Welcome Maternal bride. This is a wonderful forum with some amazing people. We are TTC and it feels like it will never happen.I lost my baby boy at 35 weeks and 5 days - it willl be 5 months on Christmas Eve - it feels like yesterday and I struggle daily with his loss. I hope you find some comfort here.

Mel1979 - I have been okay today. I think I lost 1kg doing housework and sweating in this heat and humidity - that's the Gold Coast for you. The tonight I went to pieces again. I just sobbed and sobbed at not being able to hold my boy and celebrate Christmas. I never quite realised this would be so hard.

jen805 - thanks for your support. I am not coping very well at the moment and I feel like I have taken a few steps backwards. I just wish it didn't hurt so much...

Take care everyone xxxx
So much love your way. Allow yourself to feel every emotion. Embrace it and cope with each feeling as it comes. It may hurt but it's so valid and real and raw and you are completely allowed to feel the way you are. There's no such thing as steps backwards in grief... it's not logical like that. Each step, whatever that may be, is a step forward - even if you feel like you're going around in circles.

I'm that you get some positive news soon.