Hi girls, just a quickie before I head off to the animal sanctuary with DP's family. Apologies for the me-ness coming up, will do persies later tongiht.

matthews mum - I opt not to use afternoon urine for opks because the logistics of trying to do that while at work are just impossible. They've worked for me just fine with fmu so far.... so I just kind of have to stick with that if I want to use them at all.

Can't remember much else of what I've read.. argh, sorry. Kind of rushing. Just wanted to update you all on the sausage sizzle.. or lack thereof. It seems DP is always 'too tired' around O time. Both months now he's been more interested in drinking as many beers/bourbons as he can on the weekend (which is when my fertile days have tended to fall).... and it's just so frustrating. So he's too tired to DTD, but can stay up late drinking. AGHHH. Oh and no ewcm today, so I'm pretty sad. This morning he was acting all frisky like, and I just said 'bit late.' His family is on their way over, and practically on our doorstep..... it's like he does this on purpose just to wind me up.

Anyway, sorry for the self indulgent whine... I just needed to vent a bit. I don't even know what to say to him that won't p!ss him off. My OPK was still negative this morning, but getting darker. I guess all i can do is hope that we DTD tonight and tomorrow (if i'm lucky) and hope that's enough. I honestly don't know how I'm ever going to get pg when I have to BEG for it. It's ridiculous, and embarrassing. It hurts asking for sex all the time and being rejected. The worst part is that we haven't even bd'd since Monday, so it's not like he's worn out. He's just..... avoiding it. Now I wonder if he even wants a baby, when he purposely avoids me when I'm fertile.

!@#$%^&*() Yay, can't wait to go and smile and have 'fun' today while I know this month is pretty much down the toilet. I keep telling him there are certain days I need him to.. y'know. And he said that was fine, at the start. It's like that's all out the window now, and he just can't be bothered making time to DTD. How is he going to be 'bothered' changing nappies and getting up in the middle of the night if he can't even be bothered MAKING the baby in the first place!!! And that's supposed to be the fun part!

Ughh... sorry. I'm going to log off now before I depress anyone with my sooking. It's just so.... hard. I like Reet's idea (or was it Iona) of asexual reproduction.