Ruthie - im so sorry to hear your news. thinking of you and your family xx

Mel - i completely understand how you are feeling + the feelings you get about yourself after you feel that way. I have had 2 people I know have babies in the last month... both around my due date and yes I am happy for them.. but I am also very sad for me.. and have many moments of "me too". I also know two people due in the next month or so.. and then another friend due in July and then another due late August. Why is it when you are ttc and going through all this loss and pain every one is preg around you? it is like rubbing salt into the wound. Oh and I would also love to have that first pregnancy naivety that you are talking about - gee, if only we could go back there! Dont worry hun - these feelings are as natural as the air you breath!

Hannah - glad to hear you are doing your homework sounds nice actually!

Good to hear all our preg friends on here are doing well and seeing gorgeous little heart beats. sending lots of sticky vibes your way

sorry so much has been posted in the last couple of days its hard to keep up lol. Hi to everyone else! and thank you to everyone who replied to my post... i am happy that the results have come back normal, because that is a good thing, right? but..... if we had something come back otherwise we would at least have something we could work with and possibly "fix" the problem - or try to at least. and we would know there was a reason why we had to suffer these m/c's... but trying to think positively and just be happy that we got these normal results back.

oh also wanted to ask - and not sure if I have already asked it... but I get spotting before af arrives, around 7-10 days of spotting (then I have a normal af of 5 - 7 days)... has anyone else had this? and if so, have you ever found out that it was somehow linked to the m/c's?
This is not something i had before going on the pill. I was on the pill for about 4- 5 years and since going off it this has been the norm for me - but it doesn't seem that normal. I asked my gp about it and she said the only way to get rid of it is to put me back on the pill (helpful advice that when we are ttc). anyway, because i have spotted all through both recent pregnancies that have ended in m/c i can't help but feel it has something to do with the m/c's.

anyways... I will try to keep up with personals a little better still getting the hang of this -