Mummyof4-the next step is another BT tomorrow and U/S then if all good i should trigger sat night and egg pick up monday morning it all depends on my estrogen levels tomorrow if they are still good then yippee we will make it to the next step if my estrogen is way up then they will cancel.
And i dreaded the events that i had to attend and the births of all those babies around me but i did get through it i diddnt think i would cope but i had a cry and was ok i still try to avoid things that are painful but i am doing pretty good we talk about abbi all the time so she will never be forgotten and my DH brought me a glass christmas ball with an angel inside of it and he had Abbi's name ingraved on it so every year at christmas she is with us and remembered and loved these little things we do make it so much easier.

Mathewsmum-i have had people say i am not the happy bubbly person i used to be and life goes on blah blah blah i tell them when they have held there dead child in the arms and had to deal with the fact that i had to make that choice to do that to her and then to find out we might never have a healthy baby together then they can comment on how long i should take to grieve and how long it should take for me to be my old self again and that i dont think i will ever be the same again but until they have been through it then they can keep their comments to themselves.

Craftmummy & elislouise-fingers crossed for your BFP .