Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - October 2009

[craftymummy9]

Hello all,

Well hope your day is going ok and your all feeling good,
snugglybean sorry your having a bad day we all get those I see a women at the school my kids go to and she is pregnant the same wks as I should have been comming upto to 20wks and its so hard seeing her every day with a growing tummy and mine still empty,
Just think of your coming trip to Japan and maybe go out a buy something new for your trip make you feel better !
Matthews mum and ferrals after my better judgement I went ahead and POAS and sure enough I knew it would be a BFN so back to the drawing board think im going crazy ! still there is always next month when my OPK stiks finally arrive at least I will know if I am O but I am so scared of finding out my days are over and no more eggies left ! thats one reason why I won't go to the GP I guess don't want to be told ( sorry love no more ovulating for you )

Murraycod hope your ok only 12 more days to wait until you POAS and then maybe we will get a BFP this month !

TO ALL THAT NEED SOME !

[maddison]

Big Hellos to everyone!

Looking forward to seeing a lot of BFP's start to roll in over the coming month.

Snugglybean - Im sorry you are having a hard day. I hope it gets better for you.

Murraycod - Fingers crossed for your BFP this month. Was great to see you got the go ahead with it. Hope the next 12 days fly by for you!

Ferrals - November is just around the corner for you. Hope all goes well!

Eliselouise - Im glad you have had a relaxing month and taken the pressure off a little. I found that helped me too. Good luck for ttc next month.

Bookworm - Its so good you have an OB thats being proactive and that you have a plan. Lets hope you get that BFP real soon and dont need to see any specialists.

Coco - I hope you are doing ok!

Zstar - Wow your pregnancy is really moving along now. Hope you are feeling well and enjoying it.

AFM - I am now 10 weeks. Have had small amounts of spotting (brown & red) at least once a week every week since i got my BFP but have now had 2 scans and everything is going along perfectly so far. Its scary every time it happens as last pregnancy there was spotting and then the m/c. Its good to know that it doesnt always mean the end.
I cant wait to see some more good news in here!
Sorry i know i have missed some people...

to everyone!

[luna moth]

maddison - just what I wanted to hear! glad it is going well for you. i'm smiling now...

[ferrals5]

Loopylouie-vitex can be brought at health food shops or naturopaths.

Craftmummy-maybe a bit early yet.

Maddison- good to hear from you and i am happy all is well with your bub.

Snugglebean- it must be thursday's i struggled all day at work on the verg of tears you know when you can't even look at someone cause you will burst into tears my day started with a txt from my best friend to say that her waters broke and the baby would be born today then when i was at work a workmate told me the his ex partner who has 5 children to different men and left him after their son was 6mths old and fell pregnant with her 6th after a one time brief encounter with my work mate on an access visit with his son is having a girl so that was enough to send me to the toilet for a cry then to top it off another friend who has 2 children 1 to ivf and another natural told me she is 3 mths pregnant and she is 39 and not sure she really want's to have another baby so that tipped me over the edge now i am at home waiting for a txt to tell me what she had and my cow of a SIL is due tomorrow so i am feeling really down today i want to go to bed and forget the whole day.

[Mildez]

Ferrals I find it hard hearing about other's pregnancies also except its everyday not just thursdays. I am fine unless I go shoping etc or go to work (hard to get away from it as Im working as a midwife) and my DH's family seem obsessed with talking about who is UTD. My family know abit better then that. Went shopping with MIL today who had to point out the gorgeous little baby things. Just had to get away from her to pull myself together.
Thinking of you all and to be reading about your BFP's.
Me I am really worried about another ectopic. The more I read the more I realise how likely it is. I hate google sometimes but can't keep off it.

[murraycod]

Hello Lovelies !!

Yeah Thursdays suck, have not been looking forward to today, my official EDD, to top it off, I had to endure attending a work morning tea to celebrate 2girls last day at work they on Maternity leave, and I felt left out..
But DH gave me the best pep talk when I got home, which has made me feel positive and happy. Apart from the morning tea bit, have been ok, preocupied I guess.

Matthew'sMum happy "O" days for you!!! Better go do some more to make sure it's all good!

Sparkles how did you go with temping thismorn? Did you get a temp rise yet? I could never work my OPK's out.

Ferrals you need a big hug Youre doing well babe, and you survived another day, may it be only just, but you did XX
I so loved your advice with the HPT Stick that was awesome......and to think you actually have sat there and thaught that up at some stage!!! Classic!!!! I promise I have no Sticks at all, I figure if it works or not, the BT wont lie to me. Because I have had fake positives poas because of the Pregnyl inj, and my body tells me huge porkies! XX

Craftymummy I had the biggest sneezing fit last evening, and so remembered what you posted!!! Have you ever tried sneezing and holding your pelvic floor at the same time.............impossible, I almost wet my pants............and don't laugh cuz your fault!!!!! So funny though.........

Bookworm good news your OB has a plan for you. And hope you can get that B/P down X

Snugglybean---Love you hun, hope tomorrow is better.

Loopylouie the scans I have are Internal Ultrasounds....Horrible things they are. Sure a man invented them. They don't hurt, but are VERY uncomfortable and Invasive...

Zstar good news about Amino, and thankyou Maddison for dropping in

Thank You everyone for the support shown, you are all great ladies XX

Carftymummy everything hit me last night....seriouse, I woke having the most shocking pains in my left side at 2am,radiating through to my lower back. Would swear it was AF!! Have been dull crampy all day. But atleast I know somethings happening down there! X
I have anoth 1500 iu Pregnyl inj on Saturday, so that has gone fast already!

Emmy83, Ric, ScaryPinkFairy, mummyof4, Coco, and everyone I missed, have a great evening, and hope tomorrow is a good day XXX

Love you all XX

[~MummaBear~]

Hey girls
(im going to try these persies its my first time so i am really sorry if i forget you, or if i say the wrong thing lol)

Snugglebean and Ferals i am sorry to hear that you guys have had a bad day today. I too am having problems hearing about other peoples pregnancies

Emmy83 i have to try and remind my sister that i dont want to be walking around looking at baby stuff too.. other people jsut really dont seem to get it. And stay away from EVIL GOOGLE!!! lol''

Maddison i know everyone will say it bu you just need to relax!! I had spotting the whole way through the pregnancy with my DD1 and she is a perfect happy 2 year old!

Crafty It really sucks watching other peoples bellys grow while yours doesnt. My beautiful SIL ( better be nice she might read!! LOL) has a lovely belly growing right now and i am so happy for her. i am just really upset that we didnt end up getting to share this journey together and her belly is a reminder of what we are missing. ( i wish that looked remotley how i want it to sound, but i am really sure taht you girls know what i mean... and i really hope that you do too if you read it SIL lol)

AFM Well we have officaly started TTC. I dont really know much about anything cause we have not done the active TTC before just kinda counted days and went oh i O on day..... but this time i am a little more antsy and i want to get my BFP NOW!!!! so where do i start?

well tahts about it
again i am really sorry to anyone i missed, or offended... i will get better i hope!! lol

[Matthew's Mum]

evening everyone,Ferrals-hope tomorrow is a bit better for you,people keep telling me to 'give it time' and take 'one day at a time' sometimes that day has to broken down into hours and even minutes...bookworm-good luck with this cycle...snugglebean-it will be Friday soon...Eliselouise-you & dh can make up for it this cycle,if your not to exhausted from your reunion...Loopylouie-good luck with fs appointment...Craftymummy-so sorry,thought you were in with a good shot.I know how scary the thought of having no eggs left is but i think the sooner you go to the doc the sooner they can help you if needed...Emmy-sorry your dh family isn't more sensitive to your needs,i've heard of successful pregnancies after etopic,hope that the case for you...Murraycod-Sorry you to had a bad day,hope tomorrow is a bit brighter...Mummy of 4-If you know when you 'o' thats a great start,fs recommende 'o' sticks for me,good luck...

[Sparkles]

Hi all,

Ferrals- big hugs!
Murraycod - thanks for asking, i'm going with 3dpo today, so fingers crossed.
SPF - how you going hun?

Hi to everyone else and hope today bring lots of sunshine and smiles to all!

[ric]

sparkles - fingers crossed for u.
ferrals & snugglybean - big hug to you for having a bad day...
mummyof4 - all the best for TTC
MurrayCod - when are you planning to do the test? hows health and everything...excited ?
Craftymummy- whats happenin at your end?
Emmy83 - dont worry , my huge hugs to you, dont worry, everything is going to be alright with all of us and we will have healthy pregnancy and cute healthy baby (ies) in our arms soon.
Eliselouise - hope you relaxed now and ready to start ttc soon and fresh.

With me, i "O" yesterday, and we did our part so now its all wait and wait and wait and wait and more wait... and finally TESTING for BFP..........

[ferrals5]

Afternoon ladie's today is a better day i did my OPK early today and it was still neg so i went to see my acupuncturist(spelling) and went over possible reasons for my high estrogen and not feeling myself ovulate last month which has never happened before anyway she did some extra things to me to help destress and gave me extra needles to bring on ovulation by the time i got home this arvo after picking up the kids i have have slight period type cramps so i went and done 2 more OPKs and got a real strong positive line on both so thank god my body is working right on que so much for the FS saying i will ov early i am on day 13 so i should ov tomorrow what a shame we have to avoid getting pregnant until this next BT but i am happy that i am back on vitex and my body seems to be doing what it is supose to do.
My best friend still hasnt had her baby yet her waters broke yesterday and nothing yet so they are inducing her this arvo i have to be strong and handle it she was there for me when i lost abbi.

Ric-good luck in the TWWi hope it flys and you get that BFP.

To all my other BB ladie's i will be back later.

[bookworm12]

Hello, all, sorry I don't have a lot of time to post tonight. I'm trying to distract my brain during the TWW, so I'm going to curl up in bed with a good book until DH gets home from work. I hope all is well for you all, crossing my fingers for good news for everyone.

[helle]

Crafty It really sucks watching other peoples bellys grow while yours doesnt. My beautiful SIL ( better be nice she might read!! LOL) has a lovely belly growing right now and i am so happy for her. i am just really upset that we didnt end up getting to share this journey together and her belly is a reminder of what we are missing. ( i wish that looked remotley how i want it to sound, but i am really sure taht you girls know what i mean... and i really hope that you do too if you read it SIL lol)

Ok, I'm guilty of stalking. Just to make sure you're going ok, chick
I know exactly what it's like, too & I've been trying to decided what's worse since your angel flew... Watching other belly's grow while mine didn't, or having people watch my belly grow while they mourn over theirs not growing...

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Our Angel, Jayvan 11/12/2009 17 weeks & 6 Days

[scarypinkfairy]

hey everyone i have been having a tough few days too
i thought i was developing an infection as i had a fever and felt really ill last night. we went to emergency department and we waited there for 2 hours and gave up. people there had been waiting 4 hours and no-one was being called in. i decided i would be better off tucked up in bed. i went to docs today and she gave me antibiotics in case i do have an infection. on top of that, my bleeding has increased. just feels like nothing else can go wrong.
also, at work i deal with failed pregnancies, we do the testing for them, as well as amnios and cvs samples. we don't normally get them but today we got a 13 week fetus and i went to pieces
i feel almost bi-polar. happy one minute crying the next. i just want to get off this emotional roller coaster.
sorry no persies

[luna moth]

Thanks everyone. My work has been uber-stressful lately, it sorta sucks, but ti'salso keeping me relly busy, and will help keep the next 8 weeks flying along. When we first heard it, waiting 6 months felt like forever, but we're pretty much there already! Yahoo!

SPF - my bleeding was not much for first four days, then increased rapidly. I went through calling the hospy too, MIL wanted me to go straight up there, but I stayed home and kept an eye on it, it was fine.

Ferrals - you can get through this. You've already shown the world that you're stronger than you ever imagined. Getting through this is going to be fine, you'll be fine, you know you can do it.

In other news - got pretty drunk this evening, was walking home and bumped into my Dr. Drunk. A little embarrassing! Actually, she's the kind of Doc who might have been a little bit proud to see me out and about. She knows me fairly well. I will never forget her dropping the f-bomb down the phone to the hospy to try and get me in sooner for the d & c. lol.

Have a good weekend everyone!

[~MummaBear~]

Ok, I'm guilty of stalking. Just to make sure you're going ok, chick
I know exactly what it's like, too & I've been trying to decided what's worse since your angel flew... Watching other belly's grow while mine didn't, or having people watch my belly grow while they mourn over theirs not growing...

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Our Angel, Jayvan 11/12/2009 17 weeks & 6 Days

Thats cool! i will let you stalk! lol
i think pregnancy loss just sucks for everyone.

spf- i hope everything is ok, sounds like you know what you should be watching for, and hopefully the anti b's help with everything

AFM i spent the day arguing with the Drs cause no one would give me my baby's post mortem results. I am going in tomorrow to ge tthem now... its like this whole thing isnt hard enough, thye have to go and make it a little bit harder..
( are we allowed to talk abut other stuff in here or just TTC)

Well i hope everyone else is ok... and getting lots of action so to speak

[ferrals5]

Mummyof4-we got a preliminary autopsy report at our 2 week check up after having abbi which gave us a list of all the abnormalities from head to toe we were told the final autopsy reults would not be final for 4-5 months and the geneticist at the royal north shore said the preliminary results gave them an idea of what to test for geneticly and that would take 6-10 weeks we saw her the 10th of june and got the definate diagnosis of SLO so from the 20th of march until june 10th was almost 3 months i have not asked for the final results of the autopsy as everthing was written in the first and that was pretty traumatic seeing everything that was wrong with my girl but i had to know i needed an answer and i knew i made the right decision it was the DNA we were waiting on to be sure and unfortunetly thats why i am here now waiting on PGD IVF so don't count on a final answer just yet but as you said they think it was a problem with the placenta don't they if so you might get your results a bit quicker.

SPF-sorry you are having a tough time working where you do it must be hard the way i try to look at it is that it is natures way of preventing these poor little babies from be born disabled into this hard and somtimes cruel world they go to a better place i think of if abbi had made it what type of life would she have had being tube fed in a in a wheelchair with no clue to the world around her it would have been existing not living i like to believe they are in a better place.

My friend still hasnt had her baby hospital was to busy to induce her last night so they are supose to be doing it this morning (i hope ) i would have gone off my nut by now.

[scarypinkfairy]

ferrals - that has been a long time for your friend. hope she has her baby soon. then it's your turn next and thanks ferrals, i know it's natures way and have to keep reminding myself of that.

mummy of 4, hope you get the results you are after soon, so you can put start afresh. even though i work in the field i do i didn't get any tests done on my baby. there must have been something wrong and that's all i keep telling myself.
as for talking about other things, well i think we all do and i figure it is part of ttc. i think part of ttc is being emotionally ready and talking through things on here helps a lot i find.

snugglybean how funny getting drunk and seeing your doc. at least you are still able to go out and enjoy yourself. she probably was happy for you. yeah 8 weeks is not long, maybe we'll be belly buddies lol

just feeling a bit sorry for myself atm. and it doesn't help with my mom ringing me up asking if i want to keep my womb. of course i do, but also don't want to keep thinking things are wrong if they aren't. i still have abdominal pain, but only had the d&c monday. can anyone remember how much pain they had and for how long? i'm on antibiotics now and doc said just go to emergency if i start passing clots. today bleeding is less, so that's good. just slightly concerned by the pain.