Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss November 08

[MaternalBride]

Welcome Maternal bride. This is a wonderful forum with some amazing people. We are TTC and it feels like it will never happen.I lost my baby boy at 35 weeks and 5 days - it willl be 5 months on Christmas Eve - it feels like yesterday and I struggle daily with his loss. I hope you find some comfort here.

Mel1979 - I have been okay today. I think I lost 1kg doing housework and sweating in this heat and humidity - that's the Gold Coast for you. The tonight I went to pieces again. I just sobbed and sobbed at not being able to hold my boy and celebrate Christmas. I never quite realised this would be so hard.

jen805 - thanks for your support. I am not coping very well at the moment and I feel like I have taken a few steps backwards. I just wish it didn't hurt so much...

Take care everyone xxxx

So much love your way. Allow yourself to feel every emotion. Embrace it and cope with each feeling as it comes. It may hurt but it's so valid and real and raw and you are completely allowed to feel the way you are. There's no such thing as steps backwards in grief... it's not logical like that. Each step, whatever that may be, is a step forward - even if you feel like you're going around in circles.

I'm that you get some positive news soon.

[MaternalBride]

Thank you "where's the hope"

I completely understand what you are all talking about with seeing bellies and new borns at every turn. I get so overwhelmed sometimes and wish I was like everyone else - unaffected by it all. I try to think that some of them could've been through a lot to get to that point and that is somewhat comforting. But it still hurts and it's still hard.

[Tuesday's Child]

Theresa - Thankyou. I hope you have some good new soon too.

mumstheword - Hope you get your BFP!

jen -

Mel - Seems like you could do with a Hope you're feeling a little better today darlin'.

Indy - Hope you get some answers from the FS. In the meantime, enjoy Christmas.

maternalbride - I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't know how I would have gotten through the last few months without the women here. We offer nothing but support and love through your TTC journey - may it be short. Hoping your get a great Christmas present!

WTH - Hoping you caught that eggie!

For everyone not mentioned . Hope you all had a great weekend.

[babymiracles]

Hi everyone

Just a quick one for me. Wanted to say thank you for all the engagement congratulations. I must admit it has been nice to have something else to focus on and take my mind of TTC at least for a portion of the time. Well today is the day - frostie transfer number two is happening this afternoon, so in about one hour I am off for acupuncture, then to clinic for transfer and then back for acupuncture. My pregnancy test is schedule for christmas eve - wow wouldn't that be a wonderful christmas present if it is positive. I guess a consolation if it is not is that I will be able to have a glass or two of alcohol over christmas and new year (although I would be most happy to be absteining if my dreams come true and I get a BFP). Sorry for lurking and not posting in last week - have been busy with wedding plans - can you believe that we only got engaged three weeks ago and i have already booked reception, ceremony, music for reception, and got my wedding dress - and we are meeting with celebrant tomorrow - not bad hey!

maternalbride (so sorry for your loss - your story is heart breaking)

Smi - congratulations - such wonderful news for you for an early christmas present. Wishing you the best of luck for a happy healthy pregnancy

Sorry for lack of other persies - but to WTH, Jen, Possums, Mumstheword, zacharysmum, indy, mannie, ruthie, hannah, plc, mel, fificlaire, tempus, polly, issy, megsmum, tam, mollycat, toccara, and anyone else I have missed

[smilanatu]

Happy Monday Gurlies!

Weekend was nice...

WTH... Hope your weekend was productive *wink*

babymiracles... for your BFP in Christmas Eve...have fun wedding planning!

MaternalBride...so sorry you have found yourself here...you will find nothing but the best support from the wonderful ladies here...they have all been Godsend to me...

jen...*wavin* you ready for Christmas yet?

Paula...THANK YOU!!! Getting your card brought a bright smile to my face...I never got any addresses back so I didn't get to send any out BUT I have yours for next time around.

Alrighty ladies time for me to get my day started...

[Tam83]

COLOR="Purple"]maternalbride [/COLOR] So sorry for you loss. You will find this thread will save your sanity. The ladies in here are wonderful especially Jen. I hope that the pain eases with everyday and that you get your miricale without anymore heartache.

Jen Hello I dont know how you find time to write your lovely posts you are so kind you always mention everyone, you are very thoughtful. Hope you enjoyed your pizza.

WTH Hi I hope you caught your and that you get a wonderful christmas present.

Zachary's Mom I know what you mean about those ugly cries I try to do them when hubby isn't home cause I dont want to scare him although he is very supportive. Dont be to hard on yourself I cant imagine how you must feel. Time does heal though so as slow as the days go just let them keep passing by

Babymiricales I have my and pray that you get a wonderful suprise on christmas.

smilanatu I hope all is going well sending you lots of sticky vibes. I know what you mean about pg symptoms. I am freaking out cause I dont have any either.

Mel79 I know what you mean about seeing heavily pg people and new borns it rips my heart out to. My best friend was pg the same time as me my first m/c and now she has a beautiful little girl we were only a week apart. Everytime I look at her little girl I feel so empty. I hope that you have a little miricale to hold in your arms soon.

To everyone else I have missed sorry.

AFM: Well still dont have any symptoms and starting to get a little worried. Spoke to the FS and he has booked me in for a u/s on Thursday but it's so far away. I am so worried I dont know if I am going to be able to handle bad news again not for the third time. I cant stop crying now just thinking about it

[tempus moriendi]

Issy02: I'm glad you found some relief with mediation. The stress level of ttc is indescribable.

jen805: Our school has a Secret Santa Shop, too, and the kids love it

Indy: with your referral--hopefully you get better results next time around. Sending cyberhug and

WTH: not sure about the breakthrough bleeding and egg quality. But that's a good question..."worked off a kilo"

HannahD: hope you had a nice visit with your family

Mannie2903: you're not a freak. not at all. Sending cyberhug

Mel1979: Sending cyberhug. Nobody here judges you for twinges of jealousy. It's perfectly normal. It sounds like you have a plan in place with your FS, with testing and all. Of course, IVF holds no guarantees (nothing does, I guess). and

Zachary's Mom: Aww, you sound so discouraged...sending cyberhug

mumstheword: Thank you for your kind thoughts. Just below the ribs sounds to high up for mittleschmertz. As for LP, I would advise you to test 14dpo. But also your phase is so short, you may want to check with your doc. Mine put me on progesterone for short LP.

MaternalBride: I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending cyberhug and keeping you in my prayers.

Tam83 very hard for you

[smilanatu]

A quickie before going home to Tam... very hard for you and bub!

[MistyFying]

Time for a fresh start in a new thread ladies.