Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss November 08

Hi ladies,
sorry i havn't been in for so long i dont really know why i stayed away so long.

Congratulations to all those out there who got BFP i wish you all the best and pray that your little ones stay healthy.

For those who have had more loss im truly sorry my thoughts and prayers are with you.

well i have had some bad news lately the clomid tablets didn't work i was taking 3 tablets im now waiting on some bloodtest results then my specialist is sending me to another dr to start on the injections. i was wondering for those out there who have tried the injections are they expensive? whats it like having to give yourself injections? how many injections a day do you need and for how long?

Good morning girls! Sorry I've been MIA.... still feeling pretty YUK at the moment. Thinking of you all, even tho I'm not doing so well with posting lately. :grouphug:


To my Friday night chat girls.... so sorry I slept right thru it! Miss you all and will catch up soon when I'm not feeling so run down. Love ya lots! *kiss*



Thanks everyone for the well-wishes! :hug:

Aww...feel better jen!

Gurlies...:dance: it's Friday!

I hope everyone is doing well...

HannahD...thanks for the antiAF vibes...so far so good...not to sound too negative I am positive she's on her merry way...GRRRRR

mollycat...I have got to find more time for my gurlies!

Issy...WONDERFUL!!!

plc...man it is hard! Hey on a brighter note you are sooo close *hugs* lunar buddy!

AJC...I'm betting you're right on the money!

Alrighty ladies...I am thinking of each of you...hava a blessed weekend!

:grouphug:

:noaf:

:bluedust::pink-babydust:
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

HannahD: sending encouragement--hooray for retail therapy.

mollycat: I'm glad to hear you're at peace. sometimes you just have to take a step back and work on other areas of your life (because you are more than just a uterus).

megsmum: keeping you in my prayers

AJC: it is hard to relax. Just do the best you can--we're all pulling for you.

Mannie2903: yes, I know what you mean--the cycle of trying and conceiving and losing definitely takes its toll on you. You and your DH are being very wise to take time out to concentrate on each other.
Let us know how your blood tests turn out.

jen805: sending cyberhug

issy02: I'm so glad you're hcg went up so much! (I'm having hcg issues right now...) That's amazing. My fs says that sometimes they start low and then shoot up. Best of luck.

afm: my scan went okay, fs saw the amniotic sac, but not the yolk sac (at least she wasn't sure if she saw it or not). but she said I'm kind of early to see the yolk sac. unfortunatley, my hcg, although it's climbing, isn't climbing as fast as they would hope, so I have to go back on tuesday for another scan and more bloods. My fs says they need to monitor it, but sometimes women just have a lower hcg but everything turns out okay. But I feel a little better since reading issy02's post about how her level jumped so high so quickly!

Hi Tempus, thanks for the reassuring words, know completely what you mean with the over thinking. I had to giggle at you ?my BB aren?t sore enough? cos I had exactly the same thought in the last few days? Also, I?m very busy stressing about my hcg at the moment (see below) but was reassured by one of my friends who was told thoughout her pregnancy that her levels were very low, but had no problems at all.

Mannie, thinking of you, hope you are getting though each day ok. Give yourself a chance to heal, with all the testing you are being proactive about it all which is really good. Hope dinner was nice.

Hannah, down with AF!!! Hoping for a Christmas baby for you.

Hi Issy, I?m one of the ?newbies?, hello to you☺ wishing you all the best with your faint lines (I?m putting a lot of faith in faint lines myself at the moment), your levels sound very promising, wishing you all the best.

Jen, you poor thing!! Please look after your lungs, and I hope you feel better soon.

Jensuka, fifi and Tam- yay for happy scans that?s so great to see!

Mel1979- all your signs sound positive, be it for O or bub, thinking of you

Megsmum, hang in there, we know your around and are thinking of you.

AJC- keep cooking that little bub

Smilanatu- down with AF!!!

Hello to everyone else. I?m meant to be packing for a work trip (last one for the year thank goodness) so just :grouphug: today.

AFM- well, not feeling particularly positive this morning. Went and had bloods done yesterday, and Dr will call on Monday to give me levels but almost don?t want to know. Still spotting (like mc last time), very light and brown and only when I go to the bathroom (sorry TMI), but not encouraging at all. I feel like my body just doesn?t have enough hormones to hold onto the little bub. Trying to be positive but refusing to get my hopes up, feeling a bit crampy and ping-y in my lower tum, but have almost convinced myself that my BB are sore so who knows. Waiting has never been my strong suit. Anyway, so not to worry about me, I?m finding keeping track of all of you really great- so thankyou!!

OK, off to pack now. Not sure if I?ll get to write till I get back, but I?ll certainly pop in.

Lots of:loveshower:,

Indy

Hi ladies,

Will try to be brief today as I am soooooo tired!

Plc - thanks heaps for the pm, at least now know Angel is ok.

Hannah - hey hun, how you doing? Good on you for treating yourself to some retail therapy. Everytime AF arrives for me I always go shopping, I may not be a mother yet but my wardrobe is looking good!

Indy - :pray: you get good news for the Dr. Try and remain positive, everything is ok until you know or hear otherwise. Have :crossfingers: for you.

Tempus - I also know of women who have had low hcg levels throughout their pg and they have gone on to have healthy babies. :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Mannie - Good on you for taking the time to heal. I hope you find some answers from your tests. Sounds like you are in good hands with your DH :)

AJC - rest, rest, rest!

Megsmum - try not to stress, easier said than done I know. Don't feel bad about needing to take time out. Make sure you take care of yourself. :hug:

Rebecca - Sorry the clomid didn't work, hope the injections work for you.

Hi to Jen, WTH, buliej, smi, tam83, mollycat and all you other lovely ladies.

AFM - Well I caved today and POAS - BFN! I knew it would be but I needed a jolt back to reality. I am not due to test until the 12th so I guess there is a chance it is too early to tell. I am still having pg symptoms - sore bbs, cramps, going to the toilet every 5 minutes and I am so tired. I have had to have a nap for the past 2 afternoons which is completely not like me. Plus I have been in bed really early too and I am usually a night person! I have had back pain today though so I thought AF might be on her way. I know I did have back pain when I was pg last time but I am trying not to get my hopes up.

See how I am driving myself crazy here! I wish I could just sleep through the whole TWW and someone could wake me up when it is over!

DH is forcing me to rest (just in case). As a result he is cooking dinner. I think when I do fall pg he will want to wrap me up in cotton wool. Very sweet :inlove:

Good morning my fellow BB-lonians! Going to try to catch up on some persies in between hacking up my lungs! Still feeling pretty cr@ppy and just blah... but very grateful that I went in when I did before things got too bad. I think I was probably a day or two away from being admitted to the hospital! It hurt so bad when I would cough, that it felt like one of my ribs was going to puncture a lung! Also had to work at the school on some fundraiser stuff for the last 2 days--but it was all inside work (like paperwork, etc.) so I wasn't exerting myself or anything. I don't usually do sick very well--unless I'm vomiting and restricted to laying down, I just can't stay home and do nothing all day long! Besides, I would've worked harder at home than I did at the school.... it was pretty funny, tho, the principal heard me coughing, and asked if someone would please call my mom to come pick me up from school (like I was one of the kids!) rofl....

Ok, time for some persies....



Tam--So good to hear from you again! Congrats on your great u/s!! :stickyvibesgirl:



plc--So sorry I missed chat on Friday! Can't believe it's almost time for you to meet your little baby girl! :hug:



Mel--Sorry to hear about your BFN... you symptoms sound promising--probably just way too early to test. Sending some :pink-babydust: your way and keeping my fingers crossed!



tempus--Saying lots of prayers for this little one to stick! Hope your BT's and scan on Tue. help you relax and feel more reassured! Lots of :stickyvibesgirl:



Hannah--Yay for retail therapy! Isn't it amazing how much shopping can help you to feel better? Hope you enjoyed your day with mum! *hugs*



mollycat--It's really great to hear you sounding so much at peace with your decision. I'm really happy that you're taking care of you right now! So sorry I missed chat on Friday! *kiss*



issy--Woo-hoo! Great BT results! :stickyvibesgirl:



Megsmum--Here's your dose of :stickyvibesgirl: cycle bud! To to relax and stay positive! Saying lots of prayers for you and your sticky little bub! *hugs*



AJC--Keep up with the resting!! I hope you're better at it than I am! lol... Isn't Ellen way cool? My DS2 and I were watching the other day when she gave everyone Wii's... I think it was the same day that she gave a little boy all kinds of Star Wars stuff... and he said "See, that's why I want to be on Ellen!" rofl... (We already got him a Wii for Christmas, he just doesn't know it yet!) Me personally, I'd like to be on Ellen and Oprah!! Anyhow, as hard as it may be, hang in there with the resting... it's for the greatest cause!! *hugs*



Mannie--Aww, hon, sorry to hear you're feeling so down! *hugs* I hope you enjoyed your dinner on the beach with DH!



Rachel B--Sorry to hear the Clomid isn't working for you. :hug: Hope the injections do the trick, wishing you lots of luck!



smi--OMG, aren't gas prices awesome right now? Ours was down to $1.73/gal. yesterday!!! I'm sure yours is probably less, but for California--especially Santa Barbara County--that's amazing!! They said on the news yesterday that by Jan. it could be only $1/gal!! Woo freakin' hoo!! lol.... Could you imagine?? Hope you have a great weekend!



Indy--I know it's hard, hon, but try to stay positive!! Sending some :stickyvibesgirl: your way! Hope you have a nice trip--even if it's for work! Stay safe!

Just wanted to come back and sprinkle some :stickyvibesboy: :stickyvibesgirl: to our increasing number of preggie friends: issy, Megsmum, tempus, Indy, Krystie, jenushka, joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, plc, AJC, Rachel S, Leyza, and missbec



Also wanted to give some extra :hug: to Toccara, Mannie, and Ruthie! Always thinking and praying for you all!!



Angel(In case you're ever lurking)--Always wishing you were here! Miss you and love ya lots! *kiss*



For the rest of us.... some :pink-babydust: :bluedust:


Would :heartbeat: to see some Christmas :bfp: in this thread!!


Thanks again for everyone's get well wishes! :grouphug: Have a great weekend!

Hey Jen - Yeah, Ellen rocks! I saw that same episode and when she had the pregnant lady on, who was due mid Jan, Ellen said to have the Bub on 26 Jan as that is her birthday. That is my due date. Her show is really fun. I'd love to try to see her next time we go to the US. We saw David Letterman last time we were there and it was soooo cool! Hope you are going ok now, sorry to hear you've been quite ill. lol at the principal wanting to call your Mom.

Hi Ladies,

Im sorry for lack of persies at the moment, im just stressing out right now. My boobs are not as swollen and sore as they were last week...is this a bad sign? When I tested last week and got the 2 faint bpf's they were killing me...I then tested again on fri and it was super dark and I did it again today out of sheer panic and it is darker and thicker again...as thick and dark as the control line. How can it be that my hcg is going up but my boobs are getting less sore? I fear that Im going to m/c again although the dark hpt are giving me some hope.

Issy

Hello to you all. I must say that I have been lurking in this forum for the past few weeks and wished that I didn't have to, but unfortunately I have joined this club of women who shares my pain. I thought it might help to vent my terrible news to people who truly know what I have gone through as others who have done so have truly helped me through this time.

Our story.........

We found out we were pregnant in September..so excited!:dance: We had been TTC for two long years and it was such a :dance: day. One of the moments in your life you share with your DH that are just the best! We saw the little heatbeat at 7 weeks and we couldn't believe how lucky we were. Finally good news!! Then on the day of my 11 week check-up I had a small amount of bleeding went to the OB where he did an u/s to find a baby with no heart beat and that it had probably died between 9&10 weeks. We were gutted. I then had the terrible choice to wait and see if the baby would pass on its own or a D&C, I chose the D&C and had it done that night at the hospital. It all happened so quickly, that morning I was pregnant and so excited about my check-up & that night I was mourning my baby. It was the most horrible thing I have ever gone through. I cried and cried until there were no more tears left in me. My poor DH was absolutely wonderful and without him I don't know where I would have been.

I didn't sleep for about a week and a half, I could hardly eat as I felt sick and I had not an ounce of energy. This wasn't me, I am normally and extremely happy person, but grief (and it IS GRIEF) really effects you in every way. My mum was wonderful, she told me it was a BABY and I had every right to grieve, my poor sister didn't know what to say but she was there for me but bein heavily pregnant herself made things hit home to her. We had told our parents and a few close friends in the early stages and so I then had to tell them the bad news. They were really good and supportive. I described it to them that I was grieving, it was like someone in your immediate family had died, but you were the only person that knew them, so other people couldn't understand what you were feeling and I think that helped them understand my feelings.

I went to my Natropath about 8 days after it happened and she was probably my saviour as I had a massage and some relaxation therapy which really helped me start to look ahead. She helped me say good-bye to my little :angel: and look to the future. It was pretty hard at the time, but it really, really helped. From there I really started to improve and gradually my tears and worries slowed. I really did for a while there think I was losing it though and perhaps I was slipping into a dark depression but I started to try and look at the positives and this truly helps. 1. we got pg & 2. We stayed pg a lot longer than our last m/c & 3. DH & I have become closer & stronger as a couple.

We went to my OB two weeks later for a f/up appt and he said to us that it was probably a chromosonal abnomality that caused it which is about 50% cause of all m/c's. That helped as I didn't blame myself, but I did wonder if maybe I did something wrong or there was something wrong with my body which caused it. But it wasn't, it was just that there was something wrong with our little one and he chose to go rather than perhaps letting us have a harder decision to make down the track.

I was really worried about TTC again, but as I was diagnosed with hyperprolactinaemia in June 08 and was on medication it only really took us 3 mths and we were pregnant, so getting pg is not my biggest worry anymore. My big worry now is my next pgnancy and the anxiety that will come along for the ride, especially the first 11-12wks. For us I don't think it will be exciting, sure I want it to happen again soon and we have decided to TTC again, as AF arrived this week, but it will be such a long wait that I pray we get a :sticky: one next time. I am sure we will, because like all of you on this forum, we all truly deserve it. But as we all have learnt, life is cruel to us sometimes and we just have to deal with it the best we know how.

So here we go again, down the road of unknown, when we get our next chance, no one knows, but I pray it is soon and we get a little forever baby to hold in our arms and love because we have so much of it to give.

Sorry for the long post, but we all must never give up hope :pray:

Thank-you all for listening and I hope to perhaps stay around and get to know some of you better. Love to all TTC and those already on their baby journey.

Polly

Hi everyone

I am having a bad day and wanted to tell my story to people who actually care.

I found out I was pregnant last December (2007). I was so excited and when my partner came home he saw the test and was elated. Blood tests confirmed the results on the 2nd January. We were ecstatic.

Everything went well with the pregnancy and we found out we were having a boy. We decided almost immediately that we would call him Zachary. I am diabetic so I was at the hospital weekly for checkups from 26 weeks.

I went to the hospital on Wed 16 July and he was well with a 132bpm heart rate. On Tuesday 22 July I went for a scan so they could check his size and there was no heartbeat. I was 35 weeks and 4 days. I cold not believe it! I still can't! We had lost our beautiful boy and we couldn't do anything to bring him back.

Zachary Edward Lamb was born on 24th July at 6.34am and weighed a healthy 7lb 1oz and was 49cm. He was perfect in every way. The autopsy revelaed nothing and they cannot explain his death.

So now it has been almost 5 months and we are going to try again. I am excited but full of fear and thought I would try and get some support from people who know exactly how I feel.

Thanks for listening
Theresa

Polly and Theresa - I am so sorry that you had to experience such horrible losses. I too am both anxious about not falling pregnant again as well as falling pregnant and then waiting...and waiting wondering if something will go wrong...at least this forum gives you a place to share with people who have shared a similar experience.

issy - A dark line sounds positive. Do you have any other symptoms besides sore BBs? I didn't pay much attention to mine when I was pg, so I can't really offer any advice. Sending lots of :stickyvibesboy:

ajc - Glad to know bub is doing great. Keep up the good not-work.

mannie - Good on you for taking time to heal with your partner. There's something about the beach, where you can just 'be' and not worry about anything. Sending you lots of hugs. Hoping all those tests can give you some answers.

rachel - Sorry to hear the clomid hasn't worked for you.

smi - Its not over until she shows :SAAF:

tempus - :crossfingers: you're HCG levels jump soon.

indy - Goodluck with BT results tomorrow. :stickyvibesgirl:

Mel - Those symptoms sound promising! It may very well have been too early to test. :crossfingers: and :bluedust:

jen - Hope you feel better soon. :hug:

Polly and Theresa - Welcome. I am sorry for you losses. You have found a great group of women here who do understand what you are going through with whom you can vent, cry, scream and laugh. Goodluck on your TTC journey.

Toccara - Thinking of you. :hug:

Ruthie & Angel - If you're lurking, I just want you to know you are both in my thoughts.*hugs*

Hi to buliej, tam, plc, megsmum, mollycat, fifi, krystie and anyone I've forgotten to mention by name.

AFM - Yesterday, I went shopping with mum and we have at least started on our Christmas shopping. We have decided not to do the big Christmas with the whole family this year, so this will be my and DH's first year hosting Christmas. I tried to get into the spirit and even put my tree up last night. It didn't work. I really don't want to do Christmas this year. I just want to go to sleep until February when this horrid year of the rat is over.

Sorry just read over that last part and what a grumble-bum I'm becoming. I'm fine until I have to think about Christmas stuff.

On a more positive note. I did catch up with a good friend today. Its funny, but she's the one person (apart from you ladies) I can talk to about everything I'm going through, but she has no interest in having kids herself. She is so anti-kids that its kind of a joke between us and yet she is so understanding. I guess thats what comes of being friends for over 20 years.

Hannah - you are not a grumble bum and you have every right to feel how you do. I was just thinking the other day how our little angel would be almost 6 months old at Christmas and we should be having Christmas morning as a little family. :( Christmas is a hard time so you do and feel whatever you have to to get through it.

Issy - I would take more notice of the tests than your body. If I have learnt anything in the last 12 months it's that your body can play tricks on you! If the lines on your test keep getting darker I would say it is a very good sign your HCG levels are rising! :crossfingers:

Polly & Theresa - :welcome: I am so sorry for your losses. I am sad you have had to come to this thread but I hope we are all able to help you begin the TTC journey again. I :pray: that 2009 is the year for both of you.

Hi to everyone (sorry will come back and do persies later, have to get ready for work).

AFM - I am 10DPO and my boobs are still so sore (having trouble sleeping). My temp is still up as well. I really hope my body is not playing tricks on me as I have almost convinced myself I am pregnant. Sounds silly by I 'feel pregnant'. I feel bad as I am giving DH hope when I probably shouldn't. Time will tell I guess. Only 4 days to go........Does anyone know if a progesterone level of 37 (7dpo) is a good sign? The nurse said is was very positive.

As you can see, I am driving myself (and DH) crazy while we are waiting! :wall:

Polly and Theresa - I am so very sorry for your losses and for the circumstances that have brought you here, but glad that have chosen this forum as a place to share your ttc journey's. This an incredibly safe place to share you feelings, fears and joys and the women in here are wonderfully supportive and will laugh, cry and be your shoulder to lean on when you need it most. I :pray: that 2009 brings you your much deserved bundles of joy.

Mel - Im sorry I cant help you with your progesterone question, im not sure what it is supposed to be at this time of your cycle. But the symptoms def sound promising, I pray this is your month hun.

Jen - I hope you are feeling better hun, your poor thing :hug:

Hannah - You are not a grumpy bum, we are all entitled to our down days, its normal and very justified. I hope you are feeling a little better though :hug:

AJC - Im so glad to hear everything is ok, rest up darlin and look after yourself. Not long to go now....how exciting!

Indy and tempus - my thoughts and prayers are with you...wishing you both GL with your blood test results.

Big hello and hugs to everyone else...I hope you are all doing ok.

AFM - I had a bit of a panic attack yesterday and I have to admit, Im not completely over it. My bbs did not feel as sore yesterday morning...which really worried me, but as time went on throughout the day they got progressively more sore until they were as sore as they were last week. I have very dull period like pain, which is kind of on and off which has me praying like a crazy women everytime I feel it, but I am hoping this is normal. Other than that, I have started to feel sick. Last night I was starving after just having 4 pieces of toast...and I started to feel very sick, and again this morning I felt very queasy. Im hoping this is a good sign. So now I have to wait until fri for another blood test, which I dont think I can wait for, I think I may request to have it earlier than that, just to put my mind at ease. Also, I went to put a ticker up, but Im not completely sure how far along I am. I dont exactly know when my last period was. I had 2 last month so I dont know which one to go by and I dont know their exact dates either. The one month in 3 years that I forget to track my cycle, I fall pg and have no idea how many weeks I am! Go figure! I will have to have a dating scan, so until then...no ticker! Just as well I suppose as I feel like im jinxing myself by putting it up too early.

Hugs to all,
Issy

hi everyone...just saying hi...am having a bit of a break from posting too much at the moment...just need to try and not obsess too much about TTC! :redface:
but am thinking of you all xx

:welcome: Polly and theresa. I am so sorry for your losses and felt very sad for you both when I read your stories. Life can be very unfair sometimes I think! I hope you both get to hold beautiful healthy babies in your arms very soon. :hug:

Tempus - :pray: that things are all okay for you
Mannie :hug: been thinking of you

Jen, Possums, Hannah, Mel, melissal, issy, blueji, ruthie, megsmum, WTH, mollycat, AJC, indy, smi, rachel and all of the other lovely ladies on this thread :grouphug::hello:

AFM: Been very slack with posting - life has got very busy as now I am engaged we have decided we are definately getting married in april so I have started wedding planning! Have already secured a venue for reception and ceremony and am getting married on easter sunday! With regard TTC - had second blood test today and just waiting to hear if I need another one or if they know yet what day they will do next frostie transfer - I think it will be early next week - fingers crossed! and praying I get a BFP for christmas. It has been nice to be focussing on something else for a while (engagement, wedding) and this is probably least stressed/obsessed I have been about TTC for over a year! Mind you I probably will start stressing again in the TTW.

Big hugs to everyone

Hi girls,

If anyone is interested I have uploaded a photo of my hpt. Its in the member gallery. Or you can click on the link below....i think :redface:?

https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...8&ppuser=12868

Issy

Thank you to everyone who has welcomed me to this forum. I am waiting for this week to end so I can do a pregnancy test - Saturday is the day!!!! Here's hoping and:pray:

hi ladies

wow, i was just dropping in to lurk a little and catch up on everyone's news and i saw some wonderful news so had to post a big congrats to issy! :leap::happyforyou::hooray: hun i am so happy for you, it is such wonderful news and i have a little tear in my eye for you...just fantastic after such a long journey for you....remember i always told you it was just around the corner? hang in there hun, i know how hard this early stage is, but please just look after yourself, take it easy, don't push yourself with uni, work etc just try to get lots of rest and don't overdo anything. i got through the first tri by just getting myself through to each appt, blood test etc...so just keep going until your next appt and then the next after that etc...and before you know it one day you start to breathe a little easier and you can start to count the weeks instead of the minutes and the hours and the days...you will get there, have faith.

to everyone else- i don't really know most of you anymore but a big hello and hugs to all and as always wishing everyone here good luck.

a special :hug: for jen- i still pop by to keep an eye out for your BFP and i know it is not too far away, praying for you always. thanks for always handing me some of your sticky vibes, it is always much appreciated!

well not much to report from me, am just over 21 weeks now and so far so good, we just found out a couple of weeks ago that we are having a boy, so we are absolutely thrilled. he is healthy and everything is going well.

once again wishing everyone here lots of :bluedust::pink-babydust:

pbstar xo

Issy - It certainly all looks good. The line is definitely getting darker. I know what you mean about having to wait to have a blood test - I am going crazy waiting! You probably fell pg because you weren't worrying so much about it and weren't tracking your cycle, it often happens when we least expect it - lol! Let us all know how many weeks you are when you find out.:)

Hannah - How you feeling today hun?

Theresa - Best of luck for Saturday!:bluedust::pink-babydust:

babymiracles - Yah for wedding plans keeping you busy! I absolutely loved planning our wedding and would do it all again in a heartbeat (it was the best day) but DH says we can't afford it - lol!

Possums - completely understand about trying not to obsess - I have tried so many times and have now given up. I just can't forget about it. I know they say it often happens when you relax and forget about 'trying' but it's just not me. I hope it works for you!:crossfingers:

Mannie & Toccara - Hope you are both taking the time to heal. Thinking of you both. :hug:

Megsmum - How are your feeling? I hope some of the anxiety has subsided.

Jen - Hope you are starting to feel better - rest, girl, rest!

:hello: plc, WTH, kirstielove, AJC, buliej, tempus, indy, smi, rachel, mollycat, fifi, angel and everyone else who may be lurking!

AFM - I am really freaking myself out now. My bbs are still sore but I have had a bit of back pain and it is getting worse. I am so scared that AF is on it's way. I know there is nothing I can do but I just really thought this month was our month. I am so careful each month not to get our hopes up but I have had such strong symptoms and I 'feel' pg. It scares me to say that but that's how I have felt. I have had back pain on and off for the last few days which usually when I get AF I get a hour or two of back pain and then she arrives. I know lower back pain can also be a symptom of pg and I pray that is it but I am starting to lose hope.

I have to wait until Thursday to see the FS. AF is due on Friday (if she doesn't arrive before then) so I have a few more days to wait. I am not sure whether to do another hpt as it is probably still too early if I am. I can't believe I am day 34 into my cycle - the only time I have been this late was when I was pregnant!

Decided if this isn't our month we are stopping charting and will just BD when we want. Hoping that helps me to relax so it happens 'naturally'. It will happen when it's meant to. I say that now but I bet it doesn't last!

Just realised how self absorbed and negative I am sounding. Can I join you in being a Grumble Bum Hannah ;)?

Sorry just not feeling all that positive at the moment not to mention driving myself insane with every little ache and pain :wall:

Issy - That line definitely looks promising. Hang in there hun. :stickyvibesgirl:

possums - :hello:

babymiracles - Goodluck with the wedding planning.

Theresa - Sending lots of :noaf: vibes for Saturday.

pbstar - Congratulations on your boy. :bellyrubs:

Mel - :noaf: :crossfingers: that this is your month. Only a few more days to wait. Actually, I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling negative at the moment. At least we can share our feelings with each other.

jen - Good to see you haven't posted today. It means your off resting. Get well soon. :hug:

AFM - As I was leaving work today I was walking behind a couple who had obviously just had their 18 week scan (I work in a hospital). The woman was waving the picture around and saying how the baby definitely had his mouth. I had to walk very quickly to get past them before I started crying.

On top of that, I've had my pregnant cousin (her EDD is 4 days before mine) emailing me today. We've arranged to meet next week when she's in town for her next round of appointments. I'm not sure if any of you remember, but there is a complication with the baby and the possible outcomes range from perfectly normal to any degree of brain damage to neonatal death or stillbirth. I'm not sure, but I feel she expects something from me. Like I might be able to prepare her in some way for the worst because I've lost my own child. It'll be good to catch up next week and actually talk face to face though.

I know I've said this before, but I can't express enough my gratitude to all you ladies on here and BB for giving me a place to find comfort and support when I am feeling low. I couldn't imagine being on this TTC rollercoaster without you all. :grouphug:

Thanks HannahD - it is going to be one of the longest weeks of my life.

Hello everyone! I have been lurking on this board for so long, it feels like I already know a lot of you. For some reason, I finally felt compelled to start posting. Maybe because I am having one of my darker days. It is just so hard to go through something like this and not have anybody around who understands how much pain I'm going through. It only makes it more difficult that I work in a drugstore and probably 75% of my customers are either pregnant or have newborns.

I suffered the loss of my little one on October 25 at about 7 1/2 weeks. It was a natural m/c. It was the most devastating day of my life, as I know you all understand, and I am so sorry for that. The doctor recommended waiting two cycles before trying again. I didn't want to wait at all, but DH and I compromised and decided to wait one cycle, just to be on the safe side. So, we are on the TTC journey once again. It will be about 2 weeks before we can do a HPT. We were so blessed to get pregnant the first month when we were trying for our first angel, and I am just praying that it will happen that quickly again. I am trying not to expect it though. I have been praying for all of you ladies as well. I know that I am going to be a nervous wreck when I do see another line. Not at all like the complete bliss I felt last time. It will be comforting to have all of the encouraging words that I find on this forum. It has already helped me through so much. Thank you all for that!

Happy Monday Gurlies!

Welcome to all the new ladies who have found your way to our Blessed site...may you find much comfort here...

babymiracles...:dance: CONGRATULATIONS on your engagement!

I just wanted to give a quick hello...AFM still waiting for AF still :pray: she don't show...

:noaf:

:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
:bluedust::pink-babydust:

Indy: keeping you in my prayers. On the one hand it's good we can do blood test and find things out early, but I also think it gives us more to worry about1

Mel1979: I think it's too early to test, too. keeping fingers crossed, however.
re your temps--in a normal cycle, your temps remain elevated for 14dpo. then, they either drop and you get AF, or they remain elevated and you're pregnant.

jen805: please please please put yourself to bed and force fluids. and get lots of sleep.

issy02: have you seen your doc yet? I cramped during all my pregnancies, even the successful ones

Polly: I am so so sorry. Sending huge cyberhug and will keep you in my prayers. It sounds like you have supportive people in your life and that's such a blessing.

Zachary's Mom: cyberhug to you, too. What an awful thing for you to have to go through. I'll keep you in my prayers.

HannahD: sending cyberhug, and I just want to say, I really admire you for putting in the effort for Christmens, even if your heart isn't in it...
btw, your cousin is lucky to have you for a support system. best of luck

pbstar: so happy for you and keeping fingers crossed! let us know how everything turns out

HannaS86: I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Sending cyberhug and I'll keep you in my prayers

smilanatu: fingers crossed!!!

AFM: I checked some websites about hcg levels and...some said levels are VERY importatnt, others say as long as they're climing, it's okay and still others said don't read too much into levels. These were all respectable websites. I'll be in a straitjacket before this is all over LOL!!

pbstar - :happyforyou: YAY....a little boy, how exciting :bluecheer: Thankyou so much for popping in, I missed you! Im over the moon that everything is going wonderfully for you babe...awwww...little boys are just lovely, a mummy's relationship with her son is sooooo special, my little boy is so affectionate and gentle with me...they are so lovely.
Thankyou for the congrats too...we are very excited but also very nervous and scared. I find myself praying every minute that everything is going to be ok. As you said, we are just taking it step by step and day by day, we dont want to look too far ahead yet. I have a blood test on fri so im just praying that it will reveal good rising levels. I cant wait for the day I start to relax a little, the first few weeks are always the hardest. Anyway, dont be a stranger....keep us posted on how you are going...I cant believe you are 21 weeks already, that went so fast....from my point of view anyway, probably not from yours ;) I ll keep you posted on my progress too.

Huge :hug: for you hun,

Issy

Evening all,

Issy- Congrats on ur BFP!!! Hope ur well and relaxing

HannahS86 & Theresa - I'm so sorry for your losses. :hug:Y ou have found very supportive people to talk to and share the up's and downs with.
Theresa- :bluedust: Good luck for Saturday :pink-babydust:

Mel1979- :crossfingers:this is ur month for a BFP

babymiracles- good luck with the wedding planning. You will be very busy

pbstar- Congrats :stork-boy: a little boy is on the way

smilanatu- :noaf::SAAF: let's hope u get an early xmas prezzie

AFM- im still in the TWW. Well at least i think iam. No idea when i'm due. I used to be irregular anywhere between 30-40 CD but when i fell pregnant in september it was my 2nd cycle after stopping the pill. I worked out i must have O around CD13-15. so i figured after AF returned after i had d&c, this cycle i'd O around the same time. Hence how i thought i'd be in the TWW. Now i dont know when AF is probably due or when i should test.
Have i confused u :confused: coz iam.

Hi all,
I havent posted for a long time but hae been reading all your posts. Its good to know there is such a supportive group out there.
I went back to Gyn today for 6 week checkup since D&C after my loss in Oct. He did an ultrasound and said my lining was thick and bright meaning I should get Af soon - not soon enough for me as I want to TTC again. He is starting me on clomid tablets day 3 for 5 days and then have a bloodtest on day 21. Im so praying it works straightaway and I don't lose this one.
There I've posted and I feel much better sharing with you all. I am excited to be able to try again but just so incredibly scared out of my mind that Im going to have another miscarriage.
Thanks for listening girls..

Hi all i joined today so i'm new at this i had a stillborn 19th sept 2008 she was my second child i was 36 weeks gestation just went into for 36week check up and there was no heartbeat. I had a period exactly 4 weeks after she was born and haven't had a period yet, i have had a blood test to see if i'm preg but it came back neg. Does anyone have any idea or experiences on this? Was your periods reg after your first one? and how long did it take to get ur periods back?

Rmercimek - I lost my little boy just 2 days short of 36 weeks. I am right here for you. I bled for 5 weeks after Zachary was born and then had my period 3 weeks after that. I have been TTC for 2 months now and we are hoping that Saturday will give us the Christmas present we want. My periods have been very erratic since then with anything from 23 to 37 days!

erybery - Big hugs to you. I am TTC and I am scared too - we are all here to take this journey together.

princess85 - Thank you for your thoughts xxx Congratulations on your engagement!

tempus moriendi - Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate you thinking of me.

:hug: to all of you.

Good morning lovely ladies!!! It's a me post...

:dance: for us...we got a :bfp:

Please keep us in your prayers...

It was a wonderfully dark line...still is this morning...I am sooooo EXCITED!!!

God willing this will be a sticky!

Okay I gotta go get ready for work...I just couldn't wait another 2 hours to post...LOL

:bluedust::pink-babydust:
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

smi-- OMG, OMG, OMG!!!! :leap: How about that for a great Christmas??? Oh, I'm SOOOOOOOO happy for you!!! :happyforyou: :cheer: :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:



pbstar-- :bluecheer: Congrats on your little baby boy!! :itsaboy:



Will be back later for persies.... have to get DS ready for school, just wanted to say how happy I am for smi and pbstar!!!


Will be back later to properly welcome the newbies! :grouphug: Sorry that you've all had to join our little thread, but hoping that you find comfort and support here among us!

Thank you thank you thank you jen!!! I am excited and scared at the same time...I have no symptoms the only reason I tested was for the heck of it...I was 1 day late...I sure hope God sees us through this one safely...:pray:

smi - oh honey..............SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! :hooray::leap: BFP is the most beautiful sight in the world - sending all the :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: in the world. Really happy for you hun! merry xmas!!!

issy - so happy for you too - don't remember if I already told you that. keeping looking after ur mummy tummy :hug:

pbstar - congrats on ur lil boy :clap: - hope ur well hun.

rmercimek, zacharysmom, erybery, hannahs86 - my thoughts and prayers are with you ladies, doesn't feel that long ago that I was TTC after m/cs and infertility, I just can't seem to leave you all just yet, big hugs.... especially to rmercimek and zacharysmom, given my gestation, I know exactly how you would be feeling - from the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry.

babymiracles - congrats to you hun on ur engagement - enjoy this wonderful time - well done!

:bellyrubs: to tempus, krystie, fifi, megsmum, AJC (thinking of you especially hun), and the other lovelies i have missed (forgive my head)

:bluedust: to jen, princess85, hannahd, mel, wth and again to the other lovelies who are no less thought of.

jen - sweetheart - don't forget the soup hun.

afm - i can't sleep and that's why I am posting at this shocking hr!

I just bought 2 more tests because I just can't believe it!

Thanks for the well wishes plc...wow December 27th huh...not too far to go!

Yesterday no symptoms other than 1 day late...took the test and still no "real" symptoms...I am peeing more frequently and I might be feeling a tad yucky...or it could all be my imagination...

Smi - :leap::confetti::happyforyou::hooray::cheer::stick yvibesboy:


CONGRATULATIONS

I am just so happy for you What a wonderful early Christmas present

Congratulations Smi! :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Will come back later for more persies but wanted to let you all know that AF arrived this morning. :angry: I am so angry and feel like such an idiot. I can't believe I let myself get my hopes up. I have had pg symptoms though, I wasn't imagining that. Or maybe I was?

I have to go for another BT today to test if I have any ovarian resistance. Back to the FS tomorrow so hoping he can give us some hope on what we do next.

Poor DH, I don't know if I can do this much longer. The look of disappointment on his face each month just breaks my heart. :cry:

I have been ok, haven't even cried. I just feel so disheartened and wonder what on earth are we doing wrong?:confused:

Sorry for the negative post, just feeling a bit sorry for myself. I will come back later and try to be more positive.

Mel xx