AF is on her way so back to the old drawing board we have our naturopath appt tomorrow (hope they dont cancel this one) and this month i should be fertile around abbi's Bday and testing on my Bday so lets hope thats an omen and this is my month.
So much sadness at the moment for you all..Hugs to everyone.I have put off posting the last few days as i have read each persons journey this month.I didnt want to be inconsiderate when so many of you lovely ladies are having such a tough run.Its just plain unfair.I am crossing everything that can be crossed and praying my heart out that this month is a better month for you all.Something just has to go right with all the wrongs going on!!!!!!!!!
Alot to catch up on so i wont go into persies, just know i am thinking of each and evryone of you and sending lots of hugs and positive energy to each of you.
AFM- well ultrasound didnt show alot as i wouldnt let them internally. so have to wait till end of this month for another one.According to the ultrasound by what they could see, i was only 4 weeks.Weird i say considering i had tested positive on HPT 2 weeks earlier..the mind boggles but my dr has been brilliant.She sent me for another blood test on friday and came back yesterday with result of 376. so we are rising..see what happens i guess....very scary and way too scared to even join a group for due date...
anyway enough of me, thinking of each of you xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Thanks Murraycod and Ferrals for the pep talk I know I should feel more positive and I really would love a BFP but I have to get my head around the idea that it may not happen for me and I am comming to terms with it more and more as the days go by.
I think if I just step back a bit and wait till my gizzmo arrives and do like you say ferrals on the days it tells me then I have given it my best shot and its a gamble as to whether its a good egg or not. I will keep trying I promise but I will also try not to let it rule my life. You are special girls and I thank you for your friendship and wish you all the luck in the world for MARCH it has to be a good month !
To all you new ladies SORRY you had to join us in here but there are some lovely people in here all waiting patiently for anothrer BFP and all with sad stories to tell, I hope you can get some comfort and know you are not alone we are all here for you ! I you feel at peace soon and get a BFP not too far down the line.
Loopie louie sorry it was not a good week for you and I would definately be asking more questions now I have mc quite a few times but have had healthy pregnancies in between so I think you should ask more as to what they think is going on.
Sunbeam,snuggly,ttclc,ric,mattewsmum, sending happy vibes your way thanks for thinking of me !
AFM just trying to chill out a bit and get on with my life and not stress too much over this TTC lark I will receive my gizmo later this week and that should help with guessing the right day for bdancing ( then him indoors can do the deed on the correct day ) and stop messing around getting toooo tired ! will pop in every day to see how your all doing and be waiting for some GOOD NEWS ! we sure need some.
One last thought !
"Anyone can tell you it won't hurt tomorrow but I'm here to listen while it hurts today."
Take care babe XX
Wouldn't have had to wag and get detention then!
you feel at peace soon and get a BFP not too far down the line.
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