Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - September 2009

Yaaaa:leap:aaaaaay Maddison! I just had a feeling I should check in today, haven't been around for a bit!

Tanya - I am so with you. I hid the last pregnancy fairly well - told work and family, btu then found it really hard for friends to understand why I was so upset. Now I wished I had told them, and next time I will be telling everyone. I also can't stand the way nobody talks about it - when I was in hospital after the bike stack, the ambo was giving my history, and he would always whisper when he said "miscarriage"
And nobody ever says anything, everyone always stumbles over how to refer to it. Even DH. And it makes me feel really uncomfortable.

In other news... my hCG is officially zero, so no more blood tests for a month! :dance: Hospital can't seem to get their facts straight and now want me to wait until February to TTC again, so I can get final clearance (can't otherwise get it as will be in Japan) I expressed my discontent, and the middy said it was a recommendation, and they'd rather I do that, but ultimately was my decision. I'll be in Melbourne on the test date, so I might get it done down there, but that will also be very close to O day! And EDD. Man it's going to be full on. Love it. I'm going so hard at life at the moment. And I feel good.

Hope everyone else is well!

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for the welcome, it's nice to know there are people out there to help and understand you.

SammyP: I actually meant hysterscopy, I should reread what I type in future and then it should make sense!!!

Congrats Maddison!!!! :dance: Hope all goes well for you...

I bought my clomid today and now I just just have to wait for AF to arrive. Could be any day, painful waiting when you dont know when. :dunno:

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Hi bonelige and welcome. Im very sorry for your loss. To answer your question about o'ing and bdind, we only bd the day before ov and we got our BFP. You can look at my ff chart if you want to. I believe its recommended to db every second day from getting any fertility signs like ewcm, the day before and the day of ov. Someone correct me if im wrong.
I hope your stay here is only very short and a BFP is just around the corner for you.

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AFM - I have had a bit of a rough week. I thought I was coping quite well with everything but then I spoke to my friend who is preg and got this horrible feeling. Not angry towards her, just not wanting to have anything to do with her.........felt bad because that is very mean towards her. Just been a bit teary and overly emotional and feel like everywhere I look I see pregnant women. I am sure you guys know what I mean..........

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know what you mean. you want to be happy for them but at the same time it's really hard because you know you should be in the same situation. big hugs for you

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Tanya - I am so with you. I hid the last pregnancy fairly well - told work and family, btu then found it really hard for friends to understand why I was so upset. Now I wished I had told them, and next time I will be telling everyone. I also can't stand the way nobody talks about it - when I was in hospital after the bike stack, the ambo was giving my history, and he would always whisper when he said "miscarriage"
And nobody ever says anything, everyone always stumbles over how to refer to it. Even DH. And it makes me feel really uncomfortable.

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someone close said to me after this loss.." i guess you won't be so quick to tell everyone next time" i said no i probably will tell people because the amount of support i got was jsut amazing. Why should it be an embarassment? you wouldn't pretend nothing happened if it was a relative or pet or soemthing. I guess some people aren't as open with emotions, but i know i am.

Sorry ladies double post.

:happyforyou::happyforyou: CONGRATULATIONS MADDISON :happyforyou::happyforyou:

Just lurking and read the fantastic news. Couldn't be happier for you.

Cheers
Lisa

Me 32 DH 38
DS 5/1/2007
:angel: December 2008 (13 weeks)

Congratulations Madison!!!! :clap: Hope everything goes well :dance:

CONGRATS MADDISON!!!
About time we got another BFP in here.

SNUGGLY - Good to see you pop in, i've been thinking off you lately. great news your HCG is back to zero!! I talk to everyone about our miscarriage if it comes up and i make a big point that it shouldn't be something that is not talked about. I realise it's probably because people feel uncomfortable talking about it and don't know what to say bjut i feel better talking about it!! DH got drunk and went and told everyone 12 weeks on the dot, so then we had to tell everyone about the m/c. But being in a small town and running a business, people had to know especially since i had to go back into hospital. Everyone has been great though and next time, i don't think we'll keep the pregnancy a secret at all as everyone will probably find out if i m/c again anyway!!
Good luck to everyone!!!! :)

HI ladies,
I've been lurking, and not really posting ....

Chickybabe - great news about the heartbeat!!

Maddison - Congratulations!!

Sammy - I read in one of your earlier posts (on the last thread) that you said since the m/c you now feel every ache and pain of ovulation etc. Me too. I never had ovulation pain before the m/c, didn't even know what it was. And pimples - them too - URGH!!!!!

AFM - well, in the 2ww again, though not feeling confident this month.

After we were given the all clear by doctors we decided that this cycle we'll try again. So I let DH know which week is ovulation week, and explained how important it was so guess what....he's been too tired. Ovulation day meant to be yesterday according to charts, and the deed happened on monday. since then he's too tired!! wtf?!?! mind you he could still got to sports training for 2 hours. I am so so so mad.

sorry for the vent.

Hi Bonelige - I understand your frustration. It wasnt that long ago i was complaining about the same thing. I never told dh when was o time cos he would feel pressured to 'preform'. Men have very different feelings about the whole ttc thing compared to us ladies. I think they feel a little used. You would think they would love all the extra bding!

Bonelige i know what you mean, every time i tell db that its o time and that we need to do bd he says the exact same thing, hes too tired and cant be bothered. So like maddison said i just dont tell him anymore and just try my hardest to bd at the right time, but its very frustrating a male saying no to doing the deed, who would've thought :ROFL: Hopefully the monday worked or you could try again today and hopefully that will work for you too. Good luck on getting a BFP
Milly good to see you back, hopefully this is your month even though your not feeling confident. Last time i got my bfp i was feeling exactly the same, thought there was no way but got a nice surprise when it showed 2 lines :crossfingers: for you.
Sparkles thats how i feel about telling people too, everyone has been very supportive so i wouldnt be too worried about telling people again when the time comes.
Loopielouie good luck with the clomid, hopefully you get a BFP very soon
Snugglybean thats great news that your hcg levels are back to zero! Why does the doc want you to wait so long before ttc again, im sure youve already told us but my memory is terrible. Hope you are well
Starangelk sorry to hear you are having a rough week, i hope you are feeling a little better soon. I too was in that boat last week i thought everything was going along fine and then saturday i heard about a friend who is pregnant and i just lost it and was very down and emotional for about 3 or 4 days. Just starting to feel a little better now.
Murraycod good luck with the scan today hope you get some positive news :crossfingers:
Tanya good luck with the tww, that would be great to get a BFP on your edd and i really hope you do. I will be keeping everything crossed for you.
Hello to everyone else i have missed, hope everyone has a great weekend.
AFM still waiting to ovulate. Have a girlfriends hens day party tomoro so im thinking i might have quite a few drinkies in the hope that its the last time i can do it for about 9 months :lol:

BIG CONGRATS MADDISON

I am soooo happy to hear your news!

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afm - i am going well. 12 weeks tomorrow. have scan for downes sydrome on tuesday so looking forward to getting that out of the way. bit of a stress with our ages. m/s has pretty much gone and i am just starting to feel good again. taking it one day at a time.

i lurk here all the time keeping up to date with all you amazing girls. i wish you sticky pg's very very soon and you are always in my thoughts.

Eliselouise I had a molar pregnancy, so need to wait and have heaps more blood tests so they can be sure that no tissue has grown back.

I had been going really well emotionally, but last night the ILs got on the phone. First they started telling me how fantastic it was that my levels were at zero- like really carrying on and gushing - and I got a little bit upset, because it's not fantastic. It's rubbish that I even have to do it. It's just something I do, just a small part of my life, and I have no control over it anyway. But that wasn't so bad. It was when they started talking about my birthday, and MIL was trying to figure out how old I'll be (28) and I just started getting teary because I know we won't be having a baby until I'm at least 29, and then teary turned into a full blown cry. Now, there's nothing wrong with having a baby at 29, but numbers and figures and dates that remind me how long this journey is are really difficult for me, and I just lost it.

Going to a ****tail party tonight :) Ought to lift the spirits. :lol: Literally!

snugglybean- you poor thing. sometimes IL's think they are saying the best but really, they aren't. I hope your tests will be over soon and you can have a positive journey.

zstar- good luck with tests

starangelk- hope you are feeling better today

well i guess i'l wait until next month. maybe it just wasn't meant to happen yet, who knows? I won't tell him about o'ing next month. he's in the mindset that pregnancy can happen any time of the month:doh: wouldn't that be great if it were true

bonelige - my dh is the same. Last weekend i had bad sinus problems and my dh brought me demazin tablets. I told him i didnt want to take anything incase we were pregnant and he replied ' we will just try again next week!'.

Bonelige I understand how you must be feeling.
I have been putting so much pressure on myself to make sure we DTD on the right days I was unaware of how "Un Fun" I was making the situation. Sure my DH wanted to DTD on the right days and have a baby just as much as me, but I guess they go through emotions the same as we do, just not the same ones!! Boys are weird!! And they think we are emotional!!!!!!

This might sound completely silly, and I know each of our situations are different. But this is how I get through my crazy days and I really hope that it helps you even if just a little.......
DH and I have been 2geth for over 4yrs, trying naturally to have a baby. We decided to get married in Jan this year so I had 6mnth to organise our beutifull wedding day.
I had so much fun, I loved every part of it, feeling like a princess, excited, choosing dresses, the anticipation, the 'Big Day' was comming so quickly. Sure everyone has stressful days and bad ones, but most of the time if we just take a step out and look in, it is actually fun.
On the day it flew, we both had the most perfect day but it went by so fast. too fast.
It's not until now that I look back and realise how much fun I actually had organising and planning and getting spoilt!
What I'm trying to get through to you is enjoy everyday of starting your family. Love each day and just accept it for what it is. Get spoilt and spoil yourself, because when that day comes, that you finally get your BFP again, no doubt it will go by just as fast. There will be different good days and different stresses to worry about. And that one beutiful big day when your baby is born will just go by so quickly.
Next thing you know you will have a teenager talking back giving you cheek!!!!!!:lol:

Well thats my story of how I cope and I hope that it helps someone else that is reading this xxx

Not much space for other persies I will pop in again thisevening to say hello.

Had my scan, my eggies STILL aren't ready today but will be on Monday. So nasty Trigger inj on Sunday and full steam ahead Monday morn.

:hello: To everyone talk later x

Bonelige - DH is the same. He gets really tired around mid-week at work. I make a point of telling him the day before and I make sure we don't wait until bedtime as he is sure to be too tired at that point.

Hi all! I dont know whether I told you all in here but I found my big brother who was adopted out when he was 13 months old. ON FACEBOOK! :D He had a profile made using his birth name, the ones on the adoption papers because he goes by a different name now, and I messaged him and said "I think Im your sister!" and he emailed me some questions to respond with and upon answering them he wrote back "I guess you're my little sister! Wow!!" we exchanged a few emails and then on fri night he gave me his number to call him on, and we spoke for over an hour about everything, it was so amazing!!

He suggested meeting in sydney in Nov, they're in Adelaide *him and his wife..* and he called mum yesterday after I passed on her number and said "for when you have dutch courage here is mum's number" mum called an hour or so after i emailed that to him crying that she just spoke to her baby!! It's so exciting! :dance:

The whole reason I started an epic search was because I said to mum "Im in the waiting zone for testing and I really need a distraction" and she goes "find your brother!" she had never done it because on the papers it stipulated that he had to come to her as she had no rights to him anymore. which is crappy. but anyway I called her 10 mins after and said "mum...I found nicholas!!!" :leap:

Now what am I going to do? I have 7 days left!! :rofl:

Hi Coco - Thats awesome about finding your long lost brother. I bet you cant wait to meet him. Your mum must be so excited and nervous. Do you have other brothers and sisters? Well done on keeping yourself occupied to pass the 2ww time.

Hello to everyone else out there. Its been very quiet in here but i do hope everyone is feeling well. Is anyone testing soon?

Coco - that's amazing! How incredibly exciting for you! So, um, 7 days to go... how's your sock drawer looking? Maybe you can rearrange it :lol:

Yeah, drawers are looking shabby actually...and have a massive pile of washing needing to be put away..was waiting for dh to do it but he is useless...

Maddison, I have 2 sister and 2 other brothers :) it is amazing, cant belive I found him!

Coco - that's just amazing and exciting news. Had he been looking for your Mum and any other siblings he didn't know about?

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Bonelige I understand how you must be feeling.
I have been putting so much pressure on myself to make sure we DTD on the right days I was unaware of how "Un Fun" I was making the situation. Sure my DH wanted to DTD on the right days and have a baby just as much as me, but I guess they go through emotions the same as we do, just not the same ones!! Boys are weird!! And they think we are emotional!!!!!!

This might sound completely silly, and I know each of our situations are different. But this is how I get through my crazy days and I really hope that it helps you even if just a little.......
DH and I have been 2geth for over 4yrs, trying naturally to have a baby. We decided to get married in Jan this year so I had 6mnth to organise our beutifull wedding day.
I had so much fun, I loved every part of it, feeling like a princess, excited, choosing dresses, the anticipation, the 'Big Day' was comming so quickly. Sure everyone has stressful days and bad ones, but most of the time if we just take a step out and look in, it is actually fun.
On the day it flew, we both had the most perfect day but it went by so fast. too fast.
It's not until now that I look back and realise how much fun I actually had organising and planning and getting spoilt!
What I'm trying to get through to you is enjoy everyday of starting your family. Love each day and just accept it for what it is. Get spoilt and spoil yourself, because when that day comes, that you finally get your BFP again, no doubt it will go by just as fast. There will be different good days and different stresses to worry about. And that one beutiful big day when your baby is born will just go by so quickly.
Next thing you know you will have a teenager talking back giving you cheek!!!!!!

Well thats my story of how I cope and I hope that it helps someone else that is reading this xxx

Not much space for other persies I will pop in again thisevening to say hello.

Had my scan, my eggies STILL aren't ready today but will be on Monday. So nasty Trigger inj on Sunday and full steam ahead Monday morn.

To everyone talk later x

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Hi all! I dont know whether I told you all in here but I found my big brother who was adopted out when he was 13 months old. ON FACEBOOK! :D He had a profile made using his birth name, the ones on the adoption papers because he goes by a different name now, and I messaged him and said "I think Im your sister!" and he emailed me some questions to respond with and upon answering them he wrote back "I guess you're my little sister! Wow!!" we exchanged a few emails and then on fri night he gave me his number to call him on, and we spoke for over an hour about everything, it was so amazing!!

He suggested meeting in sydney in Nov, they're in Adelaide *him and his wife..* and he called mum yesterday after I passed on her number and said "for when you have dutch courage here is mum's number" mum called an hour or so after i emailed that to him crying that she just spoke to her baby!! It's so exciting! :dance:

The whole reason I started an epic search was because I said to mum "Im in the waiting zone for testing and I really need a distraction" and she goes "find your brother!" she had never done it because on the papers it stipulated that he had to come to her as she had no rights to him anymore. which is crappy. but anyway I called her 10 mins after and said "mum...I found nicholas!!!" :leap:

Now what am I going to do? I have 7 days left!! :rofl:

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:dance: that's unreal. isn't facebook great for that sort of thing. i hope the meeting al goes well.

Thanks to everyone for being so supportive. it's wonderful. :D Spoke with dh on friday night and asked if everythng was ok and if he still wanted number 3. He said definately. Long story short, but he was having performance anxiety and felt better off saying no than to have nothing happen IYKWIM. I said that he should've jsut told me in the first place and i admitted how pushy i have been and promised to let go and just take things easy and enjoy the ride. we "kissed" and " made up":lol:

on another note....
did any of you get counselling or join a real life support group? half of me is thnking to do that. A friend of mine runs a group in the town i live in as she lost a bub at 32 weeks and had no one really to talk to or get support from, so started up a group a few years ago. i don't want peopel to think i'm not coping if i do go, because i am coping, but it's more to see real life people and talk and open up to them.

Sammy: He didnt know any of us existed :) Only knew of mum so he was pretty shocked! I just now got a txt off him arranging to meet for my birthday seeing as I found him the day after his!

Bon: thanks yeah its awesome!! Ill keep saying it..I cant belive it!

My temp was 37.86 before and my thermometre gave off an alarm beep..I have been feeling fluish and tired and was hoping it was from a possible implanting happening? I got sick about 8-9dpo last time with a cold & cough but cant remember if I had a temp..furthermore..hoping my temo hasnt been too high so as to ruin my chances if it were to happen??

Hello all! Just got back form our camping trip and wanted to come by and see what I've missed while I was away.

Congrats to Maddison on your BFP! That's fantastic news!

Welcome to those of you that are new, and sorry to hear of your losses.

and I'm also sorry to hear that some of you got AF instead of BFP's

I'm currently in the 2ww. I ovluated during our camping trip which made TTC extremely difficult, but we did manage to get in one BD around ovulation time (which came 3 days early and completely threw me off), so even though I think my chances are pretty low this month I'm still hoping. I think I'm around 7 DPO so I have another week to wait. Thankfully all the kids programs have started up again with school, so there will be lots for DS and I to do this week to keep us busy and keep my mind off the waiting.

Yesterday yet another friend told me she is pregnant (that makes 4 of my close friends all pregnant within a few weeks of each other) and i actually took the news really well. I told her about my m/c and I was genuinely happy for her. It didn't make me cry or feel upset, so I guess I'm finally coping with all of this.

Well ladies, I think I just lost number 3. Got a BFP five days ago. Had sore breasts, fatigue, back pain. Thursday I started getting brown and pink discharge. Just a little tiny bit and I KNEW it was completely normal. HCG levels went from 284 to 548 in two days. Progesterone was borderline, so they put me on a supplement. About an hour ago I started bleeding. Not super heavy yet, but way more than spotting, basically like a normal period. I didn't bother calling the doctor. I know what's happening. I'll try to go in for an appointment tomorrow to make sure it isn't ectopic and there's no retained tissue. I'm only 23 years old! This isn't supposed to be happening to me! THREE miscarriages in less than 11 months! I am so angry right now. More than anything, I am absolutely terrified that I'm never going to have a child. After the first, I was sure it was just one of those things. Just bad luck. After number two, I was a little bit scared, but still hopeful that things would happen next time. But three???? My odds aren't looking good. I've been tested for clotting disorders and some hormone imbalances. I'm going to get every single test done that I possibly can. I am so alone.

Hannah - Im sorry you are going through this but dont give up yet. Try to rest as much as you can and hopefully it will just stop. :stickyvibesgirl:

Hannah OMG im so sorry this is happening, please take rest and don't give up hope.
I hope that the bleeding stops and everything turns out ok for you. And if it is bad news we are all here and praying for you honey XX

Coco congrats at finding your brother. I think thats such wonderfull news and I hope that you both have a long lasting friendship together.

Twinsis glad to hear you survived your camping trip!! Good luck with the TWW x

Bonelige So happy to hear you and DH have made up!;)
The day after my last post, my DH came home from a fishing trip with the boys completely paroletic drunk. He passed out in the shower and he didn't even flinch when I turned the hot tap off! I was so angry with him. I had to drive all the way in to the hospital to get one of the girls to give me my inj for the evening (dh usually does it) and I slept on the couch because the bedroom stank like grose alcohol breath and drunken farts........I giggle now but at the time I couldv'e cried and cried. Not even 40hrs to go for our IUI and he gets his spermies ****ed out of their brains! All that work all month...all of those needles......for what???? Hungover tired sperm.

Well today at 12pm we had the IUI done. His sperm motality was 95%, I dunno how:whip:
The nurse said it was a small sperm sample but a potent one.....not gunna tell DH that though:lol:
So now I'm resting on the couch, starting to get a bit crampy but that is the norm.
Told to rest easy for 2 days, and than begin Pregnyl inj Friday.............more needles. I'd take a pic of my tummy to show you all how bruised and battered it is but I'm embarrased to!!!!! 14 inj I have had so far this month.
I just hope this is all worth it.

Hello to everybody I hope everyone had a nice weekend. Good luck for everyone in the TWW, is anyone testing soon???

Hannah: hope that you are ok sweety :hug:

Murray: I am following your IUI with reeeeeal interest, do you mind keeping us updated? Thanks!!!
xx

I am feeling all fluey still, it started to hit yesterday and hoping that it is because Im UTD! I dont know whether I will regret writing this next bit and I know nothing will change fate, but...I havent had the normal Ovary cramps like ovulation pains that I normally have start at 6dpo.. :crossfingers: I bought tests today on the net....and at priceline.. :redface: I did one today hahahaha WHY do I do that?!!!! lol

Coco not a problem in the world XX

hannah86 - try and rest and get into the doc tomorrow. this is terrible for you. sticky dust your way. take care.

Hannah - I hope it isn't the end as you feared. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you. I understand your anger. When I had my second miscarriage DH didn't offer any comfort the first day and when I later asked him why he said he could see the anger coming off me in waves and knew nothing would help.

Coco - how exciting - congrats on finding your brother xo

Hannah - i am so sorry you are going through this - i really hope there is a positive outcome :hug: rest up and be kind to yourself xo

Murraycod - goodluck with the IUI - hope this is it ! xo

Hello to Everyone else - hope you are all well !

xoxo

Evening all, hope everyones monday was ok.
Hannah im keeping everything crossed for you honey, hopefully everything turns out ok for you :crossfingers:
Coco thats very exciting news about your brother, good old facebook - gotta love it :lol: Hopefully those flu symptons do mean that you are UTD, keeping my fingers crossed that this is your month!
Murraycod goodluck with the IUI, the injections sound very painful but hopefully it is well worth it in the end.
Twinsister that is good news that you are coping well with people announcing there pregnancys, it can be a very difficult time but im glad you are able to cope better with it now and hopefully youll be able to announce your in not too long as well.
Bonelige im glad you and dh sorted that stuff out, sometimes they must think we are mind readers and they dont need to tell us. I didnt receive any councelling after my loss but sometimes think it may have helped. I dont think people would judge you or think you werent coping if you did go, everyone heals differently and it may help you alot. I think probably the reason i didnt is because i wouldnt know where to go to but seens you have a friend who runs the group i would definately give it a go.
Hello to everyone else and i hope you are all doing ok
AFM im pretty sure that im ovulating today, havent used an OPK coz last cycle i just got let down when they didnt give me a certain positive, but i had some definate noticeable cm this morning so going to try and do the deed tonight and hoping that DB is not too tired :wall:
Bye for now

Hi all - sorry I have been MIA for a while, just lurking in this thread and not posting. I can't tell you why, you ladies are the best, I think it's just part of my way of dealing with everything - like I want to hear how you are all going and it helps to know I am not the only one but by posting it means everything has actually happened. I think I am still in a bit of denial. Sorry if that didn't make sense.

Anyways, I am back now and definately time for some personals :)

Coco - OMG! That is just amazing, almost unbelievable! Of course I absolutely believe you but wow, it's like something you read in a magazine. I am oh so happy for you, what a wonderful gift :clap:

EliseLouise - I also struggled to get a proper positive result on the OPK's I was using, I was using first response. The 2 lines are supposed to match but they never did my entire cycle. So this time I got some from lullaby conceptions and I get 2 equal dark lines. So maybe it's the brand? Happy BDing!!

Chickybabe - how are you doing? I hope you are well.

HannahS86 - I am so sorry to hear your news. I hope the doctors were able to give you some information to help you understand why this has happened. Thinking of you xx

Twinsister - how many DPO are you? I am 6 DPO and this is driving me craaaazy.

HI also to Sammy, Madison, Snugglybean, Bonelige, Murraycod, Zstar and everyone else who I have missed.

AFM - I am just waiting this 2ww out. I have been doing okay, but still a few impromptu crying fits over the m/c that I don't feel coming and I can't explain. I just feel like I have this hollow feeling inside my chest, like something is missing. *sigh*

Hannah - You poor thing, I'm so sorry you are having such a stressful time. I am sending you good thoughs and really hoping the bleed stops and that baby is ok.

murraycod - it rained most of the time but yep we survived and I'm pleased we managed to get in one BD (DS was sleeping in the car lol). Sorry your hubby upset you with his drinking binge but glad to hear his sperm did not seem to be affected. I too am now following your IUI with great interest.

Coco - that is very exciting news about your brother! Congratualtions! I am adopted myslef and I just found my birth family a year ago. I found out I have siblings I never knew about as well. It still feels really strange but it is definitely a great experience. I also hope your lack of cramping is a good sign.

eliselouise - thanks :) I hope you get to announce a BFP soon too

starangelk - I'm pretty close to you I think...I'm not 100% sure on my exact ovulation date but I'm around 7 or 8 DPO. It's driving me crayz too. I don't think my chances are that great this month but I'm still hoping and I'm dying to know. As an aside your username always makes me smile as I keep mistakenly reading it as "Strange Elk"

AFM I keep having people asking me when I'm having another baby. I wish people would just mind their own business. Serioulsy 6 people have asked me in the last week and I'm getting rather annoyed. Even though I would love to tell them to mind their own beeswax as they have no idea what a person's situation is like and they should not be asking such personal questions, I have decided just to be honest with them all and then let them feel reallly bad and awkward. I have told them all "Well we've been trying for 9 months now and we were pregnant in July but we lost the baby so I guess I have to wait and see when we're lucky enough to have another". That shuts them up pretty darned quick.

Thank you all for the wonderful words of encouragement. It is so good to know you are all here and know what I'm going through.

I spent about an hour on hold this morning with my obgyn. All I was trying to do was find out if I could schedule an appointment, but nobody ever answered the phone! Finally, my mother and I decided to just go to the office and see what they could do. The receptionist said, "Sorry, there's nothing open today. You're going to have to go to the ER." We ended up going to another obgyn that was nearby and thankfully they were able to see us within 30 minutes. And I am SO thankful that we went there because I am definitely ONLY going there from now on. At this point, I am waiting for the ob to call with the results from my blood test. She was going to order an ultrasound, but after realizing how early I am in this pregnancy, she didn't think we would be able to see much anyway and she didn't want to stress me out even more.

The bleeding was a moderate flow when it started. It was like that for a few hours. But I put a pad on overnight and there was only a bit of spotting when I woke up. I am still bleeding a bit now but it has turned brown. I have been having some cramping on and off, but nothing intense like with my last two m/c. So I have no idea at this point what's going on. Maybe it was bleeding that was unrelated to the pregnancy? Or maybe it was so early that there wasn't much that needed to pass and that's why it stopped so quickly? I know that the outlook right now isn't great. A part of me is trying to hold on to hope, but the other part is telling me to be realistic about what is probably happening. I am just praying that we get the results tonight so we can at least know. Please keep my baby in your prayers, ladies. I am so scared.

Oh Hannah (((hugs))) I am sorry you are going through this right now :(
Please stick little bubba, mummy loves you!!

((((hugs)))) Im so sorry Hannah. Hope that it is a sticky baby holding on for you!! We're here to catch you if you fall hon xx :hug:

Oh Hannah I am holding your hand too... :hug: