Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage or Loss Feb 2010

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Hi all

Ive never ben onto one of these sites before for any reason but find myself needing to air feelings with people who have been through similar situations

I found myself unexpectedly pregnant and my boyfriend and I were both very excited.

At 9 weeks exactly I had some brown spotting and my Mum assured me that it was nothing but I went to the doctor and had my hcgl levels checked two days apart only to be told that it was dropping and the pregnancy wouldnt be viable. I then had to have a scan and I was prepared and tried not to look but couldnt help but see the screen and the lady pointed out my baby and then that there was no heartbeat.

Im not having a D & C am just letting nature take its course and I havent been back to work yet, I am planning on going tomorrow. I was supposed to go today but had a bad night and couldnt stop myself crying this morning, I thought i was fine and then it just hit me this morning. Everyone keeps saying its best it happens now and its nature taking course but none of it helps.

Im now starting to worry that it will happen again and that I might miss out on a baby and it scares me. I want to start trying straight away and my boyfriend wants to wait a couple of months, I just feel like trying and becoming pregnant again will help me to move on.

Any advice or thoughts are most welcome just chatting on here may help.

Feeling alone and worried.................

25th Feb 2010 9 weeks
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