Polly - Sounds like a BFP to me too! Goodluck tomorrow anyway. I'm its a sticky one.

Mel - Aww...thanks so much for your kind words. I'm following jen's example in trying to help other people if I can. Even though I find it hard to do nice things for myself, I still feel like my depression is making me very selfish. Maybe if I stop being selfish, there will be something to like about me and then I'll be able to take care of myself. Does that make sense? By the way, get ready for truck loads of coming your way. I hope you catch that eggie!

boble - Big huge coming your way. I'm sorry your friend seems so unaware of this great event in her life. I'm sure she will realise it one day. Once she looks into her baby's eyes for the first time, I'm sure she will wonder that she was ever less than happy about it. We're the unfortunate, but also fortunate in a way, who know how special and fragile is the life that can grow inside us. For some people, its only when they struggle to get what they want or have it taken away that they realise how much they want it.

In the meantime, if you find it hard to deal with your friend, maybe you should have a quiet word to her about how you feel. I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. We are all here whenever you need to vent or cry or scream.