Tam83: Thank you for your kind words. for you and try not to make yourself crazy with analyzing every symptom--easier said than done, I know.
Where there's hope: thank you--and good luck with BD
KrystieLove: thank you. Congrats on feeling movement? I always thought those first movements were like somebody was pushing a rolling pin inside me
jen805, HannahD: thank you
HannahS86: and
Polly: thank you for your kind words. IKWYM, the holidays won't be quite the same, and it's best not to try to force yourself to be jolly. It can even be hard to get back in the mood for ttc, expecially since you've been through this more than once. for you
This is just a quick post to thankyou all for your support in my ttc journey this year. You truly have been my biggest support and my constant shoulder to lean on. I dont know how I would have dealt with the events of this year without your support. Im not going anywhere by the way, I need you guys now more than ever.....THIS IS A VERY SCARY TIME....Im scared out of my brain, but im trying my very hardest to calm down and try to enjoy each day. I started meditating yesterday by listening to 'ocean' music, closing my eyes and turning off my thoughts as much as possible.....and it worked so well....I FELL ASLEEP! I dont think I ever reached that meditative state where totally turn your thoughts off and focus on the sounds and energy flowing around you...im pretty sure falling asleep is not exactly meditation...but the affect was the same...total relaxation....until the alarm went off to pick ds up from school, that totally ruined it. I have had to set the alarm for 3pm everyday just incase I fall asleep....
Ok well thats it for now, sorry for lack of persies, ill bbl for more, but I have to clean the house for an open inspection tomorrow....grrrrrrrr!!!!!!
Hey friends! Whew! What a busy day for me! Helped distribute See's candy--part of 6th gr. fundraising, then worked in the Santa Shop. Don't know if I told you girls about it, but it's a little shop that we opened at the school for kids to come buy gifts for their family members. It's really cool--the kids are digging it!! Worked at the school from 8-3:15... all volunteer... told them I was going to start demanding teachers pay for working those kinds of hours! ROFL... We're having a winter craft bazaar on Saturday, and the 6th gr. are in charge of the food. So the bazaar is PTA (which I'm a member of), and I'm responsible for the school apparel--which will be out on Sat. also. Then 6th grade is doing popcorn, pizza/drinks, and a bake sale (and this was all my brilliant idea). So, once again, I seem to have put myself in a pretty busy predicament! We're having a Santa there on Sat, too! Should be fun, but it's lots of work--especially when I'm sick. I do feel much better, but I still have a terrible cough and some congestion, so I am still sick. I'll be happy when Sat. is over! Ok, enough about me.....
Hannah S--Good luck with your Saying lots of prayers for NOAF!!
Hannah D--Thanks for the NOAF vibes! *hugs* The year of the ox.... sure does sound better than a rat, doesn't it? lol.... Hope the ox is for us all!!
Polly--Your emotions and feelings are completely understandable! You have every right to feel robbed, angry, bitter, sad, lonely... the list could go on and on! Allow yourself to feel ALL of that--it's the only way to begin the healing process. While I'm sure Christmas will be an emotional one for us all (my angel should've been 3 1/2 mo's old this Christmas), you will make it through.... one day at a time (thanks, Angel!). Each day will get easier and easier... then some days you'll break down... and that's ok, too.... it's all part of the healing process. I'm glad that you've found us here--please know we're all here for you--don't ever feel bad about venting to us! *hugs*
smi--
tempus & --Big *hugs* for you!! Thinking of you!
plc-- Love ya! *kiss*
issy--I wish I could turn my brain off enough to meditate! I've tried... really hard.... I remember I would try to imagine a piece of white paper.... then in the back of my mind this little voice says, "does the paper have lines on it?" Grrr! It's so frustrating--but it's a true story! My mind just won't stop! lol.... I'm glad that it worked so well for you!
Hello ladies,
well back from work trip and no bub anymore. Think this lasted one didn't even survive as long as the last bub. Can't think of much to say but this SUCKS!!! Sorry, being angry better than bawling at the moment (seems to be the only 2 choices). Spotting continued but I thought is was less and then I even started having pregnancy symptoms (sore BB and nausea), this didn't last however, ended up with a screaming headache (like I usually do just before AF arrives- think it is drop in estrogen) then in the morning didn't 'feel' pregnant at all. POAS and had almost no blue line to see. Anyway, was at a conference so kept working, then yesterday pretty much flattened due to cramping and pain followed by lots of bleeding and clotting. As I said, this sucks!
Toccara- so sorry, my thoughts are with you.
Issy and Tam- lots of for you. Keep growing those bubs
Hello to everyone else, sorry not much energy for personals today. Off to the doctor in a bit. Think I might see if I can get a referral to FS, I know you are meant to have 3 MC before they do anything, but the thought of going through this again before doing anything about it makes me feel sicker than I already feel.
Indy - I am so terribly sorry about your MC . That "3 MC before seeing an FS" is a bit of a myth. Perhaps it is true of a few bigtimers in the big city, but I would be very surprised if you got turned away if you had a referral from your GP. I think it is a very positive step forward and it will help you face the new year with an idea of the next step. Be good to yourself. Try and get some rest (I know that's hard). Maybe a quiet weekend in with some chick-flicks (I am sure DH will bend on this one, under the circumstances) and some chocolate. Take care xx
Jen - WOW - aren't you a busy little bee! What a champion effort - how would that school function without you? I think you should at least get a free slice of pizza from the 6th grade if you work a full day like that
Issy - totally relate to what you are going through. I guess all of us girls do. Everyone has their BTW we won't let you go anywhere because we need to see your ticker grow each week. You UTD ladies are our inspiration
Polly - Be angry. Be grumpy. And don't apologise. It's normal and it's better to feel than to be numb. It is hard to be back at Square 1 again. And I understand that BDing can lose some of its romance. I am glad it has brought you and your DH closer together. Just think how much love your next baby (because you WILL be PG again) will come from
Smi, HannahD and KrystieLove - thanks for your TTC tips. I have combined them together to increase my chances and the result is to have fun having a naughty romp on the beach while riding a bike Tickets anyone?
AFM - having my usual spotting problem. Happens every month after AF and way way before O (usually around Day 9, I O on Day 15). Does this happen to anyone else? It does not stop me from conceiving, but I wonder if it affects my egg quality. 2 x FS have been no help at all. Too hard basket
Polly - I think the other ladies have covered it. Just allow yourself to feel whatever you feel and don't apologise for venting here. I can definitely relate to feeling "ripped off" this Christmas (I'd be 30 weeks by now). your TTC journey is short.
issy - As long as you achieve relaxation, does it really matter which state you're in?
jen - Wow! You are busy. I hope the school acknowlegdes all the work you've put in some way. A slice of pizza at the very, very least.
Indy - I am so sorry hun.
WTH - All that advice together does conjure an interesting picture.
AFM - Not much happening at the moment. Trying to keep busy at work. My mother and brother in-law are coming to stay for a few days. Not feeling in the mood for visitors, but I'll probably be fine once they arrive tomorrow.
Hey Indy luv....it just sucks hey...I know exactly what your going through and just thought I'd tell you that go and check out tests for recurrent miscarriages on this thread and bring it to your GP for referral to get bloods thats what I did and had them yesterday. I also made an appointment with DR Gavin Sacks OB specialist at the Syd IVF Clinic he specialises in miscarriages he fit me in on the 23rd just before xmas how lucky was I??? just google his name and it will come up....
Had to send this..have to go now and pick up DH for my xmas party tonight...miss you all girls and eventhough haven't been posting have been lurking a bit..everyday gets easier but I still cry spontaneously like some freak but I don't care!!
big big hugs to you Tempus I know how hard this is....
CONGRATS TO YOU SMI ....goodluck lovely
enjoy the BD marathon and thanks for your thoughts WTH
ISSY - great HCG results ...all will be well I'm sure of it...
Ok really got to go big hugs and stickyvvibes and babydust to you alll and all the ladies I've missed....
Sorry I didn't post about my FS appointment last night but I wasn't sure how I felt about it all, I still don't!
I know what you all mean about feeling 'ripped off'. DH and I keep thinking about how our little angel would have been almost 6 months at Christmas and it would've been so special to celebrate our first Christmas as a little family. Just went out and did some Christmas shopping and there were newborn babies everywhere I looked. Maybe next Christmas *sigh*.
Will start off with persies first.
Indy - I don't know what to say and I know nothing I can say will make it any easier. So I will send you a hug instead. Know that we are all here for you if you need to vent.
HannahD - Hi TTC buddy! Know what you mean about keeping busy. Lucky it is a busy time of year! I am having all my family over for Christmas lunch this year and I was excited about it but not so much anymore. I hope having visitors cheers you up and takes your mind off things.
Issy -
Jen - Do you ever sleep?
Polly - Sorry you have to be here but I am glad you have found us. Like the other girls said, don't ever apologise for venting, that's what we are all here for. I'm not sure what I did before I could talk to the wonderful ladies on this thread.
HannahS86 - Don't think I have said hi to you yet!
Megsmum - How are you doing?
Smi & Tam83 -
Big hi to babymiracles, plc, krystielove, WTH, AJC, jenushka, tempus, fificlaire and angel (if you are lurking!).
P.S. I know I have used all sticky vibes girl but I run out of smilies!
AFM - FS said my progesterone levels of 37 were very high so I am definitely ovulating and my ovarian resistance blood test came back all ok. Basically all my BT have come back with no problems, I am still waiting on the results from the lupus one. He wants to test my progesterone levels again this month just to check if I o again at CD22 and if the levels are as high. I know you can o at different times each month but if I do o around day 22 we have been missing it every month as I thought it was around day 17/18. I checked FF charts last night and the whole time I have been charting (4 cycles) we haven't BD at all really around day 22.
If my levels come back ok again the next step is to have a laporoscomy to check my tubes and also check if I have endrimetriosis. He doesn't think my tubes would be blocked since I have been pg once but wants to exhaust all options.
Failing all of that there seems to be no real issue so it will then be our decision whether we want to try IVF. The FS said we are young enough to keep TTC naturally but if we want to try and 'speed' up the process we can look at IVF. He said clomid wouldn't work for me as I am quite clearly o with high levels.
I don't know how or what to feel. Part of me is relieved but another part of me wanted something to be wrong so we had answers and could work on trying to fix the problem. I am so frustrated
The receptionist at the FS office is about 8 months pg and she said it was a long, hard road for them and said never to give up. We certainly don't intend to but gee it is so hard sometimes.
I calculated and day 22 will be New Year's Eve. Maybe we could start the year off with a bang - lol!
for you and try not to make yourself crazy with analyzing every symptom--easier said than done, I know.
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for you
Saying lots of prayers for NOAF!!
I'm glad that you've found us here--please know we're all here for you--don't ever feel bad about venting to us! *hugs*
Love ya! *kiss*
My mind just won't stop! lol.... I'm glad that it worked so well for you! 
Know that we are all here for you if you need to vent. 
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